All it took was one look
To peek at the pages of your storybook

Words spoken "come here"
I knew I shouldn't dare

You held my face in your palm
Kissed my lips, and I was gone

But here we are now standing still
And I want to go back to feel fulfilled

The moments that took my breathe away
And I wanted you to want me to stay

Feeling the passion in your fingers
Listening to our breathing linger

All thats been unsaid
Lays in-between the sheets of your bed

Holding on to pieces of hope
How much more can we cope

Your wall is built too high
No promises have you written in our sky  

I'm trying to reign back in
Let go and begin again

Seeing what could be
Not knowing if you'll let me

Blinded by its mocking glare
why must it taunt and stare

You get what you ask for
years of lifelessness is the score

Weight of the revulsive gem
is too much to comprehend

Chop off that which desecrates
freeing your spirit to consecrate

Blood pours out, stirring your need
coughing up bits, a bitter defeat

Reminisce of lost years which lapsed by
****** your life as your passion ran dry

Why is it that you come around here?
Don't you know I am going to steal....
all that is left for you to feel

Come quick and lick your lips
Don't forget to caress and dip
your fingers into my hips

Take grasp of my heel
as you bend to kneel
Hold tight as I just might
wither in vain from this delight

Keep a steady hand as I unravel my plan
for I am going to wrap you in my hand
Shh...hold still or it'll be too quick
I'm not even close to being done with my tricks

Your head sadistically spins
as my tongue hungrily swims
Pleading for when
I will allow you to give in

I am skipping to the beat of that which is sin
trying to remember how to begin to swim
in the ironic bitterness of that which I live in

Stalking the day in which I can win
when I decide to give in
'all must wither away', I say, with a quizical grin

I been reasoning the way that will lead to this defeat
trying to conjure up the hidden treat
punching the **** out of you would feel complete

I can feel the liquid splatter
and it doesn't matter
cause I have years of hate that gathered

Once we're done
i will finally be able to ***
you can be left with the hate
and for once I will feel great

White
Black
Red    or..
Blue

I don't care as long as its you.....

I will slip & slide between the sheets
Enjoying the ******* of your heat

Come near to me, hear my panting thighs
Forget the anger within my eyes

I like it this way
Just you and I

If I stood before you what would you see.....
Let me give you a glimpse of what's within me

I would stand from afar under the sweeping willow tree
awaiting the wind to ravage me
reaching up to the branches above.....
I would sway in a time existant for thee

I would exhale my breath upon the winds of time
waiting for the one whom is to be mine.
The sound of the tide rushes around me
Divine is the moment yet to be

My eyes would be a light with desire
An all consuming fire
I am reaching higher and higher

My body is warm but bare
My soul is wrapped around your stare
You can touch me from up here
If you would so dare

Captivated in the movements of my trance
Hair flowing wildly .... awaiting your stance

Pleasure and Pain exist on this plane
Causing a burning flame
Lick thy wound
and come undone

Wholeness is far away from thee
Whom would come to be
a mirror image of me

@@@
Shown too much...hidden treasure revealed.
Truth brought forth a new prespective
all to real

How could u show me
that which would make me complete
just out of reach
I am met with defeat

My body aches
and the hate penetrates
closing the eternal gate

Lines have been drawn
between Passion and Pain
I've chosen to be numb
so I can sustain

Unworthy to have
I've settle for less
and now I miss my eternal bliss
bring back the kiss to my hungry lips

Breathe me to life
for my breath has ceased
the torture is unbareable
I'm drowning in grief

Blinded by sorrow
no faith in tomorrow
been robbed of today
not much left to say

Visions I seek of you
have made me anew
searching endlessly
for my destiny
@@@

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Yes who the **** knew
not me, nor you

It was a plan
it didn't even stand

So now you know
and now you go

In and out
merry go route

No one plans
for fates ultimate hand

No one stares
long enough to care

What lies ahead
is whats unsaid.

