Beams of light
Creeping in
Slowly, softly
Like the way a feather
Falls to the ground
Slowly, softly
The sun rises,
The most gentle star
Slowly, softly
Start your day
With positivity
**Slowly, softly

He told me how he
Got his scars,
So I told him about
My past lovers

The ones who abused me,
The ones who confused me,
The ones who I thought were
"The one"

We laid in the dark room
Under the blanket
Softly caressing one another
Speaking tongues of love

He's always loved me,
And I've always been
Too afraid to admit my
Feelings towards him

We're getting closer again
And even though I know
He would never hurt me,
I'm scared

I'm scared to love again
And I'm scared of attachment.
I'm scared of jealousy, anxiety
And things going wrong

But as we laid in
The dark together,
I could hear in his voice
How much he wanted me

I can't help but think that
Maybe, just maybe
I want him, too.

It’s a cold, grey morning
There’s no sun in sight
The only source of light
Comes from your eyes

They glow in the morning
Like a firefly at night
And they give me energy
Like the sun’s rays
Give to a plant

I don’t need coffee
To start my morning
I just need
A small dose of you

A small dose of you
Gives me strength
It gives me strength
To do things like
Go on
When it feels impossible

It gives me strength
To push myself harder
Every day
And it makes my life easier
Knowing i have you
To come home to
At night

And knowing that no matter
How bad
Things are when i get home
My life will always be brighter
In the morning


I just need
A small dose
Of you

Piercing eyes
And a dangerous smile;
He had soft lips that
Spilt words like honey,
And a tongue that
Moaned my name.

Despite my knowledge
of failed relationships
part of me still wants
to be with you.

Part of me still wants
to clutch your hand in mine,
and listen to the heartbeat
inside your chest.

Despite my experience
with broken relationships,
part of me still wants
to call you mine.

Have you ever heard of the line, “The ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it’s been swept away?”

Well, I’m the shoreline, and he’s the ocean.
He’s never given up.

And I love him for that.

You were my dreams
Every shooting star
Every candle blown out
Every 11:11
They were all spent
On you

I.

Thoughts are now constant
Never stopping, circling
Driving me insane

II.

What if this, if that?
I know I can't change the past
But I still wonder

Hardships in life are only
Speed bumps in the road;
You slow down as
You approach them
Because you know
It will be a bumpy ride,
But once they pass
You are back to
Your normal speed

He
tip toes
across my heart
leaving
nothing but
invisible kisses

He
is mine
just, in secret
wishing
to be
much more

He is the icing on the cake
The blood in my veins
The smell of fresh cut grass.
He is everything that makes life sweeter
And worth living.

He is the wind to my back,
The butterflies in my stomach
The random smiles throughout the day.
He makes me feel what every girl wants.

But he is also the late night tears
The breakdowns
The anxieties.
He is the fears and
The long hours of the night
Spent over-analyzing

I don't know which is worse.

Loving another self more than your own
Obsessing over someone's touch
Craving a person, and needing them
Makes it so very easy to lose yourself.

Then there is the over-thinking,
The doubts, the lies, the scheming
The way you feel like they don't care,
Makes it so very easy to hurt yourself.

I was the helpless bird who fell from the nest
I had a broken leg but I still tried to walk
He was the quiet boy who stumbled upon me
Gently carrying me to safety

Safety was his warm, strong arms that acted as a nest
His kiss upon my forehead, as if to heal the pain
That I am the only one to blame for

I always get myself into the worst of situations
I’m way too emotional for my liking,
I love far too much,
And far too many.

You see, I fell from a past love
Hurting myself on the way down
But gently dropping into the arms of a new one

So this time, I’ll watch out for the holes that I could
Possibly fall through
And step over them instead

I want to give you a painting of a flower
Because I know it will never die

I want to take you to space and
Show you the stars, so that when I say
"I love you more than all the stars combined",
You'll see how many there really are

I want to stitch myself into your heart
So no matter where you go
I'm always with you,
Keeping you alive

I want you to know that you're
The most important thing to me,
And that if you never existed
You wouldn't have saved me

You're beautiful and magical and
Breathtaking and..
You're going to become something
So, so special

I would do anything for you

I want to throw a rope around the moon
And drag it back down for you
Just to show you how strong
You've made me

I know how to brave thunderstorms and lightning
Because you taught me that
No matter how hard or painful something might be
It will always be beautiful and okay in the end

I want you to know that you've taught me
So much more than I thought I could learn
That I've learned to climb mountains
And how to stop the rain

You saved me from myself
You taught me how to fight and you
Taught me how to learn
That's why I'm willing to do anything for you

Just say the word
And I'll be there;
I'll be in your heart
And in your soul

When you cry, I will be the soft tissue
Caressing your sweet face
And when you fall, I'll be the strong hand
To bring you back to your feet
And when you try to call out my name,
I'll be there before you can even finish it

Don't be afraid to love or to learn or to cry or to fall;
I won't ever leave you stranded
Or crying, or helpless,
Not knowing where to turn

Because I know,
You wouldn't ever
Do that
To me

Maybe if you stopped putting so much love and effort into other people,
you would have more love for yourself.

