Within me lies a locked room
Often visited
Never a home
A place where I go
To be alone

But it's different then here
Out here I pretend
I smile and laugh
Imagine there's friends

I hide all the pain
Behind the smile
In my eyes
But I never plant flowers
Because everything dies

In my locked room
I feel free to mourn
To lament my existence
That I were eer born

To be born a healer
Is an unhappy fate
Although I help others
Myself I berate

I wish for the day
I could do something for me
I'd shed this mortal coil
And I would finally finally finally
Be free

I find addiction in this place
Where others pain
Is as plain as my own
Each face yearns
Eyes are windows
To each soul

I found you on
Stumble upon
Mostly there from boredom
No longer able to stand
Seeking escape from my own skin

I am a creature of
Tremendous magnitude
I have a difficult time
Living in such a small space
But most of all
And it sorrows me so
I just have a difficult time
Living

But I drag myself up
Ready for another day