Losing someone by death
Is not easier than
losing someone who never
even wanted you

I say this because if they
die at least you know
they loved you

This is why I try not
to love someone
For the fear of them
dying, of abandoning me
is too much for my
heart to take

You say that I should be ashamed of myself
Well I am only ashamed of being born
I think how easier your life would have been
If we never met
You would have not felt regret of having me
don't you see how free you would be

You've heard the saying that there are two sides to every story
well mine has not been told
why dose there have to be two sides to only stories
why not souls

On the outside I look like stone on the inside I feel like a puppet being controled
by the two halves of my soul

What are they you might ask
well one looks happy
but the other transforms it into woe

You see this half harbours it's dispair and transforms everything into terrible emotions
knowing that if I let go of my anger then you think all is forgiven
Well I say hell no
I will never let go

Like I said there are two sides to every story and soul
it brings me happiness that mine was finally exposed

What is hate
Is it just like love
we think we know
but yet our feelings remain oblivious
Is hate just a stir of negative emotions
are love and hate so different
we cant live with just one you see
because in order for one to exist It has to have the other

What is love
Does it make your heart ache
You think he doesn't feel the same way
It is more than you can take
Even if your just friends
Your heart hurts when you see him with somebody else
Then you think in your head I wish that was me
Your heart yearns for his smile, his laughter, his touch
Knowing inside, that the fear of not being together
is far to much

To afraid to cry
To afraid to show you the feelings that I hide
But not afraid to die
To afraid to love
To afraid to show you the scars on my heart
Why am I afraid
When did this start

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to fly
Not in an airplane
But with your wings spread wide
I have

It would be nice not to fear high places
So you can fly above people
and see the look on their faces

Id go near the water close enough to touch
Then id soar in the sky

Id visit all sorts of places not giving a care
If this is what heaven feels like
Then i am so glad im there