Smiling, crying.
The light comes breaking through.
Sitting alone,
the flowers bloom,
not left, any room.

No one here,
fear the danger.
Coming through,
another stranger.

The night falls,
across the stage.
Another mother in a rage.
It's hard to win,
going cold,
the truth I'll never know.

The son will rise,
yet again,
but soon will fall.
Suffering through it all.

Looking back, going forward,
against the sands of time.
I cant control, letting go,
I'm losing my mind.

It's hard to see, you and me,
we're not doing fine.
Every time I stop to think,
of how it should be,
there's no answer to it.

I must push through it,
But can I? No.
Forward is the only way to go.
trying not to show,
the fear I know.

Look at you,
claiming your perfect.
Are you really?
I get cut down all the time,
you always say I did the crime.
No I'm not grown and you are,
but that doesn't mean you should go so far.
I'm breaking slowly,
almost gone.
But sadly,
you just carry on.

Yellow and orange,
fill the sky.
Kids, men, everyone cries.
Still standing in the middle,
the one to die.

Army Green,
covering the plain.
The pain that remains,
will stay the same.

We're all here together,
for the same reason.
At home they're proud of us,
while raising our guns.

We seem to be heroes,
though taking lives.
No one sees it,
through those eyes.
Is it our disguise?

What happens when someone,
pushes to far,
and it's no longer a joke?
The lasting friendship,
goes up in smoke.

Once you tear down a wall,
it's hard to rebuild.
Especially when the pain,
feels this real.

Some may think it's okay,
say you're alright.
But we all know,
you can't win this fight.

Why can't you see?
I'm not just fine.
You'll never know,
because you are blind.
Blind to the fact,
we were all hurt by you.

We use to be close,
but now we're falling apart.
I should have known from the start.
You've chosen him over me,
I never thought this could be.
Now you think everything is okay,
but that's wrong I must say.
I wish we could make things work again,
I am getting close to the end.
You just don't understand.
I didn't get chosen over a man.

Highs and lows,
up it goes.
Then it comes crashing down,
falling to the ground.
Spinning around.

No one knows,
how it goes.
The final blows,
of one another,
then choosing to suffer.
For the love of it all,
We fall.

Sun burnt, red shining.
Curling wonder,
lighting, thunder.

A strip of light,
shines through the night.
Standing tall,
you're the one I want after all.

This has come around,
way to fast.
I can't believe it's ending like this.
There's no other way,
it can end.

I'm sad to say,
this is then end.
I've come so far,
but it meant nothing.
This is how my
story is gonna end.

I wish it could've been different.
Just hoped it would turn around.
Although I guess it never will.
The pieces have fallen,
right into their places.
This is my final call.

For me and it couldn't be,
at a better time.
All these things,
appear to be just right.

I've tried so hard,
but somehow I always failed.
I've gained but never seem to have won,
it all seems so clear,
I just want to remember.
Wish things could be how they used to be,
but they never will.

I've gave everything,
and lost it all.
I tried so hard,
but it all came crashing down
It's fallen,
and there's no turning back now.

Looking at this town,
everything is lost.
The souls are grayed,
and all hope is gone.
I've been locked here,
for so many years.

I rose but shortly fell back again.
I tried to pretend,
it wasn't really real.

All these thoughts are racing,
deep inside of me.
I have fallen,
and there's no turning back now.

The truth hurts,
this we know.
Sometimes we choose,
not to let it show.

The armor is tough.
It has grown this way.
And some hope,
it chooses to stay.

We think we can handle it,
then breaking from the knowledge.
Bit by bit.

Covered by a blanket of snow.
Our fate is all but known.
We seek to find,
the answer in time.

The fantasies are sealed,
spinning around like a wheel.
Seeking to find,
all known to the mind.

It may never be known.
The possibility is set in stone.
The cancer is revealed,
far from home.

At 12 o'clock, the freaks come out,
and there I am, walking about.
I look to be lost and confused,
but inside I'm twisted and used.
Some may come by, look and stare,
I respond with a glare.

