A dedication to a Lost Love.

If only my simple words could captivate every emotion that I am trying to convey. To summarize an illustrious story which I hold close to my dearest heart; then I would give you the entire world and then even more. From the deepest skies I would soar, just to bestow a higher power that you deserve; I would revive our love and mark every ocean shore for all to glance upon. My heart sets on fire and burns in blazing flames every time I hear you say “I love you”. I lose control, my nerves kick in and I am frozen within time; with you everything seems endless. The taste of your sensational kiss halts my heart; for when we depart, I hold on to that very last kiss and cleanse to it compassionately; the thought of you ponders everlasting.




The night is glorious; as they lay beneath Earth’s stars and galaxy. He comforts her and clings to her compassionately. He rolls his love on her back, as he blankets her in his arms; he glances through her glamorous eyes and finally spoke with a smile. “I see everything through your eyes. I see all that’s dark and brutal, to all that’s beautiful and filled with light. I see my whole world through your eyes.”
    
       She looks at him with silence as she tries to find the words to speak; then in a moment the words filter out like a waterfall. “For years I could only wonder how your kiss tasted, your lips against mine. Your smell eluded me, like I was knocking on Heaven’s door, just waiting to see the angels fluttering, an exquisite sight to see, an incredible beauty, to love unconditionally; a romance that is endless. Through your soul I can read an illustrious story.”

     He pulls her close; where he can hear every breath that circulates through her lungs. Then he gives her a soft kiss and a flutter of butterflies pours out of his stomach. “Our lips touch and it’s like a surge of electricity between our bodies.”

     “Gravity stops existing. We float through mid air. Flying through Heaven, our lips are still connected.”

     Kevin’s heart skips a beat as it starts to pulse rapidly; pondering over the love of his life, he only wishes to freeze time. “We float through space and time, an infinite dream, free to create our own reality; just you and me.”

She turns away from Kevin as she looks out in the wilderness. A cold breeze shifts towards her, as brisk bumps crawl up her spine. Everything shifts away; the open sky becomes more transparent. The moon still beams overhead; echo of howls vibrate through the wind. The silence between them leaves them both helpless and inert. She stands underneath a tree; the shadow it caste conceals her image. The leaves ruffle the peaceful atmosphere, with each crinkle and niche. The grass swiftly moves under Kevin’s body as he remains on the ground alone.

She glances at him persist, as his eyes connect with hers. They exchange each other’s worlds. Then she starts to dream off in an oblivious state of mind. She quietly speaks to Kevin. “As we drift together through the bewilder reality, we are bound by vines weaving around one another. Correlating a sense of compassion, as we endeavor this sensation, I get lost forever.”

Kevin stands up as he reaches for her soft hand and pulls it close to his chest; every beat of his heart she felt through the palm of her hand, then he began to speak softly. “Forever lost in your eyes like an infinite dream, the most amazing fantasy, our bodies weaving together, our lives intertwine like vines on a building.”

As she grasps his hands she stands bold; her eyes become cloudy, the night manifest deeper. Eagerly she speaks. “I pledge to this raven that stalks the night and watches over our bound vines, preying on its victim, not wanting to lose sight of this *******. It lingers with emotion. For our vibes are so strong that it paralyzes every eye.” She glares directly into Kevin’s eyes. “They choke because they need air to breathe.  We memorize them with our feelings’.
    
     Kevin’s eyes shift as they change from gray to a deep green; he becomes weak as his knees break beneath him. Slowly he loses balance, but before he falls his love catches him; closely they stand together, their strength is upheld by each other. Kevin lightly touches his love’s face and deeply speaks. “We steal breaths from those around us to feed our imaginable love growing ever longer day by day”.
  
     Nearly out of breath, she tenaciously speaks to him. “Unstoppable, undefeatable, I’m breathing slowly as I get closer to a man that sustains a capacity that is like no other”. She grabs onto his chest tightly not wanting to ever let go. “Our love burns hotter than fire and can freeze your heart like ice. What we share with each other you can only seek it once in a life time”.

       A light breeze fills the atmosphere around them; the dark starry night still covers the sky. He stands up, leaving her side. She remains inert on the ground as he stands by a tree grasping for the words to rebut. “It burns ever hotter and freezes ever colder. Growing ever stronger, able to stop an army and break the strongest barriers, never faltering jolts of lightening across the blue sky, able to conquer all in the path of this love”.

She rises to him, as they share a kiss. Their life changes, the sun finally peeks over the horizon creating a new day.

They go their separate ways; as Kevin let’s go of his love’s hand and kisses it one more time. He walks alone with tension in his mind. Finally he reaches home and immediately goes straight to his room.
    
The window in Kevin’s room blows a cold breeze; curtains flutter as his door slams shut. Kevin only hears silence; a pin drops to his floor and lingers through his chamber. The moon’s light is the only source that shines for his sight. Kevin lays in his prison, alone pondering over his life.

“So much going through my mind, my head is spinning in circles; I am losing my balance and I am about to break. Circumstances are not where they should be; my life is slowly crashing. Everything is changing so fast, I don’t know where to catch a grasp. My strength is going down the drain and I don’t know how much longer I can hang on. My paths are caving in; every road feels block. I toss and turn through out the night, just to escape my oblivious mind. I take one step forward to fall three steps back”.

Kevin rolls over on his back, as his mind and heart contemplates over his emotion that tears him apart inch by inch. His insides are ripping out and he holds them in his hands. Kevin’s stomach turns as his heart explodes. His blood pressure rises; then he sinks into a deep inner thought.

      
“When I break, when I fall, when I lose myself and tumble, if I give all I am, when I’m ready to take, will I be strong enough to fight, as I wait? If I search will I find the answers that are hidden? All that I have forsaken, when I am expose to the openness, expose to the brokenness.”

       Kevin’s eyes grow tighter as he shields them shut. Complete darkness surrounds him; Hell burning up in flames touches his skin, red marks crosses his flesh. The heat rises, Kevin’s walls begin to melt; as his life crumbles beneath his feet. He still searches for a higher power to relieve his despair. Kevin’s mind is screaming out and silence falls to the ground. He lays on his casket alone; as he murmurs to himself.

