So i've started to write,
wonder if,
I am doing it right?
I clearly remember how and when,
first time,
I didn't let my mind trifle,
instead
willingly let it scribble.
my hands were trembling,
my droopy eyes blinking.
My mind had a clear picture,
memories of 'us'.
Making each other's life a mess,
then coming back to confess.
Pain you had put me through,
Love we shared was true.
You wanted me to leave behind hesitation.
'Cause you've been my soul motivation.
There i began to write,
then there was no end to it.
I still have my first,
i don't want to write my last ever,
That's my biggest fear.

Above the rising sun,
beyond the fading horizon,
Crawling up the walls slowly,
'War of love" has begun.

To let it stay and breed,
or to remove every seed,
To find hell or heaven,
remains an unanswered question....

Besieged by an enigma,
gleams a colourful aura.
The walls shall let him break in,
'cause the 'War of love' has begun.

Near or far,
no matter how distant we are.
He's been staying in the confines
CONFINES OF MY MIND

You can't get over him,
he might be waiting too.
Says my heart,
hoping it to be true.

You can't have him back,
He's gone his way,
says my brain,
He was never meant to stay.

It's now or never,
whatever i go with,
will remain forever.

Who's right?
I can't decide......

Whenever,
I look in the mirror.

They say,
that face on the reflective wall is me,
every word each day,
I refute calmly.
"cause they *can't see,
what i refuse to believe.

They see my white skin,
but they can't feel,
how hollow i'm from within.

They grin when i smile,
maybe they don't get,
'cause i never revile.

They try to push me down,
but that won't break me,
even if i lay facedown.

In the mirror,
the other half of me,
fixes her gaze to see,
If we look the same,
but i say,
i'm the one in pain.

Again she flashes a smile,
but i know what she tries to hide.
She's just my skin,
i'm her soul.
I seek refuge in her,
She passes away in a blur.

Whenever,
i look in the mirror.

A moment of ease,

when i look at you,

But my heart tends to freeze,

when you stare back like a statue.

My heart starts beating like a tribal drum,

when you start walking my way,

My face goes shades of red almost numb,

when your chocolate spikes come in full display.

My breathing goes fast having you so close,

then you walk past me pushing me out of your way.

I keep glancing down at my toes,

then i hear the girl behind me shout 'Hey'.

The door appeared ajar,
malignant forces pulling from far.
vehement sin,
Yet i stepped in.
Only to break to shreds,
A journey of Regrets.*

A voyage that led me somwhere,
my every part was played fair,
Was i stuck in middle of nowhere?
Where  sun never rises or sets,
Began 'A journey of Regrets'.

Only my skies aren't blue,
reliving in old hell yet so new,
Falling to aphotic depths turned true.
Living in this world so fake,
now my demons are wide awake.

*Fleeting cynosure could make me confess,
Had i not been in middle of 'Journey of Regrets'.