So tell me God
can this be undone
or should I take bullets
and put them in a gun

I don't have one
so I relent you're
the only one who can heal
My Heavy heart
so please God lets start

I empty myself to you
hold me close to your chest
and whisper words of life
so full abundant True

I want to be ok again you know
I just want to be ok again
and be me again

before this started
before all the pain began
Crying like a baby into my hands
but yet still you tell me of your plans

plans you have for me
that seem so far off
plans for good not evil
Lets start them now don't put them off

sitting looking into
the distance across the sky
I want you close to me to hold me when I cry

Cry my heart out
as your healing begins
Cleansing me washing me within

since time began you had me in mind
since time began your thoughts about me your more numerous than the sands

So Tell Me God where are you now
are you here?
I know you are show me how

My soul is empty and raw
I wanted with all of me to love you
but then I treated you like a *****

I will not forget
the sweet moments we had
most were good
and I made them bad

I used you cause I was lonely
You are a magnificent mom
Fantastic Lady
your house playful warm homely

Am a freaking **** and
I don't know why
I ever hurt and judged you
was it just to see you cry?

I wanted to be there for you
through thick and thin
now both our souls grow dim

even on the passing
of your mother I was there
Open Arms open heart
open legs to show I care?

Goodbye My Lover Goodbye

You deserve the best
someone who is strong
And not such a freaking mess
A heart and home where you belong
not on my chest

All I wanted was to find love
And take a chance
Now you are in tatters I'm a wreck
doing our relationship death dance

I wanted to make
your life better wanted to show you
a Glimmer of Hope
Now we almost got each other dangling by a hangman's rope

I will miss you dearly and your friendship and kiss so sweet
I think I was a trick disguised as a Halloween treat

I wanted to want you
and gave you all I had
I know I will somehow survive and
not end up in a body bag

I hope we can stay friends
and not be so *******
truth is I loved the thought of you
and never thought we might end up so heartbroken so close to fish food

so i must end because
it's getting too long
I hope and pray you will find a man to whose heart you belong

A knight of true kind
who loves you as are
Who does not throw you in the gutters but treats you like a star

You are a strong awesome lady
And will ne'er forget
Each moment we had imprinted on my brain
So much so i might go insane

I wish i didn't let things
get so messy so fast
I bared my soul
I thought hoped we would last
Now our flag half-cast

Au Revoir
My lost inamorata
Au Revoir
I will miss you deeply

Rippled in the Sons light
In the Arms of my savior
Safe and strong where I belong
Eternity in My Heart Is Where I start

Amazed by gentle sweet love
Grace O grace Exquisite fascinating
Am up again needing Your Love
In love with you in tune with you
Newness in my heart rising, start

My desire my one hearts cry to know
You basking in your endless Grace

Love that pours into my heart
Opening me up for a new start
Vibrant love coursing through me
Empty I find you, my sweet love

Resonating in my soul resounding
Iniquities washed whiter than snow
Sing a new song from the start
Eternal life in my heart won't depart