“Here I am it feels like I am not breathing, like I am only dreaming! When I sacrifice, in order to let go, when I lose at every battle, my heart gets fainter as you get closer. I lose control, my body in despair, shaky and scared. I tremble with each step, afraid to fail, to make a mistake. Make me feel like you did when I first gazed through your eyes, I was seeing through Heaven’s gate. The angels flying based upon fate, I get lost in them for days, like pain doesn’t exist on the prosperity of serenity.”

     Kevin falls dead, as he drifts away in a dream. Clouds fill his mind, and then draw blank. Through a far distant Kevin hears a faint voice. The sound of an angel intervenes in his head. She creeps closer and her image starts to become clearer. Her skins like a smooth mocha cream; her eyes cleanses with the night, beauty that he has never seen. Kevin’s eyes become focuses on the angel; as she draws nearer. She opens her arms and softly speaks. “Fall into my arms gently, let me take control. M arms will be your security; your protection to keep you safe in this world. Let me guide and lead the way, a new beginning to another chapter. We can create a life together, fast or slow. I will ease your oblivious mind and erase all of your pain.” The angel comes closer to Kevin, as her hair blows in front of her face. She stares at him then softly conveys. “I will show you a form of love that you desired for so long; there are no limits to this sensation. We are free to take it and run, together we unit as one.”

     Kevin sits in polarization as her glances at the angel. He trembles with each word. “I want to wrap you in my arms and keep you in my warm embrace; to hold you there till the morning light breaks through the window. I will blanket you in my warmth that is my everlasting love”.

     She lays in Kevin's arms as his body intertwines around hers. The atmosphere gets cooler; the clouds are still flying through mid-air. She grabs his hand tightly. “Let’s keep each other company and share a deep compassion, traveling through countries marking territories. Let the moon be the only light, it beams softly on your face. I'm allowed to see your mystical eyes; they tell a long story”.

     Kevin falls back, and the angel follows too. “I will take you through the highest mountains, the lowest valleys, across the coldest tundra’s and the hottest deserts. We will go through the deepest jungles, and the furthest reaches of the ocean, from the rings of Saturn, back to the grass of Iowa, without leaving our room”.

  “Through the great valley we will go; I will follow you till the end of time. You are worth fighting, let all the pain and heart ache subside. Our love is much greater than a storm that roars thunder and strikes lightening.” The angel slides her hand across Kevin’s face; he feels her warm embrace through the palm of her hand.

     Kevin closes his eyes and words unravel within time. “Our love reaches farther than the longest roads; it’s deeper than the deepest ocean. It is greater than the greatest features of human history, more amazing than the pyramids, and larger than life of the greatest man.” He pauses and takes in a deep breath and allows it to circulate deep within.

     The angel flutters her beauty to Kevin, as his eyes widen with every movement to makes. She solemnly floats away, but she still remains within Kevin’s sight. She quietly murmurs. “Let’s unravel this story and see how great this love really is, unlock every bind that once trapped our hearts. It can finally be released and freed. Lets forget about the past and the pain it once caused, for nothing else matters. We pulled through this far; still happy as a child’s laughter, withering deeper to a place like no other”. She takes a quick pause as she grasps for air. “The rivers flow much deeper, waterfalls flow much heavier, and affection growing greater. For it never decays as it ages; it just becomes more valuable through every night and day.”

     Memorized by every word she conveys, Kevin expresses his love like never before. He shifts to his left side and holds on to his treasure tighter. “I am ready to explore the love we have like the tombs of the ancient kings. I’m ready to take the twist and turns, never knowing what is yet to come, only knowing we’ll be side by side the whole way through, till the end of time, just you and I, on our road of love” Kevin’s heart aches with  prosperity, explosion that is within his soul. His body shakes and quivers every time his heart makes a beat. He looks at this creation as if she is all he could ever see. Kevin kisses her gently; his heart races more. Their lips disconnect and a light surrounds them. He stands behind the angel and whispers in her ears. “My soul is yours, along with my heart for you to take, to do what you wish. My love for you can not be measured. I hope to be in your heart for the rest of days”.

       Kevin’s arms remain blanket around the angel, the night that covers the starry sky. They both look out in the clouds where peace is found. She turns around in Kevin’s barrier and gently the crisp of her fingertips glides through his hair, the lips of the angel moves like calmness of an ocean. “Time can’t capture every split moment. I deprive your touch, your love, never wanting to let go. I still held on waiting for the day. Years passed over and we reunited; we picked up where we left off as if we never lived years without each other”.

     Kevin reminisces for a moment and draws himself back to the past. He stands by the angel as the memories play over in his head. “Days came and went and still I thought of you; the months came and gone and still I thought about you; the years rolled by and by and still I thought about you. Then I thought of you no more because you were in my arms again. You and I entangle like vines climbing up the wall, wrapping around each other”. The angel gives Kevin a light kiss and says her goodbye. He watches her leave his presents then says, “Wait, my love when I will see you again?” The silence answer Kevin’s question
The clouds wither away; the bright sky turns dark and gray. Everything around Kevin vanishes, then a cloud of smoke appears and a whisper conveys “Open your eyes and you will see me soon”. Kevin immediately opens his eyes and there his love was lying next to him. They both lay there sleepless and inert, as they fall asleep together. Their dreams intertwine with one another creating serenity.

         The waves collide as the ocean breaks to sonority then to calmness. A crack in which divides Heaven and Hell, with all the immoral things some how beauty is still found. There is a place where there is peace known as serenity. It helps people see everything; as the ocean departs and a new wave deprives the collision roars till the end of time.

      Kevin took a deep breath and let it lingered in the wind; then took a glance at the love of his life and spoke alluring words. "Walk through the veil from reality, to make believe. Allow your mind to drift into serenity pieces of you and me, together to keep in your heart and in your mind. I will show you the path to serenity."

       The love of his life pondered over Kevin’s words then responded back: "Will you drift with me to a place where there is serenity? A sacred piece that lets us be together, where there is no pain or suffering. Only the monuments that represent all that is make believe, a separation from reality.” She pushed her hair aside. “Where dreams guide the way, saving a memory to capture and remember. Will you grant me this serenity? Walk with me to this place that is unknown."

