For so long I've hidden behind these walls, scared of what lay beyond.
Help
appeared just outside the wall, his eyes welcoming, smile so warm.
I'm
fiercely wanting to run into his outstretched arms.
Lost
in my personal maze of protection and destruction.
In
the labyrinth, I tried and tried to find my way out.
This
patient soul waited and waited. I desperately wanted liberation.
Concrete
walls shook and cracked when he pounded at it.
Jungle
madness overtook me, as I stared through the crack into his eyes.
I
gazed upon his loving mask until one day he was gone.
Call
out his name, but I guess he can no longer hear the girl behind the wall.
Home
was supposed to protect me, what happened?

A million different endings
But one beginning
what if
gnawing at me
Like a starved child with a bone
Your entrapped in my head
Always the one I keep asking
what if
But I never get an answer

For the first time
I want to let you in.
I want you to see
The tangled vines, in the thick forest
that is my soul.
To wander through the unexplored paths,
discovering my deepest, darkest secrets
But promise me
That once you step foot inside
you won't leave weeds behind
Promise me, instead,
You'll plant flowers and
take good care of them
Because I don't know
If I can withstand another person
embedding poison within me

Damaged
Thats what I am
And what I'll always be
Damaged
The magic words to guys
To think they can do whatever they want
Because damaged girls are nothing but
**Lost

Six months ago I fell for a boy
I fell for his personality
He fell for my body
Six months later he still has not left my mind
But now when he comes to my mind
I'm not sure if I liked him
Or if I liked the idea of him

And now I ask myself everyday is

Did I fall for you?
*or the idea of you?

I spent my whole life
surrounded by people whose hearts have been broken
not once
not even twice
And I promised myself I would never make their mistakes
But I didn't know it would only take
one night
one guy
one kiss
one lie
To break that promise

A wall made of stone
My flesh stripped to the bone
Why do I always end up alone?
Laying in bed all night
Thinking that this isn't right

My heart is closed to love
As much as I try to open my soul
I feel like a bomb just opened a hole
in my heart
My heart of stone
But it refuses to feel
As much as I try
My hearts an unbreakable seal

I keep waiting for that day
When I find the guy
Who won't cheat or lie
Someone who will be able to break
The seal to my heart
My heart of stone

And I'll no longer be alone