I swear we create
dare to demonstrate

What, you can't relate
give me a ******* break

I know whats at stake
'cause I took the bait

Tasted your tears
of all the years

Life comes undone
as we watch, stunned

Dont bother to care
as I only stood bare

I need you to hear
that I'm still here

Surpressing what's been felt
the hands been dealt
~~

Life embodies what you believe
And when you see that you've not done yourself justice
You sink back in defeat

The memories of all that has slipped by you
Has become your undoing
sitting amongst the ruins of broken cries

Leaving your solace to come to bleed one last time
You know not what reeks inside your mind
Every creavis is polluted by so many lies
Letting them seep in
Now u must purge away with more sin

Yes, a wrong for a wrong
Is how its done
To feel the measure of years gone by
You can't talk your way through this pain
All thats left is what you allowed to remain

Rebuilding now and to begin again
Spirit regenrates as we recreate
Nothing is ever dead
All is as it should be
Doesn't make the decision complete
Nor does it comfort the demon that sleeps
deep deep deep within
waiting to be fed again

Awakening to reality....
The fine line that the soul walks
Choosing
Everyday is your challenge....
two roads await your footsteps
It all depends
which way u want it to end
*********
(Happily Ever After is so Once Upon A Time ~ Unknown)

Once upon a poetic affair
All was shared
Nothing to fear
Souls lay about bare

Innocent it was not
Enticing and hot
Feeling the need
A history not to be

When words were penned
It began to amend
Years of decay
A passion of plays

Smoldering in sin
As we begin
Rise and fall
Consuming it all

Your touch never felt
All your words melt
Over my skin
Wet visions swim

****** dance
Lost in this trance
Tongues lick
Heartbeats quick

Fingers dip
Into my hips
Pen bleeds
Begging to be freed

Forevermore
Is not the score
Momentary bliss
Is all of this

Written in time
That which is not mine
Stars divinely cross
Friction conjures a loss

As I lay in my bed

Feelings of dread

Have filled my head

Shot me dead



You came on queue

You felt nothing ensue

You gasp for air

And are left to stare



Stuck in between

Locked in lifeless dreams

Forget what’s been said

Your now the walking dead



Comatose in your despair

Helplessly beyond repair

Wandering like a cat in heat

Looking for a new delicious treat

inner struggles
heart so true
how could it not be
You
am I a fool

pulse races
lingering thoughts
whatever you want
how we enjoy the taunt

breathing steadies
surrender wins
how do I begin
when its going to sting

stronger than ever
lost in your essence
if only t'was a permenant presence

taking what is
for thats all there is to give
releasing the sin
living now from within

Knowing its there

You hear it not with your ear

Sensing it with all your fear


It melodically dances around you

Carefully you stare, as you withdrew


Rhythmic induce beats

Conjures up ****** heat


Steadily the sound entices

It grips you in its seductive vices


Wrapped in a trance

You prepare for the dance


Slowly you move to embrace

The beauty of your only escape


To your knees you finally fall

Hearing the voice that sang eternity's call

Once more you know

You will not let go


Holding on to your fate

Your eternal mate

For there was a day
when all was gray

Nothing more nothing less
I began to confess

All I began to reminisce
of life’s eternal bliss

How much I missed
eternity’s kiss

Memories of what was & could be
haunting me

My heart cried out
my mouth spoke aloud

Desire burned inside
ripping apart my demise

A tear fell to the ground
thy seed planted deep down

Light flickered thru
bringing me to you

I have found an escape
my beautiful gate

How long I await
my lovely fate

How long can I hold on

How long has it been

So many scars that never heal

Opening once again

I have bleed too many years

Grown cold inside

When will the tears cease

Numbness has yet to set in

Today I feel much hate

Hate who I am

Hate what I’ve become

I will make this change

I can not wilt away

I might be beat

I will not allow defeat

A sliver of determination rests here

I am holding this with much care

Awaiting the day when the flood rushes in

And all is to begin again.
******

“Pain never really goes away….you just elevate and get use to it by growing stronger” ~ Unknown

Into the depths of my soul
Would you dare go?

Waiting in the cold
For the spark to become bold

Heart fluttering no more
Burning my muse to the core