     Kevin took a few steps forward, and then paused. "This place is known to me. It’s anywhere that you’re with me and anyplace that I am with you, in the darkest dark or the brightest bright, the highest high or the lowest low. Serenity is you with me; happiness is me with you."

     She tightly closed her eyes and drifted away to a paradise in her oblivious mind. "I search for serenity when I reach my darkest hour. When the sun sets and ends another day. It’s never too dark when you’re with me. You’re the greatest light source that I will ever need.” She smiled at Kevin. “Happiness is a term that portrays an emotion where at times it’s inde

A crawl became a walk.
A walk turned into a run.
A simple smile became a laugh;
A laugh eventually turned into words.
You were no longer the baby that I once held in my arms.
But a growing child.
Every step of the way I was there by your side,
  Watching you blossom.
  Every footprint we made marked another memory.
   Another memory that nothing could replace,
  Even till this day I watch you grow,
But you will never be too big for me to hold.
A silent tear falls from my eye as I watch you be free;
Making footprints of memories

The waves collide against the ocean shore and covers up the footprints that lay before. As it breaks into sonority then to calmness; harmony is created. As we watch the dolphins swim, we grasp only peace and serenity. We feel the breeze in the wind and our feet cresting the sand. The dolphins echo in the far distance; yet it seems like they are within our reach. Their skin glistens from the beating of the sun. The ocean departs, but beauty is still found between the cracks of life and death. The church bell rings and wakes the mourners from their sleep. Everyone is preparing for the awake. Sorrow and sadness is within our hearts. Our flesh was ripped and torn apart; parasites were eaten away at our stomachs. We covered up the tears we had shed; as we walked in the funeral parlor and saw our friend dead.  


            The meaning of death is the ending of some one's life; it is a departure from this world onto the next. Death brings upon alterations for friends and family because we are force to say good-bye to an individual that was once part of our lives. The feeling of loneliness strikes through our hearts because a missing piece is gone. The ironic aspect about death is even though it brings sorrow, it awakens a fear in the depth of our souls. It is a sudden realization that death can happen at any moment. Rather we expect it or it raid with no warnings. The perspective of life alters, we stop taking so much for granted. The uncanny feeling we receive when we stand in front of a coffin; a dead corpse lays in it. Eventually their skin will decay and deteriorate; their bones will become brittle. Then only a skeleton will remain in the bed that once laid someone that was a part of this Earth. Now a tomb stone marks what is left of their body. With a quote that is engraved on their stone that represented them; a remembrance.

            The day approached and my heart and soul were in my throat; I felt as if I was paralyzed. I cried so hard that every time I spoke my voice would tremble. I was torn apart. My insides burned into flames; my organs were at a crisp turning into ashes. My head was pounding; confusion and disturbance ran through my mind. I could not embrace any clear thoughts. It felt like a thousand voices were contemplating in my head. My nerves showed through the shaking of my hands.  My entire body ached of pain; nails were piercing through every inch of my skin. I did not want to believe that she was dead. A part of me wished it was just a dream; I wasn’t ready to face reality. My thoughts gyrated around delusions. The last memory of Laura that I contemplated at her funeral was when I saw her, a week before she passed away. I glanced over at my perplex father; as he leaned forward for the entire ceremony with his head down. It was the first time that I saw my father cry and when I did, I felt the burning of souls trapped in Hell. His eyes were cloudy from the tears. His face became languish; as his hands shook from the nerves arousing. That day he lost his girlfriend, his best friend. Half of his heart was stolen and crumbled; a gap was formed and now remains empty. I could not read his mind, but I did not have to because his pain penetrated through everyone's body and emotions. His body was still, frozen like an ice burg; not even the sun could melt away my father's sorrow.

            It was time to say our good-byes. My father and I slumped down the aisle dragging stones behind us. We approached Laura's coffin and for a split moment he just gazed over her dead corpse. She laid in her peaceful bed, but she wasn’t awake--she was dead. Then my father took off his hat and pressed it against his chest. He leaned in to kiss Laura on her artic cheek. Just like Romeo kissing Juliet; my father said his farewell. Overhead rolled in a thunder storm and the pressure of rain began to pour down everyone's face. In an instant my father's love for Laura broke the glass of every window and stopped all movement in the funeral parlor. From that moment on I viewed my father differently. I knew right there that my father would never love another women as much as he loved Laura.

            When we left the funeral my father's and I relationship changed forever. Laura was the link that connected us; now there is a fissure that separates us. After facing death I finally understood the meaning of it. It is not a gathering for mourners to say good-bye to a love one, but rather a time to come together to celebrate a remembrance of a life. For even dolphins need time to rest forever at the bottom of the ocean. Laura's biggest dream was to swim with one; now she can forever rest in peace with them. Now I walk this Earth with Laura underneath my feet, with a gravestone reading “Remember me not as I am now, but as I use to be”.  

            In conclusion, life is a precious gift that is not meant to be taken for granted. Through Laura's death I realized the value of life and how it is too short to accumulate regrets, hatred and the past. I also embrace the life lesson that her death taught me; every day is another chance to grow, change, forgive, and to make a difference. My friend Laura will always impact my life forever. Death is a rude awakening to a human's eye; a realization that puts fear in our lives. Through Laura's death I discovered that in reality it is a natural beauty, not necessarily a final good-bye. I learned that a life truly never ends at death because the memories are what keep them alive. Just like the common prayer says, “Fill not your heart with pain and sorrow, but remember me in every tomorrow”. As I go on living my life I try to live it to the fullest. Laura's death awoken an acknowledgement that life is a gift, not a privilege and at any moment it can be abstracted from us.

The more and more I think about it, the more I get drifted away.

Another journey to take, til I find what I desire.

But apart of me feels like the road I'm on is one step closer away from the fire.

On the road-way to Heaven to a different destination.


A calmness of Serenity that I thought I found a little while back, but I only stayed for a short time.

Then I lingered in the bewilder, til I slowly found my way back.

My scar slowly healed; a little left that bleeds.

