We're all soft skin and folded limbs,
Our sour breath mingled in.
Young and not quite in love,
but I'll lie here with you until I fall.

As we work on this puzzle piece,
I wonder where it will click into place.
This fairytale may not end so sweet,
but I know you won't admit defeat.

Your blue eyes are telling me something,
something we silently agreed not to say.
I hope mine are not leading you astray.

I'm more than just a little girl with a daddy complex.
I am someone who has been hurt, abandoned and betrayed,
I'm a little girl who has been brave.
And I still know how to behave.

Not an alcoholic, not a smoker.
Still a ******, never touched dope or
Anything harder.
No fishnets on these legs, crossed at the knees.
Nothing tragic about me, just a hard, young shell.

You can't compete with me and the lessons I've learned,
the girl scout badges I've earned.
Daddy's gone, so toughen up,
things are set to get rough.

The daffodils peaked early,
they line your resting place.
There is a sea of faces,
some blank, some bleak.
Many I do not see.
You are scattered among the crowd.
Your eyes, your nose, your lips.
Your mother is drowned.

I've never believed in Heaven,
but on this day I believe
that you have to find peace
and solace
in your self-induced sleep.

My darling girl
with a smile so bright.

I would've handed you the bricks
to build up your walls
So it hurts less when you fall.

I would've held your hand
and made it okay
So we could see that bright smile again someday.

I would've kept you safe.
But I have not lived
and this mundanity would've killed you
Faster than your noose.

I can't keep the same disposition
for more than two weeks.
A sweet caress filled with anger,
passion streaming from my fingertips.
Hope is stand-alone;
to love is to fall.
The fisherman's net will not suffice,
I'm cold on this winter's night
with no light to life.

I could write best sellers
Just about you
But instead I'll just say
Thank you for the love I felt
Among the grass, under the sun, you kept
Running your fingers through my hair
And I couldn't believe it
When I could see your beautiful soul staring back at me

If I could go back to that Sunday
With the clear blue sky
And your head right next to mine
Everyone else just seems to fade away
And you can't say that it didn't mean a thing to you
*** is *** but love is gentle
And your fingers caress slowly
In my stupid head you love me
My hearts on the line, on my sleeve
My dignity is something I wonder if I can keep

You didn't have to hold me like you did.
There was nothing ****** about it.
But I know if I was anyone else
They'd be thinking the same thing.
And you cover your tracks
You take it all back
But I know what it really meant
I know how you really felt.
It's a sunny day
And I can feel my heart breaking
Thinking about how you smiled at me
Thinking about that hand in mine
Fingers intertwined
There's love in the air; you said it yourself
I felt a click, I hope you did too
Otherwise all these thoughts are moot.

How can I sleep,
Knowing you're out there?
Walking the streets
Wanting to be anywhere
Anywhere but home
I know it's hell
And that's why I write these tortured poems
But I can deal cos I don't dwell
On the past
What's done is done
and it's gone
We're coming last
Fading fast
But don't be ashamed
I once complained
But life screws you over again
And you deal with the pain
And now you don't feel a thing
Now you can't see the brink.

Poets soul and voice
Of which I had no choice
Please Please Please
Don't test me?

I've been lost and never found
I wasn't saved when I drowned
Still underneath the surface,
Trying to make it worth it
Lock me away I'm your shame
Are you afraid of what they'll say?
The bad stuff always stays
The highs always fade
You were young and stupid
But I've got the scars to prove it
Paying my dues, but what did I do?