I saw it standing there
all alone on the side of the road
it had the number 5 on it
and nothing else

The black paint was chipped
faded from the sun’s beating
its wooden post strangled by weeds
a memorial no one sees

Years had passed, no letters writ
a flag permanently dislodged
dented seams, its door askew
rust giving way to time…

it had the number 5 on it
and nothing else

at all

when lifes got you down
and your standing all alone
look inside yourself
let your feelings show
remember who you are
dont forget to love yourself
cuz deep down you know
your all that you need

when your broken
into tiny little pieces
when your exposed
for the whole world to see
dont back down
hold your ground
prove to everyone
who never thought you could make it
that your stronger than they are

when the rains pouring down
and all you want is some sun
push away the clouds
make your own day bright
doesnt matter who you are
we all have the choice
to dance in the rain
or sit and wait
for the storm to pass

when your broken
into tiny little pieces
when your exposed
for the whole world to see
dont back down
hold your ground
prove to everyone
who never thought you could make it
that your stronger than they are

when your broken
into tiny little pieces
when your exposed
for the whole world to see
dont back down
hold your ground
prove to everyone
who never thought you could make it
that your stronger than they are

The distance you placed between us
Is only going to backfire.
You tightened the noose;
I cut your wire.




You get in our way,
Inside and out we burn like Hell.
You've tried to break us down,
But we never fell.

Though you try and try
Your plans have failed.
And through it all,
Our love has not paled.

The distance you're placing between us
Is only going to backfire.
You placed the noose;
I have your wire.

You didn't start as a threat,
But as we saw your plans take flight
We prepared ourselves.
And we're ready to withstand the fight.

We want you to realize
And we want you to understand
That we won't let our love
Slip through our fingers like sand.

The distance you placed between us
Is only going to backfire
You're tightening the noose;
I'm cutting your wire.




And the distance you placed between us
Is already starting to backfire
You tightened the noose;
I cut your wire.

I drank the cyanide tonight
I was tired of it all.
I drank the whole thing
And to the floor I did fall.

I remember now
As I lay here in a coma
Why I took the first sip.
It's your fault.
I was going down
And you sat by,
Watched me slip.

As I lay here dying
I feel the anger swell
Why didn't you try to save me?
You know what I feel

But even as I die
I somehow find it in me to forgive
I'm crying inside
I change my mind!
I want to live!

Guess it's too late now.
Seems everyone has given up on me
Why did I take that drink?
Why was death my dream?

I'll never know,
It's too late now.
I'm taking my
Last faint breath

I'm sorry mom
I'm sorry dad
And bro, I'm so sorry
I'm leavin' you

Dear family
Dear friends
And everyone else who cared
I'm sorry I had to go

I did what I always did best
But don't worry
It's all over
I made my final mistake.

I drank the cyanide tonight
I was tired of it all.
I drank the whole thing
And to the floor I did fall.

Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be as I pack my things
To take somewhere far away?
Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be as I quietly shut
The backdoor for the last time?
Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be as I walk downtown
To catch a ride to nowhere?
Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be as I step into as stranger's car
And tell them to take me somewhere far away?
Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be as I reach my destination
Under the cover of night?
Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be as you wake up
And find my bed empty?
Wonder when you'll miss me.
Will it be when you realize
That I'm gone
I wonder when you'll miss me....
I really wonder when.

Once more I shut and lock my door
And again I reach for my purse
As before, I pull out my tissues and blade
Once again I pull up my sleeve
And remove the wristband you gave me
I look at myself in the mirror again ashamed
As I give into the tears and pain
And the sadness and anger swell
I begin to lose sense of my surroundings again
I press the blade to my flesh as I have done so many times before
And out of memory I repeat the action again, again
I wipe the blood away as I did the previous nights
The tears mix with blood again, and I wipe my eyes
Even though this has happened several times
I still am shocked once I come back down from flying high
With the repeated marks left
I quickly hide my blade again
And throw away all of the ****** tissues
I gently place the wristband back in place
And again smooth my sleeve over it
I remain hidden in my room again tonight
Awaiting more scabs to form
Again I cut
Again I fear myself
Again I'm afraid of the world
Again I cry
Again I scream
Again I hide
Again I am hurt
Again I try to block it all out.
Again I keep secrets
Again I cut
Again
Again
Again

She says she's fine
Draws a smile from a line
The secret thoughts inside
All the feelings she hides
Everything she wishes she could tell
Every reason that she fell

She smiles her life way
Through each and every day
Wear the mask again
Like when everything began
Laugh like there is no pain
Live to see what she can gain

Though she wears a happy face
Her eyes are in a cold distant place
She tries with all of her heart
But she can't just be happy from the start
It's going to take time
She needs to let herself unwind.

She's trying to let it all out
Teras on her face, for help she shouts
A cry heard by seemingly no one
But she son't give up; She's not done
She'll try to fight the battle
Hope to make the world rattle

To tell her story she strives
Trying hard to stay alive
But this is not what they see
That's not who she's allowed to be
Well, she's sorry,
But her real life's a different story.