Because I watched you drift away from me.

Slowly things fell apart, after all who would of thought

That you would of drifted away from me.

At first I asked you to come back, to mend all that we lacked

Til I realized there was no turning back

All we have left are fading memories from the past

As I watched you drift away from me, you drifted away from me

Now its time for you to watch me fly

As I drift through the sky, I will say goodbye

Because now you watch me drift away from you

When I am in my darkest hour, a place where I feel trapped

I try to find the light, something to bring me back

For all the pain that has hurt me, for all the good that had turn wrong


I still discover that love that brings me home

And its you, you heal my pain and suffereing

Give me the strength to carry on

Because of you, I am no longer lost

Your embrace holds me close, a place where I finally belong

I wish I could turn back the hand of time

Fix all I had left behind

But if life is ment to hurt, then erode into good

Then I am glad I have you by myside

I couldnt do this on my own

This I want you to know

For love is beauty that ponders everlasting

Every touch exceedes to a masterpiece of endurance affection

The sun rises because of this connection

The moon shines with forever promises for you and I

Fear no longer exists

Pain is now put back in the dark ambis

The unchanted door is unlock

You hold the key to my heart

Your love abolished my hurt

You heal and mend my wounds

The rythum that beats steadly to the drum, finally plays the right tune

For our hearts beat as one

And when I fall, I only fall in your arms

The roses breaks apart and surrounds our love

Drifting through the wilderness

Nothing left to find

We have it all, just you and I

Nothing can compare to this affection

As time passes my love for you ceases deeper, growing everlasting

I long for you as the desert calls for rain

As the father and son needs the holy ghost

The mountain climb is endless, theres no limit of this road

I long for you, every night and day

And I pray that it will never change, til forever stopps existing

Its undescribable, hard to grasp a hold of

The force pulls me in, captivating my heart and soul

I lose control, my world is spinning

Rotating, as we play and switch our different roles

My breath is oblivious, as you softly whisper in my ears "I will never let you go"

We lie on a pile of roses, the petals fly high as we land

I fall in your arms

My security, my everything

My heart is pounding harder

As you glide your hand up and down my side

Affection I haven't felt in a while, only wishing we could freeze time

Sympathetic as we glance through each other's eyes

Everything falls to silence

We put an end to all violence

Unbreakable companionship, as we ponder through each wall

Circulation of our blood flow, correlates as one

Rushing in the same dirrection, even when the moon is not full

You fit the missing piece, the other side that makes me whole

Sleepless nights for enternity, the perfect harmony

As two joines together, forming a mystical fantasy

Discovering like a child, who just learned how to walk

Our desire is to search further, not ever wanting to pause

The emotion lingers with sensation, high quality of depth

Intriguing with each step, to love unconditionally

Promises to be kept, memories to fullfil

A vow to retain

" I will love you til death do us part. In sickness and  in health."

" For the better and for the worse."

I will give you my heart, my soul, my love

And through each storm we will stand together

United as one

She has beauty; for she is told. Her dark brown eyes shadow the unknown because her bangs conceal apart of her sight. Her long, dark hair hangs down by her waist with some splint ends. Her dark skin reveals her nationality of being an Italian. She is short and petite, and she smiles at almost anything. Her body expresses art. With a tattoo on the back of her neck of her zodiac sign and then one on her hip with her God child's name, connecting to a butterfly. The diamond on her left hand shows that she will soon be married; to a man who became her best friend.


            She is a Capricorn who is ambitious, mentally strong, but is not easily understood by others. Her wisdom makes her successful in her achievements. Leadership is a demand for her and she is often stubborn. She withholds her independence, along with pride and does not like to show weakness. She likes to learn and understand about other individual's emotions and needs. Her kind heart makes it hard to leave a person suffering.  She always tries to lend a helping hand, but often involves herself too much with other's personal life. But, even though she is kind she is often underestimated. Her fights sometimes come without a warning and when her anger shows she seems to be a different individual. So, she tries hard not to reveal the side of her that shows hatred.

            She is artistic. She enjoys drawing and writing by expressing her feelings. Her writing is her life story that she likes to look back and reflect on. Her poems are one of the most prized processions that she keeps. It helps her to realize and understand the person that she manifested to be. She has a strong love for animals. Always wanting to save and adopt every unwanted creature. She enjoys interacting with wild nature.

"Sometimes I wonder if the questions that are left unanswered is only for the best. Once the truth is revealed I would have to face reality, instead of just pretending that it don't exist. But, I need to know."



I can no longer take the silence.

Everyday it tears me apart; I know there is something missing.


Help me understand your deep secrets; then the pain will end.

So much assumptions contemplating in my head.

What if she really was not crazy?

Just maybe her pain torn and burned all she knew was reality.

Maybe she was just like me and discovered your lies.

But at the end those lies destroyed her.

Will they eventually destroy me too?

If they are left unanswered?

Love is the everlasting desire that an individual feels for a significant other. It is a deep passion that burns forevermore. Even when the light seems to be going dim, not even the strongest wind has the power to blow it out. When I look at you, your image fills my entire vision. You are all the sight that I need to see. When I say the words “I love you”, what I am conveying to you is that I need you in my life because without you, my life would not have as much meaning in it. You are my rock to keep me stable and steady; you are my torch to light my path when it appears dark; you are my strength when my weaknesses surfaces up. Love is not selfish, but thinks of the other person frequently; to fulfill all of their needs and desires. Love is kind and caring and will never want to say or do harm to destroy the bond, in which connects two people together. At times love can be hard with every alteration that exists in a life time journey, but love is not afraid to dare, to accomplish the impossible. When all else seems to fail never leave your partner behind, especially in a fire. Sometimes love hurts, but the memories and companionship is worth burning for. A marriage is only supposed to be experience once, so as I stand before you I promise you these sacred vows “For rich and for poor, in sickness and in health, for better and for worse; I will stand by your side till death do us part”.

