irrational.
how do I explain
I feel I know your thoughts
a promise of pain
a promise that isn't yours.

irrational.
but the feeling remains
I once saw your eyes
you awakened the insane.

irrational.
I'm trying so hard!
trying for you,
trying, trying
trying for myself too.

still irrational.
through my eyes
even the bluest sky seem grey
and though I know they lie
the monster inside
keeps on having
just another thing to say.

Pleasure, oh pleasure!
It’s my pleasure to be
Your forgotten treasure
It’s a pleasure to me

It hurts, as it may
But trust me when I say
It’s a pleasure today
Or it will be someday

Pleasure, oh pleasure
Yes, make me bleed
Pleasure, oh pleasure
I’m in such a need

A pleasure is anything,
anything can it be
Dying and crying,
not being able too see

For when it’s dark
and it’s cold
Some people get scared
But darkness’s a pleasure
So it shouldn’t be feared

Pleasure oh pleasure
whatever you be
Pleasure oh pleasure
Please don’t come for me

Dear crossroad,
Give me advice
Right or left
May both give life,
May both give death
But it may happen in many ways

Dear road,
There is no return
But too much regret
Keep on going
Keep on hoping
Keep on believing that you might survive the upcoming turn

My dearest one,
Memories won’t come back
Future is knocking on my door
My nickname is not my name
But my name is not sure

Dear living
Please let me know
If I am alive
Or if I am dead,
everything might just be happening inside my head