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Dec 2014 · 473
1:14
X Dec 2014
It's 1:14. Usually when all the thinking & memories kick in. It's when people think of their past & just over think things. When we think of something, our perspective on it is different from 1:14am & 1:14pm. Sadly, our 1:14am thoughts makes us sad. It's those "I wish" "I'm sorry" "can we" thoughts. Our 1:14pm thoughts are more like "no" "I'm strong" "I can get through this" "ignore it". Our thoughts at night are stronger & I know it's scary. That boy texting you late at night is just over thinking things. He'll get over it. It's his "1:14am" mind speaking. But think of it this way, if that boy is at the point where he wants to talk to you about you & him at 1:14am & wants to forget it & be friends at 1:14pm, forget him. He's not worth your time.
-N.U
Oct 2014 · 515
Started off as a crush
X Oct 2014
It started off as a crush.
The little butterflies when you were around.
The excitement I felt when your named popped up on my phone.
The hugs
The cute texts.
I never imagined how much my feelings would grow for you.
The long paragraphs
The long hugs
The "I miss you" &
The "I love you" texts,
How could I possibly not have such extreme feelings for you? You're my first love.


-N.U
Oct 2014 · 320
Untitled
X Oct 2014
I hate how much I miss you
I miss your hugs
Your kisses..
I miss the way you would look down at me when we hugged
The way you tried to be with me as much as possible
I miss your cute texts
Your videos of you ranting on about me
I miss everything about you
& I hate it...

-N.U
Oct 2014 · 430
Our Society
X Oct 2014
We live in a society where
*** is easily given up
Anxiety happens daily
Cutting is common
Depression is nothing
Anorexia is beautiful
Bulimia is gruesome
The smart ones are uncool
Social status defines you
Everyone wants to be someone
& Expenses are a competition.
Now don't get caught up in our society,
You might get anxiety...
-N.U
Oct 2014 · 335
....
X Oct 2014
Everyday i think about how I should hate you.
But no.
I just cant.
Should'nt you be the one hurting?
Isnt this all your fault?
You caused this.
You're the reason for my sleepless nights,
My pain...
Yet, i still cant hate you.
Not even after everything you put me through.

-N.U
Oct 2014 · 246
Hidden stars
X Oct 2014
And maybe that's the problem. Maybe we are just so focused on our darkness,
that we can't even see the hidden stars behind us. - n.u
Oct 2014 · 225
....
X Oct 2014
I always feel so alone
No matter how many people I'm with nor how many people say they'll be there for me. I'll always feel that emptiness inside, where I know no one really cares for me.
Oct 2014 · 232
Untitled
X Oct 2014
The words all jumbled in my head
      I can't say what I truly want to
  Too much is happening in my mind
                 All the memories
                 All that was said
   I guess all I'm really trying to say is         that I still love you...
          I'm so sorry I had to ruin things.
Oct 2014 · 204
Untitled
X Oct 2014
The worst part is that
       this all stopped because of me
                It was all my fault
        All because of one mistake
               One mistake I made
Oct 2014 · 215
2:33
X Oct 2014
2:33 & here I am
Thinking back at what we had
It was like no other
The best I ever had
The best we ever had
You've been on my mind a lot now
Don't seem to know why
It's been so long
I just can't seem to let you go yet
Jul 2014 · 234
Untitled
X Jul 2014
Thin lines.
Blood pouring.
Tears dripping.
Hands shaking.
Pain leaving.
Situations forgotten.
              -N.U
Jul 2014 · 264
I know.
X Jul 2014
Of course I know.
      I know this will not solve anything.
I know this is only hurting me.
I know.
       I don't do it for problem solving, but for relief.
That's what you don't know.
You don't know how it makes me feel.
How it helps me feel better about myself.
How it somehow, even for just a couple seconds, it makes me forget about why I am doing this.
You don't know.
                         -N.U
Jul 2014 · 266
Untitled
X Jul 2014
If you aren't thinking about it all the time, is it really love?
Jul 2014 · 217
Why?
X Jul 2014
I sit there & wonder .
Wonder why you left me .
Why you suddenly gave up.
Why I was never good enough for you.
Why I let you become such a big part of me.
Why?
                 -N.U
Jul 2014 · 545
I'm sorry
X Jul 2014
I'm sorry .
I'm sorry for not being good enough
I'm sorry for ruining everything
I'm sorry I'm not pretty
I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you dreamt of
I'm sorry I'm not the sister you've always wanted
I'm sorry I'm not the best friend

I'm sorry ...
                          -N.U
Jul 2014 · 270
Somewhere Along The Way
X Jul 2014
Somewhere along the way,
I lost it.
Somewhere along the way,
I thought slicing my very own skin would solve my problems.
I thought if I was gone,
Everything would be better .

Somewhere along the way..
I lost it.
I can't seem to find out where I did
.. But I did.

You don't realize how much you've changed nor how bad things have gotten... until you think back at how much you've changed; how somewhere along the way, you lost it . Lost it all ...

                                      -N.U

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