The image of you stuns me, freezes my breath

The taste of your lips draws me deeper

As I lay and feel your heart beat steadily through your chest


Your eyes are memorizing

They change as your affection lingers for depth

Pointing towards my direction, I wait paitently until my desire is fulfill

For I crave your sensation

Come a little closer so I can convey in your ear all my secrets

I'll lead you down a mystical speedway

A place to escape when you've reached your darkest hour

An embracement of happiness to cap a hold of

My finger tips push back your hair

A sense of calmness runs down your face

Cold chills spread down your spine

Your muscles start to contract

A gentle kiss to the neck

The night carries on

I long for your body, your taste

You move me, where I am hypotize

I gasp for a breath of air every time Im in your presents

My body contracts with every movement you make

Swiftly adjusting, as you take me away

Your fingertips which softly passes the base of my body

Draws deep sensation

I crave more affection from a man who steadily stole my heart

Time ticks, yet with him everything seems endless

I'm in a state of mind, where I discover a new life

My desire is hotter than fire burning to ashes

Stronger than any substances of addiction

My body shuts down in despair

Lost a sense of direction which once led me some where

Taunting me as if my arrival was near

I'm not quite ready to surrender my will

I contain some strength left within my soul still

This war craves for a revolution

A obstipate solution

Which is hidden within the wounded soliders that lie on the battlefield

Anert and numb

No sensation to wither to or from

A silent prayer whispers in the wind and blows calmly through each tree

Revealing the truth behind every lie

Still struggling to find, another one's mind

The last shot released

The last soldier that falls

A picture touches the ground of his love that he will never get another chance to be around

For he sacrificed his life, not only for his country but a wife he devoted his life to

He dies and deceases away

Years pass his love carries on

A flash back hits her thoughts of her husband holding her in his arms

She loses control of the steering wheel

Another car collides

She gracefully shuts her eyes

The image that is expose is her husband taking her hand to Heaven

A once upon of time

Hey Big Sister, as I walk through this life I walk in your foot steps, that are just a little bigger than mine. Sometimes I like to walk a little faster, just to be right by your side. Then I slow down, so I can watch you be my guide through this life. As I let you take my hand to show me the way, I follow closely for I know you wont let me fade.




You taught me so much Big Sister, how to love, how to fight and how to forgive. To love our family and close ones, to fight for what we believe in, and to forgive because life is too short to have a grudge. Big Sister, you reminded me that love is thicker than water, and people do come and go, but family stays with you forever. For they are the greatest love we have to hold close.





Big Sister, all my life I looked to you for guidance, even if you didn't know. You are are my hero. For when i look at you I see wisdom beyond my years. But I am still yearning to learn all that you have to teach me. The mile stones I cross, I never get loss; for you still make way for a path for me to follow.



Big Sister, make sure you tell dad that I love him and that he always crosses my mind. There's not a day that goes by when I don't reminisce about our memories. Tell him I hope to see him again soon,for the pain of separations hurts. I miss him dearly.



As I continue on this life it gets harder; at some points it is not as what I thought. Luckily, I have you Big Sister. To help me grow and manifest in a woman that I need to become. You have taught me so much in this life and always will. Big Sister, I love you. And even though I have grown, a part of me will always need you. My hero in this world and the next.

A heart beat, so soft and sweet.

The red rose grew, for thee eyes to seep through.

The love thy felt, no words could tell;

For underneath the disguise lies beauty that hides.


A gentle touch, deceives much,

For thee to speak, confusion emotions make thy weak.

Heart ache not for pain, but mystical devotions scream thy name.

Endeavoring to be stole thy strength,

Inquiring what is real, correlating to what is fake.

Feeling condemned in one’s life, scavenging for more time

No more time to think, for this thy see;

Thy judgment will soon be received.

Though vow I looked upon, I once held in my arms;

But now it devoured, clock ticks another hour.

Thy sin remained, pour down the rain.

I can’t recant what thy tongue divulges;

So forgive thee, seize thy all.

For thee don’t obtain much;

Thy apologetics are just simple words, a prayer.

Though thy not worthy I call upon,

One that makes thee forgives, forget

Even the little things that hold thy pain back.

Uncommitted to do what’s right, just what’s wrong to thee eye.

Thy depleted all I could, nothing left for thee;

So let thee be.

Here thy am crying,

Wondering why, when they only going to die.

Day by day I wait,
Night by night I forget,
Something inside makes me lose control.
Confusion I can't hide, only wanting to escape this world.
But, then I hear him say these words:
"I love you, forever and for always Babe".
My heart sets on fire, for he is the one I blame.
For his spoken words he conveys to me,
Leaves me with nothing more, but happiness.
Now I know he is mine to keep.
Everyday I wake, feeling I can't go on
As though I have to break,
The chains that keeps me locked up.
As I'm down to my last breath, the voice in the back of my head
Reminds me there is so much left unsaid.
So I get back up from my hands and knees,
Determined to find all that I seek.
The words begin to cross my mind,
As I stop in complete silence.
I hear him say those words one last time;
"I love you, forever and for always Babe".
I take a deep breath and reply back with a smile on my face.
As I stare deeply into his eyes:
"I love you too Babe".

You long for something real

Affection from another individual

That feeling we all hope to find; before the end of time

Your desire is stronger than any battle wound fought at war

Old lust that burns deep within the fire

The ashes remain; dark and gray

Particles from the past; reopens a box

A half of heart lies at the bottom

It has been lost for so long

All it hunts for is love and nothing more

The scar is deeper; heavier

A death rose separates; as it falls mournful to the floor

Another lonely soul

You went down a few roads

Your heart was expose

Baring throught the pain

Your fear grows day by day

In barriel time changes

Yet you stop at nothing

Still searching for that rhythum

That beats to the drum

That sensation that drives you crazy

Can make your body feel so numb

When both your hearts beat as one

That feeling when you connect lips

The mystery you find behind every kiss

The touch of their soft skin

Covering every base

Not wanting to miss

The simplistic basics

You dont have to peek much further

Im in your sight babe

I promise not to hurt you

You have my trust, I wont decieve

Break your fall, then leave

When I speak the word forever

I mean enternity

Your perfect harmony

Lose control with me

Play all night

Making our greatest fantasies, come alive

Creating erosion; as we mark our territory

Explosion of deep compassion

As we send out different vibes

I gaze in your eyes

They change icy blue on the cold days

Then back to a blueish-gray

I wrap my hand around your neck

I pull you closer to my chest

Your eyes start to roll in the back of your head

Forget about everything we once said

Allow our minds to draw blank

No more thinking; just discovering

Stop all clocks and time

I long for every touch

Every minute spent in your arms

Wanting to freeze every sound that surrounds

Accept your heart beat that steadily lies against mine

The drum finally beats as one

A light kiss to the forehead

A smile across our face

Your everything I want to embrace

Cling to for enternity

Your my perfect harmony

(Verse 1)



Sweat drips from my eyes,

Screams of lust I cry.

