you call me evil
but I just learn from my mistakes

you call me heartless
but I care more than you think

you call me ignorant
but I've experienced more than you know

you call me untrustworthy  
but I've trusted more than once to know that trust leads to tears

you tell me i need to experience love
what you ment to say was lust

you tell me to let go
but once I do- will you hold on?

you tell me to take my walls down
but where will you go once you get in ?


see I've met guys like you
and I've learned from my mistakes
don't let this one in,it's a facade, it's a fake.

answer that question,and let the game of love take place.

I want a taste
to taste it just once
the texture on my tongue
the breathing in my lung
the spark ,while it's still young

I want to feel
to feel the heat inside
burning with unknown
to discover -not be shown

does this taste or feeling exist?
cause i felt it when we kissed
just a spark , not a fire
to taste is my desire

I've yet to come so far
to find this taste upon a star
for me it's as far as space
delirious thoughts through my mind race
but when i find this taste i seek
i hope it makes me strong,not weak.
but nevertheless;

I have yet to taste this flavor
the famous flavor they speak of
simply- pure,passionate,tender,disgusting,
love.

I hear her name - I am numb
into my ears,
for when i hear it , i hold back my tears.
not cause Im hurt, not cause I fear
but cause i only wish i could have her here.
to breathe, to see ,to smell,
to bring me back the way i felt.
cause feelings,emotions they are what keep you alive.
lately though its been a struggle - im not gonna lie.

its those moments you live for, the moments that bring you back.
to the time, to the place but you're already losing track
of the time you had left, should have done more..
the feeling of drowning as you look to the shore,
covered in the shiny black sand- there she stood
id do anything to be in that moment ,anything,if i could.

cause you see, when you lose someone,no - not just someone,you lose yourself
and for the rest of your life you're lost,helpless.
the only way to find yourself is in the memories you've made
engraved in your heart -these moments
these smells,these thoughts,these feelings,emotions.
everything that connects you dont let it out of your site.

cause once you do, once you forget,
her name is really numb,
and she really is
gone.

her name i vow i will never take lightly, cause **** she was a woman whose name
was never ment to be
numb.