when we first talked, i immediately noticed the way you looked down when you talked. or how when a sad topic came across, you made a face that i was destined to make happy. i failed that. when we got to know each other, i realized you were the first person i could spill my life to. the first person i trusted whole heartily. i took that risk and i gave you my heart. i gave you everything i could have given you. i was lost without you and you showed me that there's hope. literal hope. you made everyday something to look forward to. i woke up happy today, i woke up looking forward to see you. i'd do anything to run my hands through your hair again or to feel you. i'd give up the world to have my world back. i'd do anything to have you again. you don't trust me. you probably think i'm stupid for thinking that i have a chance again or how stupid i am for just thinking about "us". i had so many thoughts in my head and the moment i tried letting it out, i choked. no matter what i say, i could never get you back. we talked about that tire swing even if we didn't have a tree. we talked about a future. i don't care how long it's going to take but i hope you come back. maybe it was best for you. i couldn't talk about my feelings. you could leave me for anyone and i was afraid of losing you and i did. i never said anything cause i was scared. that my feelings would become a reality. it did. come back. i love you and i always will.
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