Tonight you are everything to me.

Your everything,

You’re everything to me no more;

As I wake from this perfect dream

I’ll escape from Eden’s wall.

I can no longer live this lie.

For I must think of only myself,

Now my hatred makes me feel so cold;

Like all the secrets I deny I uphold,

And yet every time I stumble I’m alone,

And the darkness from all my burden fills my soul.



(Chorus)



I’ll lose myself in anguish tonight.

Help me get over you,

Don’t put up a fight,

And to think you wouldn’t be scared or surprised;

If I severed all these ties

This is the end,

Cause everything that once mattered,

Faded away;

Now all that remains

Is half of me, my false apology.



(Verse 2)



I feel so numb to see this bitterness

(It has to come to this)

The end of beautiful illusions

(One last kiss)

Now my broken wings prevails me to fly.

Confusion, I am in denial.

So much to hide

I lie alone

So afraid,

I take my last breath

As I fade away.



(Chorus)





I’ll lose myself in anguish tonight.

Help me get over you,

Don’t put up a fight,

And to think you wouldn’t be scared or surprised;

If I severed all these ties

This is the end,

Nothing else left to run through my mind.

It all faded away;

Now all that remains

Is half of me, my false apology.



(Verse 3)



We must let go urgency

As the flood of tears

Begin to overwhelm me.

Every time I try to restrain,

I’ll try not to fall for your false beauty.

My heart is at a stake,

Which leads to this promise

Just close your eyes,

And help me get over you;

Let me deny this lie.



(Verse 4)



But just for tonight,

I’ll lose my way and I’ll fall;

I’ll take this step, and then I’ll crawl.

Everything that once mattered,

It still remains;

But in my mind

I still see blood from your eyes.

It’s just a beautiful lie,

My one last good-bye.

“The view of a man that lost his whole world in one night, now he wakes everyday knowing he won’t see her laying by his side. Until time joins them back together, he is only left with the memories and the pain he hides inside.”



“The unspoken words I could never say, now it is too late. You lay in your peaceful bed, but you’re not awake; you remain dead. I can’t get you out of my head. Even though you lay to rest, this is not the end, just the beginning of a new start, until we meet again.”



I hold a picture of you in my hands; your memories in my heart

Bow my head realizing I am falling apart.

I hide my emotions behind close doors, too ashamed to face the world.

I ripe my tears as I leave my room,

But the anger and pain keeps on showing through.

Still pushing through everyday thinking about you;

How long can I stay this way, before I decide to go too?

I stand before your coffin as it opens wide.

I close my eyes and your spirit comes alive;

Holding on to everything I thought I’d never lose.

Then the light reopens and it all fades away;

The walls begin to shake.

Then I am back in my room.

Staring at another dosage, a drug I over use,

I lay back in my bed, everything spinning in my head.

And I am back in my happy place;

Where I try to escape

My dreams scurry faster,

Of everything I once said.

Then it is finally over.

I lean in to kiss you;

As I watch you lay to rest.

I walk away with burden on my shoulders;

Not expecting to say good-bye forever.

Trying not to cry and blow my cover;

For I must stay strong, though I do not know how much longer,

Who do I turn to?

Would anyone understand?

The pain of losing someone, you’ll never see again.

Does anybody feel this way?

Do they ever feel regret?

Knowing they had the chance to say “I lover you”,

To someone who was more than just a friend.

Now I live everyday with you underneath my feet;

With a gravestone reading “Remember me not as I am now, but as I use to be”.

Then I fall to my knees, and my heart shatters to the ground;

My soul is still lost,

Is anyone around?

Can they slowly lift me up?

Give me the strength to stand and the will not to give up.

How far do I have to go on this lonely road?

Searching for the answers to lead me back home,

It’s so different without you here,

I use to laugh without being scared.

Now I struggle with every battle closing in on fear.

Voices screaming louder, they surround me everywhere.

It’s hard to run away from a face you use to see everyday;

Now I shut my door, the sun is going down;

Another day has passed that your soul lays to rest.

My tears are finally dry;

Then I shut my eyes, to be where you are.

Our time is endless now;

I’m forever by your side.

When I leave your presents, a slight tear falls from my eyes

Eyes that are always fill with love

Love from a man that relevantly stole my heart

Heart that once was torn apart


Apart from normality

Normality then creates a new world

World that is meant for you and I



I wait for days

Days turn into nights

Nights become dark, and that’s when I miss you more

More memories I ponder over

Over in my head and then when I dream I am reuniting once again

Again I am in your arms where I lay to rest

Rest forever in a perfect harmony

Harmony that we both create



Forever it shall last

Last until the end

End will become another life

Life so perfect for you and I

I will sit in this state of mind, until

Until I see you again

My heart can only take so much pain

That I won’t talk about.

My eyes can only bring so many tears,

Then I have to let it all out.

All this pain you caused, I don’t know why.

Everything you said turned out to be a lie.

I guess my love is not meant to be,

Every time I go after it, it turns against me.

So here I am surrendering.

Hoping one day life would bring something worth remembering.

I want to mean more to this world;

But people just see’s me as a little girl.

My heart is split apart;

It is being pulled two ways.

Stumbling day by day

Until my heart heals, I’ll forgive you.

Until my heart forgets, I’ll forget you.

Until my heart can love, I will love you.

Until my heart remembers, I’ll remember you.

Until my heart lets go, I’ll let go of you.

Until my heart can be set free, I’ll fly to you.

At this point I am just confused;

Which way should I choose?