Why they do this?
You tell me.
Its probably just meant to be.

The thoughts of here,
leave me with fear.
My path, is not so clear.

Being trapped is something most people only think of,
but I'm living it.
Some may say it's my destiny from above.

It's hard to bare being alone.
i would've liked never to have known.

The sun is beginning to rise,
coming before my eyes.
Time to say our last goodbyes.

Finding myself, finding me,
Who can I really be?
Shades of color to choose,
What is there to lose?

Trying to find,
peace in my mind.
Searching through the mess,
trying to see the best.
Best I can be?
Never will be me.

Confidence is overrated,
being proud is to much to ask,
just here to complete my task.

The little girl,
sitting by herself,
waiting for someone,
to come and rescue her.
She's been there,
for many years.

She feels the pain,
everyday she lives it.
Her heart is broken,
everytime she thinks about it.
Wishing, just wishing,
the pain could finally stop.

The look in her eyes,
is lost and confused.
She wonders,
"Why did this,
have to happen to me?"

Her blue eyes,
never shine like they used to.
The smile she always wore,
will not come back again.
She screams out.

Her sorrow is heart-breaking.
I just wish someone could make it end.
For her,
but sadly no one ever can.

Scanning my mind,
trying to find,
the true emotion I hide.
They can't be seen,
but they mean,
a world of different things.

Lost in the world.
Never to come out.
But they're inside,
wandering about.

It's true,
but not apparent,
visible but not seen.
All that is available to me.

Upon the hillside,
is the low side,
of this world we know.

We're all in danger,
but something stranger,
than we choose to show.
Comes along and wipes it clean,
was more than had been seen.

To us it's clear,
and others it's fear,
that comes before our eyes.

Why is this happening?
Who did this to you?
This nightmare is all to true.

Suffering through it all,
watching you fall,
seems to real to be.

Crazy thoughts, unreal dreams,
can this really be?

I've waited so long for this day to come.
Odd against you, two to one.
Does it excite me?
You better believe it.

Left for dead,
time after time.
Sad, happy, mad, glad,
Which is best?

Sitting alone,
gone unknown.
What seems right,
never is.

Wanting more,
than before, nothing,
the only thing I've ever had.

Black gives way to blue,
and what I see is true.
Nothing can protect,
an extreme nervous wreck,
from what he is to face,
body filled with disgrace.
Now to find a place,
to hide from all the waste.

The light before me goes dim,
lost, looking for them.
Why does it stay this way?

I can hear that song still play.
In my mind,
I don't find,
anything to believe,

Can they see me?
Help! I yell out.
I scream and I shout.
No one knows what it's about.

Rising while falling,
slowly yet fast.
This feeling,
having a blast.
Watching through the glass.

Losing my mind,
lost in time.
Never to find,
all that I have tried.

Coming through,
pushing to see you.
Not seeing,
going blind.
Nothing inside.

Out of the darkness,
comes light,
finding it is hard.
Losing it now.

I can't fins which way to go,
saying yes and no.
I'm a liar yet I'm honest,
tired but can't sleep.

It's dark in the light,
trying with all might,
to win the battle we fight.

Is being right fun for you?
Does anyone else feel it too?
or is it all done,
Are you the only one?

Black on white,
wrong means right.
Yes is no,
stop, or just go.

Fighting with one,
is not just fun.
Pain can last a lifetime.

Being forgotten, no one knows.
But do they care? No they don't.
They can see, but they won't.

Down, far away,
not coming back today.
Surrounded, by myself.

The power from within,
growing thin.
Screaming, no might,
sadness in happy light.

Smiling in tears,
to only ones near.
Not seeing, blind,
losing it, my mind.

Being fake, stupid lies,
these are your alibi's.
Why you're like this, no one knows.
When you whine and when you groan.

It still sickens me to this day.
I just want it to go away,
though it's not stopping anymore.

Growing up I wanted to be like you,
doing anything you wanted me to.
Me being the puppet and you the master,
but time goes by faster.

