I'm sorry,
I wish I was better too
and I know what you're thinking,
there's just nothing I can do

I try and I try
but I'll never be close to good,
I wish I could treat you better,
and I know you wish that I would

hell, you deserve it
and hell, I really don't
but I don't know what I'd do without you
and when I think you'll leave, I hope you won't

all I can do is hope,
all I can do is try,
you make me want to live,
when all I want to do is die

I promise
that I will never leave you,
it'll be you before it's me,
I will never leave you
unless my spirit parts, just like the sea
and can't you see, that I'm wrong
and that you can easily do better
but if you left, I'd be cold
leaving me alone, without a sweater
you're my warmth, you make me happy
and I just hope I can to
trust me when I say I'm trying
and when I say that I love you
so can you stay, you're better than my prescription
just give me that daily dose, because surely you're my new addiction
and let me get my fix, as those words escape your lips
"do you really love me?" you say, and I say
I promise

I live in silence,
I feast in lonesome,
I am surrounded by these walls
trapped in these walls,
but I prefer silence,
I prefer this,
I live around walls, not lies
I live with my emotions,
for if I am happy,
I feel no need to pretend,
I am exactly where I want to be
I am exactly who I want to be

sometimes, I part my lips to speak,
the words don't come out;
my lips begin to dry, slowly
as I breathe in air
there's something wrong with me
what do I do?
what is wrong with me?
I wish I could please people,
I wish people could please me,
and people come and go,
they can be amazing, rarely though
but for some reason I ruin it
I ruin everything
I am a cancer
I hate people
people hate me
I ruin everything
I hate everything
I hate me