I hope this will all come clear,

And all this pain will just disappear.

But until my heart forgets, I’ll forget you.

Until my heart will let me love, I will love you.

Until my heart remembers, I’ll remember you.

Until my heart lets go, I’ll let go of you.

My heart is broken, deceasing away

I penetrate alone, a waiting for the day.

But until my heart finds the answers;

Until my heart says good-bye

Until my heart lets me go,

Then you can have my heart

Until the end of time.

Today is a brand new day


Yesterday just fades away

I am running in circles again

Where is my dignity?

My heart pounds harder everytime I hear your name

My mind so oblivated to the image of your face

If words could only describe the feeling I always receive

when I am lost in the in between

With you in this dream of reality

Moments I ponder in circles til I lie in your arms

Counting down every second til I am close to your heart

Whats in a fantasy?

When you can wake and love in reality

Stumbling over my feet, can you catch me?


If I fall, if I break, if I lose myself and tumble

If I give all I am, when I’m ready to take

Will I be strong enough to fight, as I wait?

If I search will I find, the answers that are hidden

All that I have forsaken

All the openness, all the brokenness

Here I am, Here I am

I’m not breathing, no I’m not dreaming

To sacrifice, to let go

To lose at a battle

My heart gets fainter, as you get closer

I lose control, my body in despair, shaky and scared

I tremble with each step, afraid to fail, to make a mistake

Grasp me in your arms tonight

Be my blanket, the black stary night

Wrap your body arounde me

Make me feel like you did when I first gazed through your eyes

I was seeing through Heaven's gate

The angels flying based upon fate

I get lost for days

Allow me to embrace your touch

It makes me lose my breath

Memorizes me with every kiss

Like pain doesnt exist on the prosperity of sernity

But when I lose my way will you be my light?

If I fall, if I break, if I lose myself and tumble

If I give you all I am, will you be ready to take?

To be strong enough to fight, will it be worth the wait?

If you search, will you find all the answers that are hidden?

All that is forsaken

With all the openness, with all the brokenness

If I convey to you all my secrets, will it keep you from running away?

To allow fate to guide your way

Will there be enough time to seize before its too late?

But here I am, here I am

Will you catch me as I fall? Mend the pieces when I break

Be a cane to lean on when I lose myself and tumble

If I give you all I am, will you be ready to take?

Strong enough to fight, even if you lose the battle

Will you still search for the answers that are hidden?

Redeem what you have forsaken

When your expose to the openness, expose to the brokenness

Explosion of our biggest fantasy; comes to life, it's not a dream

Unraveling, getting deeper, growing stronger

Your heart heats up; the steady pound paces through your chest

Excrete faster from your body


Shaky, but excited

Scared, but ready

Lost, but found

Grasping on tightly

Breathing heavy

Sensational feeling that exceeds forever

Motion circling in cycles

Tender crest, but soothing touch

Deep romance, love

Roller Coaster ride with every bend, twist and turn

The Hills giving you butterflies

Then Foul play in the fields

No strike out, my heart is for the steal

Clutch the bat and take a swing

Make a home run, take the lead

Lets Play hide-and-seek

Try to find me

Clues behind every tree

Darkness makes you blind

Be still and listen to the sound of my voice whisper in your ear

Let it Tingle, linger

Chills slither down your spine

Light moans and cries

The wolf howling at a full  moon

It awakens the night

Take me running through the forest

I want to see every site

Be my guide, my light

Release the beast that you keep inside

Howling scorns, thunder storms

Lightening strikes and the thunder roars

Rain pouring; every drop cleanses my skin

Seeps down into my pores

You shift directions to be my shelter

To keep me dry

Hover over my body, so I can hold on tight

Get excited, become aroused

Feel every kiss

Scratches claw down, make a sound

Lets run faster and see where we can go

The sun rises and ends the night

But, even when it does I can still hear a wolf cry

A landscape described by an old woman, who lost her husband: You cannot mention the husband or his death

            Everything is cold, frigid and dark. The season of death is forcing the trees and grass to die. Even though beauty should surround by nature's cycle, the leaves look dull and colorless. There is movement around me, but my eyes are too numb to notice. I see children laugh as they play, but my ears are ringing in silence. The sun castes a dark shadow over my lonesome house; a house that was once a home, but now it is filled with sorrow. My body remains in an inert form as my porch swing sways back and forth with a creek. My hands are constantly shaking, a frequent reaction that my body responses to. The wrinkles that are engraved in my skin show ages of growth and a long life on Earth. All that remains with me are memories, but the only thought that is buried in my head is the bitterness.

A tree described by a young man who just committed a ******: You cannot mention the ******

            A panic, my heart races uncontrollably. I run forever long on a never ending road; my skinny, long legs sped up my run. My baseball cap seals the light from the deep, velvet-red sunset as I get lost in a forest. My surroundings blended; everything looked the same, but then there was one tree that stood apart from the others. My run turns into a jog and then a gimpy walk. My knees buckle the closer I become and then I stop---my soul is capture. A maple tree stands in front of me, although this tree is not like other mother nature's creations. It is black, like a dark abyss hole that is carved out of Earth. Vines curl, as each layer has grasp claws at the end of each branch. Death at each tip with veins engraved in every leaf. I step in, drawn to the scent of sweet maple syrup. I place my filthy hand against the hollow trunk; it rests there for a while. Then gouges are ripping a part one of nature's beauty. The slashes went deeper than craters on the moon. The sap---dark as blood, oozes out of every crack of the tree. I quickly remove my hand; I step away to see my hand print, my true identity covered in the blood of guilt.    



Describe a landscape as seen by a tiger: Do not state it is a tiger

            The long green grass covers my face as I bury it near the ground. I wait patiently to hunt for my prey. My nails cress the dirt under my feet; I can feel every movement in the palm of my hand. Silence surrounds me; the wind is easily heard through the shift of my ears. Close, but in a distance my desire thirst will be tame. As a king I have power over my kingdom. I live in a throne, next to a waterfalls and an open valley. I roam during the day to fest, as the sun sets over the jungle I protect. Closely I watch; my heart beats and then I am ready. Blood drips from my mouth and the look of death glares through my yellow eyes. I am satisfied and all I leave behind is a warning, a print in the desert ground marking where I have hunted.  

