Putting iron stints in my sides to stand up alone

I’ll braid your hair and kiss your cheek
Smile at you and tell you that you’re doing just fine and you always have
I think you’re amazing and capable

I wish you gave me enough space to be proud of you

Look at the self respect I made for myself
Even if unfortunately that looks like slamming the door in your face

The complexities sit in my stomach like a poison my body doesn’t know how to digest
A puddle of multiple strains
Just sitting like a lump that I want to throw up

******* for making me choose myself

You knew **** well how I felt.. but you still said you wished I’d told you

The smell of liquor on your breath brings me dread
Mixed with a low passion deep in my belly
I know that you’ll lick me extra nice
But also lie to me, be inconsistent, and in no way like the person I created in my head for you