I felt something new
I felt community
And joy
And ease
I felt like I could speak like myself
That I could connect with sounds and movements beyond words
That I was funny
And I fit without needing to try

I looked at you and I saw the stars
I looked in your eyes and I felt a raw, oozing wound, ready to bleed if you asked me to

One hour car ride

His head on my shoulder
Sleeping peacefully beside his two best friends in the world
The people who love him the most

They’re talking about how they’re happy they know you
How happy that you guys could all make a family
How lucky we were to find each other and how excited we were for the future

His head on the pillow
In his best friends bed,
Safe,
Happy,

His girlfriend comes in crying
His best friend tried to look up her skirt
His best friend

Pack up your things
Fold your heart neatly into a cloth
Nurse it
Keep it warm
And keep walking
Everything else is just beyond the horizon of your perception

Crying into my bathwater
Wondering when it’s all going to end
Wondering what’s beyond the next doorway
And what the journey is going to look like getting there

Your soul and my soul have known each other for a long time
We were placed here
You had to hurt me to grow
And I offered it to you
I offered to feel every ounce of pain for you so that you could grow
I hope it worked

Poke, ****, and scrape
The world doesn’t happen to me I happen to the world

Someone’s wearing a cologne that I’ve smelt and I don’t know where