Never did you realize the effect it had,
it would've been nice to call someone dad.
Now I have to look else where,
for a place that was never there.

The man I look for,
is here no more.
Why can't I have a father like him,
my life would no longer be dim.

You don't have to be that, I will,
but when I'm gone, don't wonder why.
You're the one that let me die.

A piece of me,
belongs to you.
and there's nothing I can do.

Deep inside,
there's something I can't hide.

What I feel for you,
is honestly true.

From the sky above you,
it comes falling down.
Hoping to reach the end,
and not stay this way forever.

It comes falling down,
coming down like bullets,
crashing down on me.
When will this finally stop?

It happens all the time,
everything so dull.
You hear it falling,
from up above,
and you can't make it stop.

All that's around,
is lost and cold.
You can't control this,
it will never stop.

Its falling for a lifetime,
it can never end.
You'll feel its anger filling in.

He sits alone,
lonely and cold.
As each day passes,
he's getting old.

The answers he seeks,
are never found.
Now he is death bound.
His life is crumbling,
the truth is stumbling.
His life is becoming dim,
why did this happen to him?

I am me.
That's all I'll ever be.
You are you,
and that's cool too.

Just don't try and control me,
and things will be just fine.
You have yours, I have mine.

Come into the light,
open up your mind,
to change inside.
Let it flow,
throughout the night.

Let them hear you calling.
Make them hear you scream.
Show them what your made of.
Let the light shine out.

One day they will realize,
how wrong they were.
Don't you listen to them.
What they're saying,
doesn't matter anyways.

Just truly know,
you have a light that glows,
deep inside of you.
Don't be scared,
to let it shine.

It may be hidden,
under all the heart-ache,
but it can come out,
if you jet let it.

Tumbling down,
smiles flipped to frowns.
Coming through,
trying to find you.

The one I want to hear,
so please don't disappear.
Needing to be here,
to make things clear.

Having you here is all I ask,
so come and save me at last.

I want to be,
something for people to see.
Someone who has no shame,
so I won't take the blame.
Being in my shoes,
is something most don't choose.

Is it their fault?
No it's yours.
The tension rising,
anger pours.

Still through this,
I can find no bliss.
If one thing could change,
and relieve my pain,
then I hope it would,
but at the end,
it never could.

It seems I'm invisible,
like I don't really matter.
Then, you make me feel,
like I've never felt before.
I'm no longer just a bore.

Isn't it strange,
how one person can make a difference.
His voice, so soothing.
The jokes, so flippant.

That one person makes my day.
Always makes me feel a certain way.
I can't believe it's real.
This feeling he makes me feel.

The world is changing so fast,
this feeling will never last.
Will it end?
Who knows.
Controlling me,
is how it goes.
Life as we know it,
is falling, bit by bit.
Will it ever quit?
No one knows,
that, it shows.
Confusion is setting in,
could this be, the end?

Counting down,
the last seconds to the town.
Sitting, looking back,
on the past.
Those times were a blast.

Seeing clearly now,
they're bound,
to what they found.

Opening eyes,
curious minds.
Just to find,
answers in time.

The smell of lilac fills the air,
its way to much than I can bare.
Its closing in, coming near,
this, is what I fear.

I know it happens, maybe to soon?
Though all I hear is a merrily tune.
Echoing through the woods and trees,
as if it is laughing at me.
I push through it until the end,
stopping with that happy grin.

Being me, not you,
that's what I do.
My pride,
I hide,
or do I have any at all?
Probably not,
that feeling,
I forgot.

In this situation,
no one wants to be.
Feeling unimportant,
Does anyone even care?

Struggling through this fight,
just pulling through it by night.
Resting, trying to think.

The fear that's present,
has seemed to become a routine.
A constant battle,
no clear means.

Back and forth,
changing course.
Twisted words,
or just a blur.

No real meaning,
that's no surprise.
just try and make it last,
until time can pass all of us by.
This will be, our final try.