"Look inside and who will see
What it's really like to be me"
She cries out loud
But she's silent in the crowd
When will they understand
This fallen girl needs a helping hand

The life you see day-to-day
Is not the life she lives in every way
That is a fake face, laugh, smile
She's broken all the while
Sorry, but you don't know the details gory
Her real life is a different story.

you say we arent a family
i figured that out long ago
as these marks fade
i no longer doubt, i know

bleed these colors open wide
tell me what you've found
as you open your blind eyes
and look at everything around

a broken family
with broken hearts
four lost souls
ready to make a new start

lost time
fades away
children ready to leave,
not wanting to stay


memories vanish....
like a magician's trick
we no longer panic
but expect the ongoings to make our stomachs sick

you say we arent a family
i figured that out long ago
as these marks fade
i no longer doubt, i know

It was
me and you beside the lake
******. and you said
that star, the nearest one, I mean,
is as deaf as a poet
but I didn’t understand.

I was preoccupied
searching the vastness of
space. and I told you that
the moon is blind
to the ocean
but you couldn’t
comprehend.

We were lost
drowning in the darkness
alone. and we watched
the deaf star
and the blind moon
find their way
together.

Listen closely, for I speak softly
My words are true, but very few
I take my time, only fools rush in
Time goes by, I’m still on your side
Sturdy and strong, my love does not falter
Everlasting, I’ll love you forever

Let your heart sing the joy of being in love,
friendship,
sunny days,
long talks late at night,
everything that makes you happy;

Let your heart sing the sorrow of confusion,
death and loss,
heartbreak,
unfulfilled dreams,
everything that makes you sad;

Let your heart sing the rage of disappointment,
ignorance,
hatred,
broken promises,
everything that makes you angry;

Let your heart sing the songs of every emotion

and you will be a better person because of it.

I wish I could remember
I wish i could recall
But no matter how hard I try
There is nothing at all

I try to think back
And not look away
But I blocked out the past
And that's how my heart wants it to stay

If I let my gaurd down
And glimpse at the memories
I scare myself so well
They are are so horrid; When did life become hell?

I try to think of a time
When all I could so was smile
But it's been so long
I can't think of when I was that happy.

I remember all the bad
When all I want is the good
So I recreate a picture
Make my past a falsehood

I try and try
But I can only make my past a lie
Taking bits and pieces
And pasting them together

I'm scrap-booking my memories
In little bits
Trying to make the best of it
Make my life fit.

The day you walked into my life you saved me
Never thought I'd feel that way for anyone (oh....no)
You opened up my eyes
Made me let down my guard
I made a big mistake the day I gave you my heart

Chorus:
Because of you my heart is broken
Because of you I am afraid to get hurt (to get hurt)
Because of you my heart is broken
Because of you I am afraid to love again(love again)

You made me realize there's more to life than breathing
Taught me to live each day as if it were made for me
Showed me how to laugh
Showed me how to cry
Showed me how to be angry
And last of all, you showed me pain

Chorus

I fell in love (I fell in love)
You fell in love (you fell in love)
We fell in love (We fell in love)

You hurt me (You hurt me)
I hurt you (I hurt you)
We hurt each other (We hurt each other)

And now it's over

Chorus

Now it's over...

Chorus

if i could,
id change every word
i ever said

if i could
id take away all of
the bad things that happened

if i could
id erase your memory
so youd forget about me

if i could
id go away
so youd never have to see my face

if i could
make everything the way it should be
i promise i would

once again i find myself
falling behind in this plan i have
i notice the wrong paths being taken
with each step i take

i have come to see
that no matter how hard i try
i cant seem to make
my own destiny what i want it to be

with each new challenge i receive
i have to come to terms with
the consequences that i must face
though i know that i wont like them

but now i must place these problems
in His hands
i will ask Him to help me through
and give me the strength i need

i will ask Him
to take care of my destiny
and guide me down
the path he wants me to take

i now know and trust
He will take me in,
love me endlessly,
and teach me to live His way

I can still see
The look on your face
I can hear
The tone of your voice.
I remember the smile on my lips
Returned by yours.
I remember holding your hand
And never wanting to drop it.
I remember blowing each other kisses
And the butterflies it gave me
I still remember your smell
As we hugged each other
I can still feel your arms around me
The warmth of our bodies.
I can hear the beat of my heart keeping time with yours
And I can feel myself keeping step with you.
I can remember wanting to talk to you
But being to afraid to call.
I remember loving you
And I also remember the fall.
But you picked me back up
Made everything okay,
Told me that there is hope for a someday.
I remember feeling in love
But I don't remember when it happened.

Silence
Deafening silence
Until I see your face
And feel your touch
I can finally breathe again
Such words I do not own
To break the sound
Pulling me to your chest
At last you are near
And the world doesn’t seem so harsh
Then the clouds disappear
I fall back into myself
Living becomes easy
And I finally understand
For it is you that I love