The demons lurking
Beneath her surface
Could not be killed
By the painkillers
That she took daily
Nor could they escape
Through the deep marks
That laced her wrists and thighs
They could not be drowned
Amidst the ocean of tears
That shone on her face
When the silence settled
And though she fought bravely
What is one frightened knight?
Against an immortal army
Made of darkness and blood
She had won many battles
But from the first day of suffering
She knew she had lost
The war.

I live in a world
            full of people with your name
but not the way you articulate the consonants
            or the way your eyes dare
listeners to
            contradict your intricate intonation.

                      correction

I live in a world
           full of people who think they can have your name
without having your soul.

These pills don't work
My face is a mess
I'm just a tragedy
In a dress
**** the lies
I'm always told
I don't know if I can wait
Til I'm old
I want to die now
There's no use for me
I'm just a pointless little
Tragedy

If I carve out my heart
Maybe it'll stop the pain
If I slice my wrists
Maybe I'll never have to breathe again
I'm done
I can't take it anymore
I've had my fun
But now I'm closing the door
On my life
I'm afraid this is goodbye
Don't pretend that you loved me
And don't you dare cry
I'm gone
Im sorry I guess
I couldn't take it any longer
Couldn't handle the stress

I am cynical
I am lost
I tie anchors to my feet
and complain when I drown
I am clingy, corrupt
I need so many people
yet I push them away
when they get too close
I am broken
I am scarred
I build my walls
and I tear them down
I'm lonely, tired, sad
I am a mess.
Make sense of me?

My skin
Snowy porcelain
Scarlet soils
My Snow White complexion
You're the bandage
To my destructive self image
I cut deeper
You try harder
To paint my smile back on my face
Wipe away all the tears without a trace
From so far away
You keep me warm
When I'm cold and done
You're my sun
Your tongue speaks only truth
To me you are honest
I trust your love
You're my blessing from above
Come to save me from myself
Just by caring for me
Your love gives me hope
Keeps me from letting go of my rope

Love
Four letters
One syllable
No meaning.