Sunlight poured through the window, and laid across his chest.
I liked to watch as it came and went.
I wish he knew how beautiful he was this way.
So peaceful.
So captivating.
So harmless.
Perfect.

There are holes in my heart, there are holes in my skin
Your love always tends to come and find it's way in
Flowing inside them, and running through my veins
My body, my mind, and my heart, you claimed

Your smile is my muse, your laugh gives my life meaning
I found you when I finished my emotional spring cleaning
Your love seeps inside me and makes me feel whole
My body, my mind, and my heart, you stole

You swept me off my feet, and spun me all around
I knew right then, it was a true love that I had found
Your compassion overcame me as if it were a crashing wave
My body, my mind, and my heart, you have saved.

I have never loved somebody the way I love you
I have never felt this much aching in my chest,
This much salt water in my eyes.
I have never been willing to open up myself and
Give every part of me to one person,
And felt perfectly fine with them being the
Only one,
For the rest of my life.

Blows to the head,
One, two, three.
I'd rather have my brains scattered
Than my dreams.
He told me to keep quiet.
That if I made anything resembling a sound,
I'd be sorry.
Little did he know,
I already was.
I promised her I quit this life.
That I would stop begging
For love.
No, for drugs.
I had dreams once.
I wanted to become a writer.
I'd write about where I'd been,
What I'd gone through.
Except I'm still living it.
I slipped, missed a payment.
Forgot some, here and there.
I ended up bleeding on a sidewalk,
Drenched in fear.
I wonder what she'd think
If she saw me this way,
Battered and beaten,
Like a stray.
I wonder what I would have accomplished
If I just listened, and stayed
With her.
If only I just listened to her.
But now all I can hear is
My heartbeat pounding in my ears
And the countless blows to my head,
One, two three.
The sound of a man
Beating the life out of me.
And then I slowly feel the last of my dreams
Slip away.
In *ones, two's, and three's.

Water is falling and
Rain drops drip
Onto the Earth,
Creating new life

The sky roars,
Surroundings tremble
As if the sky has just
Awoken after thousands
Of years

But, an array of light
Shines through the clouds
A captivating sight;
This is the beauty of the storm

I remember the way the sunlight danced across your face
In the middle of the afternoon.
I remember lying in bed with you, loud and giggly
Not caring who heard us.
I remember the care-free feeling, doing what we wanted
We loved being alone.


I remember staring into your eyes,
Moments before we would kiss;
My hand wrapped up in your hair, your arm around my waist,
The most amazing feeling in the world.
I remember the softness of your lips,
And the warmth of your tongue;
Smooth, wet, and warm.


I remember those days when we'd d nothing at all
We'd watch, TV talk and eat, but those were the best parts
Of us.
I remember being able to do anything with you,
I even touched your ******* one time
But then I fell off the bed
{Insert laughs here}.


I remember all the good and the bad
And everything in between.
The love {making} and the fighting,
And the "uh okay"'s.
Loving you was tiring.
I remember everything, the feelings, and the words
But I would do it all over again if I could.
I love him.

Sometimes pain
Will leave a scar.

Don't pick at it,
Leave it be
And watch
Yourself heal.

One day you
Will see how
Strong it has
Made you

I love you,
With every fibre,
Every atom
Of my body

I love you with each
Drop of blood,
Every cell,
Every inch of skin

I love you with
Each and every
Part of my being

With every muscle
And every bone

I love you,
It sounds complex

But it feels simple

I love you, simply,
With each and every
Part of me

I've given you
Each and every
Part of me

In a sweet and simple
Love

I love you so, so much.

The birds;
listen to them.

They have been
trying to tell us something,
all along.

I can't sleep unless I'm
surrounded by pillows or
surrounded by you;
I prefer you, though.

Place your hand against my cheek;
The one you kissed many years ago

We were young once,
So full of life and
We were curious;
You more than I

I was distracted,
You were determined
I was blinded,
You felt deserted

I broke away from you,
Me, like a boat's heavy anchor
Pulled back to the surface
By the man strong enough to hold on

It was you.
We came back together,
Crashing
Like waves, in unison
Picking up where we had left off

This time, it was I
Who needed the comfort
And just as before,
You were there

How many times you saved me from myself,
How many smiles I've shared with my
Bedroom walls,
You'll never truly know

Place your hand here, now
Look into my eyes,
The ones who have seen all of you
And chose to come back each time

This time, I hope
Our souls stay connected
I hope this love remains,
Everlasting,
Meaningful,
Always,
The same

Every time I step out into the world
I hope to retrieve things like
Smiles and comfort and joy
But instead,
I get things like
Bruises and heart breaks
And tear-stained pillow cases

I often daydream of
Your hands on my hips
While I watch your eyes
Intently, looking for hints

There's so many things I want to say
Words dancing behind my lips
Tickling my tongue
Trying to escape the safety and silence
Of my mouth
But after everything that has happened
I know that I can't really let them go

Beads of sweat run down
From your temples
And softly drip
Onto my bare skin
As I lay beneath you
A sweet
Sweet
Paradise

No*

You can't just leave me
Whenever you please;

You can't run when I need you,
And expect me to stay
When it's your turn
To be sad

Look at us

We live day by day
Believing that we're not smart enough
Not happy enough
Not pretty, or skinny enough
We care so much about what people think,
That we do things like curl our hair
And wear makeup, and dress a certain way
Only to impress people who don't care about us.

