Ask me now and I will write,
A poem for you to read tonight.
I will fill it with meter and rhyme,
Bursting out of every line.
Packed with emotion, joy or strife,
Or just a description of everyday life.
If you ask for me to uplift,
I may struggle to make that shift.
But this poem is just for you,
If it is happy, I'm happy too.
Writing of daisies, or lateness of hour,
The love in a smile, or summer shower,
I won't falter, I won't stall,
It doesn't matter, I'll write them all!
Maybe you'll like it, maybe not,
Just a few letters and dots.
Mind you, all picked with care,
But if you don't, I won't despair.
Always another to be written,
Another rhyme still yet hidden.
So ask me now, and I will write,
With my minimal mental might.
Ask for love or ask for truth,
Ask for God or joys of youth.
It doesn't matter if I'm up till two,
I'm writing this poem, just for you.

It's been a circuitous route,
You and me.
But someday, I know,
We will be where we need to be.

Some might call it destiny,
Others might say fate.
Or maybe there is a master plan,
And a predetermined date.

Maybe you call it,
A push from above.
What ever it may be,
I call it love.

Because girl, I've wanted you,
Since that very first day.
I know it's hard.
But I've want to say:

I love you. More than you know.
I miss you, whenever we part,
Yet through the years,
I've never stopped wanting your heart.

I miss you.
I want you.
I need you.
I love you.

Gone now is the reason for change,
The one who set me right.
Gone my idol of all the age,
A former promise in my life.

She was the one that kept me chaste,
That always held me back.
She protected me when lost in haste,
To follow the narrow track.

I've come so close to deviation,
But never did I forget.
Her innocence defied temptation,
Always saving me from regret.

When the situation called for more,
I've always had the will.
But now I don't know what I'm waiting for.
And there are so many thrills.

The one I waited for is truly gone,
And so too all the reasons.
Departed hope of the perfect dawn,
And the changing of the season.

What chance to take weighs heavy now,
The fun or fairytale?
Should I work to retain this vow,
For one who's promise failed?

Is there but sufficient doubt,
To retain the straight and narrow?
Shall I cease to go without,
Or to go down with this arrow?

My misconceptions of romance,
Have tainted my little hopes.
The image of my life's innocence,
Dies while love does choke.

A reason is all I'm searching for,
Anything to keep me here.
I'm not sure just how many more,
Before passion draws too near.

It's true, my faith is all but gone,
My hope is finally dead.
I need to create artificial dawn,
Discover what I believe instead.

Once words flew from my mind.
Filling every page, the rhymes aligned.
From brain to fingers to all the keys,
Every word came with such ease.

I could only write when you gave me pain.
And so it happened time and again,
Where you cut me open and left me bleeding,
Every drop was a new verse feeding.

But that was before we split apart,
Back before I examined my heart.
Amazing the effect you had on me,
It was impossible for me to foresee.

Now you don't get blood flowing.
Never again to get my keys going.
Only scars remain since I left you,
Yet it seems, my poems left too.

This is the last I'll write to you.
It's all I seem to ever do.
I punch these keys and whisper lines,
But I am done. I resign.

It's too bad this had to end.
Be careful now, I don't pretend.
I know it's hard to take me serious,
You listen as though I'm delirious.

But right now I'm just furious,
If this is it, then I must.
I'll cut ties, I'm not bluffing.
I'm so ******, it was all for nothing.

What can I say but "wow?"
I finally figured out just how,
You like to think of me.
This is it, setting me free.

If you ever wish to reciprocate,
It might just be a bit too late.
You had your chance but blew it.
You were a failure before I knew it.

I'm done with the petty game.
I finally learned... We aren't the same.
Finally now, it is time.
If you want a piece, get back in line.

So this, my cordial friend,
My beautiful failure, is the end.
So read these words, know them true:
This is the last I'll write to you.

2/16/2013

I told myself I would wait for you. I said that I could be strong. I never made my commitment known, and that is where I went wrong.

Perhaps if I had only told you. If only I had quickly thought. Then maybe we could have tried, so hard, and given this a shot.

But now I feel you truly gone. Without you my feelings numb. I lie awake, you on my mind, and beg for sleep to come.

You have altered my entire life. I want no other, its true. When I kiss another girl, I can only think of you.

Perhaps you feel the same as me. Do you think of me each day? What if we think of each other, when in our beds we lay.

Maybe we both struggle at night. Ashamed, we try to move on. Thinking the other is long, long gone.

You see me with other girls. I see you with other guys. I still love you, don't give up, don't believe my lies!

Still, there is little I can do. In our favor, fortune is not. I'm struggling to accept that I will never get what I have sought.

So I'll keep going out with girls that can't compare. I'll close my eyes and kiss them well, try to love them true. But in my heart I'll know, I will always love you.