The rain stained windows
looks so beautiful
yet so heartbreaking
like a touch is enough to make them shatter

As I look at the trees
with my coffee and cigarette in hands
I think about you
and how
when I felt somber
you would hug me
and kiss my neck.
I miss you
I miss you so bad it hurts

And in the morning
when I remember the promise I made myself
to not think about you anymore
I will look at the window again
and think
about how beautiful
yet heartbreaking
is the fact
that the rain washed everything away
just like you did
with us

We flirted back and fort
and we teased each other a lot
But then you found someone else
who, besides flirting
would also kiss and cuddle with you
in a way that I could not
And it is not that I am jealous of her
I just wish I had someone too

I am the kind of person
who's always been afraid of losing themselves.
But I wouldn't mind losing myself
in the curls of your hair
when you wake up.
In the curves of your body
when we make sweet, tasty love.
In the middle of your bed
when we don't talk at all
but it feels like we said everything
we needed to.
And in the beauty of your mind
that continues to ******* away
even after all this time.