We've grown up believing that beauty
Only exists on the outside,
Because that's where people can see it;
But we're wrong

We're worth more than the scars and bruises
That cover our naked bodies;
Worth more than the feeling of throwing up
Last night's dinner and
Worth more than lipstick and our
Tear-stained pillowcases.

Beauty exists on the inside
Where your heart is.
Society's idea of beauty is only
Superficial, only materialistic.

Beauty isn't hair or clothing
Or makeup or bodies;
Beauty is your dreams.
Beauty is your feelings
And your thoughts
And your goals.

Beauty is what you aspire to be,
But you already are it;
Beautiful.

We are worth more than
The people who think
We are nothing.

*We are beautiful.

"We have nothing to talk about",
You say
As I curl up in the saddest position
In the dark and stillness of my bedroom

I feel as though my voice has been stolen;
My ability to love and be loved
Has been snatched right out of
My cold and now-empty hands

I want nothing more than to be happy
With you.
To live each day with you
As if it were our very last one together

But now it feels like every day I live
Is lived without you
And it feels like you don't mind it;
Not even one bit

I don't know what happened,
We just gave up
And I feel like there's nothing to say
But I know that I have a lot that I would like to

I think for now, I'll stay enclosed in my bed sheets;
The ones that no longer smell like you
Or have experienced your lovely presence

And maybe I'll read a book or exercise or
Find something to take my mind off the fact that
I don't know how to write poems
And I definitely don't know how to love you.

Yes,
I know,
Sometimes it feels like all the people
who you've once loved and cared for,
are the very ones trying to dig
your own grave

And yes,
I know,
It feels like the world is crumbling down
at the very touch of your fingertips,
while everyone else is ecstatic and enthusiastic
about the life that they're living.

I know what it's like,
to believe that your being
is far more useless and unimportant
than anyone else's

And yes,
I know that all you want is
for the people you
love and care about,
to just love and care for you back

But sometimes, yes
we need to realize that
what we want
isn't always possible

And that being cared about,
or loved, or treated with
the respect we deserve,
isn't always palpable

But yes,
I also know that to me,
your eyes are able to light
up an entire room,
when I'm surrounded by darkness

And I know
that you can get knocked down
over and over and over again,
and I would still be there each time,
to bring you back to your feet

Because I know
that you are worth more than
what any harsh words,
or human damage
can do to you

And I know,
that there are an unimaginable
amount of places and things
for you to go,
and for you to see

And you
should never let
anyone's mistakes
or inconsiderateness
break you down

Because I know
how special you are,
and I wouldn't ever let that
slip out of my grasp

You are stronger than diamond,
your loveliness is  greater
than the depth of the sea,
you are capable of amazing things,

And,
I know this.

You are a rose.

You have your thorns,
and you have your beauty.

You made me bleed,
but I still loved you, anyway.

You are not alone. You are surrounded by people who care about you, even though you may not know it. There are people who care about you; people who you do not even care about. In these moments when you do feel truly alone, you have yourself. That is the one person that you can always count on. You will always have you. You know what is right and you know what is wrong. You know who you are, whether you are sure of it or not. You are you, and you are beautiful. You have potential and intelligence and most importantly, you have beauty. Beauty in your eyes and beauty in your heart and beauty in your soul. Your soul is pure and real. The blood in your veins in real. You are real. You control your happiness. You control who is in your life. You are in control of your entire life. An entire life is in your hands. You need to realize that this is amazing. You are not living for other people. It does not matter if you have 20 friends or 7 friends or 1 friend or 0 friends. All that matters is yourself. You are only living for yourself and what happens in your future is up to you. You are not like everyone else. You are who you know yourself to be, not who everyone thinks you are. You are emotional and scared.. and beautiful. You are perfect. You deserve true happiness, just like everyone else does, and you will get it. You will find it, and it will stay with you for as long as you let it. But, once you shut the door in its face, it might be a long time before you meet with it again. Cherish it. Remember that you, are everything. You are beautiful and perfect and just as important as everyone around you. You are worth more than having 5 close friends, you are worth more than a dysfunctional family, you are worth more than a math test with a mark below 50 and you are worth more than all the diamonds that are scattered within the depths of this earth. It is time for you to realize this. You are beautiful. You are intelligent. You are capable. You are worth it. You, are utterly perfect.