we were standing outside
i remember how we were just doing our own things, trying to step onto the cracks on the sidewalk
you asked me why i was staring at you
that moment i realized i want to be with you forever

and for once, when i hear your name
i don't really miss you anymore

day two without you: i woke up with the sudden urge to see you. then i remembered what had happened. an empty feeling started to arise in me. you will probably never be mine again and my mind can't comprehend you not coming back this time.

no reason to live
*no reason to die

i always had what if's &
you said don't think about them
they all became true :/

day four without you:
****, you already found someone new
soon enough, you'll be doing the same things to her
she's gonna be the one you're going to be telling everything to
the same things you told me.
*******, why can't i move on?
i'm lost and empty
you're just forgetting me

one week without you!
well i always knew she was into you.
she was my best friend and i knew how she was
when she was head over heels for a boy.
never knew that boy was ever gonna be you.
she replaced me and she is doing all the things i did for you
am i fine?
probably not and more heartbroken then i was aha

when we first talked, i immediately noticed the way you looked down when you talked. or how when a sad topic came across, you made a face that i was destined to make happy. i failed that. when we got to know each other, i realized you were the first person i could spill my life to. the first person i trusted whole heartily. i took that risk and i gave you my heart. i gave you everything i could have given you. i was lost without you and you showed me that there's hope. literal hope. you made everyday something to look forward to. i woke up happy today, i woke up looking forward to see you. i'd do anything to run my hands through your hair again or to feel you. i'd give up the world to have my world back. i'd do anything to have you again. you don't trust me. you probably think i'm stupid for thinking that i have a chance again or how stupid i am for just thinking about "us". i had so many thoughts in my head and the moment i tried letting it out, i choked. no matter what i say, i could never get you back.  we talked about that tire swing even if we didn't have a tree. we talked about a future. i don't care how long it's going to take but i hope you come back. maybe it was best for you. i couldn't talk about my feelings. you could leave me for anyone and i was afraid of losing you and i did. i never said anything cause i was scared. that my feelings would become a reality. it did. come back.  i love you and i always will.

i walked away with tears in my eyes.
usually you would stop me but you watched me leave
at that moment, i knew i wasn't the one you loved anymore