I need some more distraction,
To put more in the bowl
The smoothness of the smoke
Casts away all the thrills
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Sometimes we need nothing more
Than to kiss it all goodnight
Sometimes to **** it all away
For a couple hours just feels right
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Distractions, thoughtless compulsions
Will **** me in the end
Until that day, throw it all away
I'll see you when I'm *dead.

Weary eyes, late hours, I sit alone in question
Thought patterns left incomplete, a puzzle with missing pieces
It is a wonder, fearing the very words you long to hear
This burning ache leaves behind the most pleasant shivers
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The latest hour could never provide the stars to aid our sight
Voices distant, shrouded in blankets of limited communication
There must be an answer to the unspoken question in our minds
We need a revolution, we need to find a resolution tonight
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You are a beautiful savior, but the demon inside as well
You relieve the pain, but raise horrific welts of your own
Will you cease the pain, can you let yourself love and be loved?
Or will you feign it long enough until I'm gone
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Contemplation, alterations, unable to explain them
The wonders of life before our eyes leave so many empty spaces
I needed to believe that there was meaning behind your words
You're untouchable as I beg for your caress.

Instead of tears
Blood flows from my empty sockets
An open wound
On the most sensitive part of the soul
These tears (this blood)
Spill silently, assuring death is nearby
I opened my heart
Trusted you, and now I must pay the toll
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If you ever trust
There's more than hell to pay when it ends
This vile sensation
Of bitter tragedy feels as it will never amend
I'm burning it
Tearing at them all, burying the memories of you
This beaten path
Represents what we have become
Is this what we've been reduced to?
In the past we were basically one.

Into the moonlight, for sunlight corrupts
The darkness within, the spark of sheer lust
All decent and good must eventually sleep
Yet slumber awakens the darkest of feats
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Awaken to find yourself in a strange place
Ignorance, most unaware, what is that dark stain?
It cannot be that, It must be something else
Pains in the joints, how they come about
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Newspaper next morning, you're chilled to the bone
Read over and over till you can't anymore
Stumble to find the blood-soaked shirt on the floor
Hold it and shut your eyes so you won't have to sense
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There's been a ****** when your sight turned black
When the mind shut down and you couldn't come back
The stains soak through, all over, every single time
But when you wake, why do you always feel sublime?
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Evil consumes;
In the midst of the hours when you know you don't slumber
The darkness within you takes it out for a gory spin
The second, hidden half to your little good-boy grin.

Let me; reorganize
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Thoughts, feelings, unjustified
Cannot see, I cannot feel, but
I swear on everything it's real.
I could care less, if you don't see
This pressure built inside of me
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I can't let go, I won't give in
Although it seems love just won't win
The brain implodes, the heart attacks,
Through this pain I don't want you back
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Why can't you see, you have to know
That I will never love you so.
If you could ever awaken, see
That I have fallen to my knees
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I truly wish that you could know
I've always wanted you to go.

Rebel and unify against the one we hate
Struggle to compose of this brand new fate
Things that don't involve you are good enough for me
Without you our lives would be a cup of tea
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You're hated, if you were lost, no one would ever cry for you
So many, you've hurt, I bet they'd all feel right the same
Just leave us, you coward, I hope you face a gruesome fate
Believe in, nothing, you're not good enough for life itself
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You should be hanging from a tree, you liar!
You should be hit by a truck, you coward!
You should be doused in gasoline, you hurt us!
This match will be lit! Your soul will be set aflame!
-
For the first time in your pathetic life
You will experience what you have done
What you have morphed us into, created
Unleash this monster, no pity! No remorse!
Just fate! The death of your darkness!
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Betrayal! (Betrayal) Every single day!
Your life! (Your life) will end, to your dismay!
No longer! (no longer) will we suffer in agony!
This is! (The end!) Of everything you'll ever do
Of anyone you'll ever hurt again!

These excuses, excuses
They fill up the void
Of the things you can't say
Things you'd rather avoid
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I'm sorry. my dearest
For I can't take back
The things I have told you
Yet still shouldn't have
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I have this compulsion
A problem, it is
To let it all out
I have to, you're it
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It's the price I pay
To be close to you
You're the only one
I could ever talk to
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Spill out the thoughts?
To you, I do.
My emotions are rotting
Because I have hurt you.
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Begging forgiveness,
It's true, it's true.

Is it difficult to imagine?
You must learn and adapt
To the heartless ways of the world
They rip at the throats
Rub salt in the wounds
And the minds are strewn.
They are quite like hounds.
As the heart are cut
How they slowly, steadily bleed
But, shame, it happens everywhere
As hopes are brutally crushed
They lay broken, uneasy, dying
Is it difficult to imagine?
It is truly sick and twisted.
This is how the world is
the world you thought you knew
They attempt at humor
Yet create solitude; empty madness
Torture for the mind; never trust
The colours of the world dissipate
They shed the tears
You see it for what it is
*Vile.

What tragedy occurred, weren't we more than this?
You meant so much to me, I know, but did you just pretend?
I cannot take this pain, our love, crushed by my own demise
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You were my one true weakness, not true love
The pieces were missing to this blank puzzle.
My heart is torn, my soul turned ash.
I loved you but there was too much to ask.
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I never meant to hurt us both or to end it just that quick
But just so you know now, I never loved you, makes me sick
My twisted mind still fills with hope, decaying hope, your trust
Every time I think of you my gut wrenches to the top.

Awaiting the fall
The death, the toll
You will surely pay
Your soul, this hole
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Blackened with dismay
How could you betray
I gave you my heart
****** from the start!
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Your lies crushed it up
Your tone showed the truth
Your heart is just black
But mine is dark too
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Why must it feel like this
Even breathing is hard
Why can't I move on from
Betrayal; your lies!
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Terrified of love
And you wondered why
The answer is clear
This pain is your spear!