I try so hard to stay awake
push pin nails on shattered windows
the crust and glass of my aimless past
plagues my waking dreams
I am a broken crumbling
flesh and bone
monster
I
am
monster
I am broke.
I am but I slave to this matrix of
suffering

how do I maintain
this smiling face

how do I remain
in this friendless place

You’re wandering in my tomorrow,
I’m sleeping in your yesterday.
I was always far behind you,
Because you would never stay.

Beneath every grass meadow,
sun dropped slowly as night.
littlest, bitterly hacked, rises.
begging and glittering,
it wanted to drink each cloud as I emptied any fearing between two psicodelic forests and left this sailor dance under high stars.
Watashi no nagai natsu. (my longest summer.)

with no one to talk to
and
no plan as to where i should go,
i fall into a listless,
waking slumber
and
feel covered up in cold.

For how long will thee wait here for nothing?
Will the tide have come, will the sun be set?
Will new light sever, will the new day sing?
When will thee give in and simply forget?
How many times have thou fail’d to see fact
That thy lover has now cast thee aside?
Thy pride has been bent but remains intact
Yet the dreams thy once dreamt once more will hide.
Wings of mine have offer’d armor to thee
Yet thou seem’d to be afraid of flying
Frighten’d that I am thy lover to be?
Thou wilt not love, but delicate dying?
Do not mistake ignorance with blindness;
Do not despise love, rather your kindness.