A building described by a man who just lost a son in a street fight: You cannot mention the son, the street fight or the man who is viewing the building

            A dark shadow peeks over a head as the fog makes it a little vague. The shattered windows leave a deep hole; the glass lies on the ground beneath the concrete. Dark circles around all the doors. Dullness walks up the side of every inch of the walls. The top is slightly slanted and slowly breaking down. The stable support beam is becoming more dependent on its neighbor. Man's creation is crumbling down by the heat of the burning fire and the powerful noise of screaming innocence. But near the top a ball lays. The youth of a blue striped ball rolls down the broken hills. It tries to escape the death of the flames, but gets trapped. Squealing tires screech a high pitch and then the sirens ring. The structure finally collapses.

Describe the same building, but through the eyes of a woman who is in love: You cannot mention love or the in love couple

            In a mirrored image of beauty and joy, black turns to white, as grey turns to light. Open windows scattered, allowing the sun to peep through. A colorful atmosphere that has flowers and green grass, which arch every corner. The sidewalk smooth like the skin on my legs. Everything is perfect that even the flaws are unnoticeable. The stairs leads to Heaven's gate filled with prosperity. The support beam is built out of steel; it is sturdy and hard to break. The doves chirp; each one is paired singing a perfect harmony. The tune holds an everlasting sense of wonder and companionship between every dove. The walls crawl with bright reds and the sky mixed with deep blues. A painting created by an artist filled with passion.

The silence between us leaves me so helpless.

As I lay in a casket and reminisce of every memory,

The past, the present and the future all intertwine;


For when I close my eyes I fall back trying to stop the time.

I cry out for attention, to get this pain of my chest.

The feeling of rejection, I get lost in my head.

My heart beat deceases slowly as I start to breathe less.

My weakness takes control, put this to an end.

I try to gain redemption.

Something to bring me peace,

But I fall in this hole. I fall too deep.

The rain pours overhead; nothing to block this storm.

Day by day it remains dormant; sleepless and hidden away.

Bring abroad a new generation, a new kind of change.

Change that heals the pain, sows every wound

Change that make the blind see again.

Put a halt to this storm.

Mend all that is destroyed.

For when the storm finally passes over, only silence is left to hear.

“What’s in a name” –Shakespeare


Unique, different and uncommon

Sounds masculine, but beautiful when a woman has it

Sparks up questions like:

How did you get it?

Or

Is it short for another name?

Easily compared to an old TV show

I hear a lot:

Have you ever watch the Nash Bridges episodes?

No!

Is that where your name comes from?

No!

My life existed two years before Bridges came to be

My name...

Came from a waitress that my mother saw on an old movie

She was pregnant with me

She promised herself if she was blessed with another girl

That Nash was the chosen name for thee

Italian runs through my blood,

Green, white and red

But marriage gave me another heritage

German

Black, red and yellow

A wolf pack family

Wild, hunger and thirst

Stays together,

And

Fights every battles

With one another

My name,

Has potential and a lot of character

Intelligent far beyond age

Individualism, sarcasm

My name,

Is special

It justifies me, it is simple

Nothing fancy

Or

Hard to pronounce

Unusual to hear

A few people have it

If any at all

I have yet to meet another person

That shares this name

With me  

Does that mean something?

My past I can’t let go;

All the lies that nobody knows,

All the secrets that I keep

There are no words to speak.


My whole life has been a lie.

A lie that I can no longer deny,

So I come to this point hoping there is still a reason to live.

So I claim to be a lost soul,

Trying to reach out

Finding the piece that makes me whole,

Feeling the tears run down my eyes.

Watching the days just pass me by;

Hoping one day I can spread my wings and fly.

The day I sleep away, the night I stay awake;

Hoping to find a way to turn my life around,

My weakness carries on, but I am letting it get too strong.

It feels like I am losing control. All I want to do is let everything go.

But at the end I’m still a lost soul.

A lost soul

Trying to reach out

Finding the piece that makes me whole,

So I still wonder if I can break the chains;

So I can be free and fly away.

To a place where I can mend the pieces of my broken heart,

So all day long I sleep away and all night I will stay awake.

Hoping to find a way

But until then I am still a lost soul;

As I wait for my love to make me whole

The peace and confort that surrounds you as you lay to rest

You lay there blanketed on your bed

Your heart eases at a slow pace, I sit here and wait for you to wake


Wake from your dreams which you have in the in between

Bewildered and lost in every fantasey

I listen to the sound of your breath

The air that cirrculates deep within

I stare at you hours on end

As I watch you lay to rest

I wait for you to awake, so we can meet again

Then as you wake, a smile crosses your face

A glimpse of Heavens light I start to embrace

As you pull me in for a morning kiss

A fuse of electricity rushes through our lips

My heart throbs franticly, my hand clutches your neck

Our bodies begin to intertwine within eachother

Lets get lost forever

Just like the waves in the ocean that starts and never ends


The calling of each eagle that soars through the wind

Just like the sun set that ponders over the sky

The ultimate desire where you fall forever

I fall forever in your eyes

Then night falls once more and you lay to rest

The peace and confort surrounds you again

A light kiss to your head

I sit here memorized as I watch God's creation, blessing

Bring me prosperity, more happiness

Your chest rises and falls with each breath

I remain sitting on your bed

As I watch you lay to rest, til you wake and we meet again

Dear Jeffrey Kyle Wolfe,


When a heart grows fund of another, when they depart the distance between them seems to go on forever. Just like a child, who yearns for its mother; always seeking guidance and warm arms for security, the simple love that lingers unconditionally. Embracement and hope is what I've searched for, for so long. You caught my eye from the start, somehow knowing that deep within you bestow all that I desired. Our first kiss withheld a spark.  Love is now just an arm reach away, a soft touch to the skin, close to the heart. Love is now that compassionate kiss, hard to resist, an affectionate companionship. In barrel time changes, yet we stop at nothing. We still search together to find that rhythm that beats to the drum. That sensation that drives us crazy; it even makes our body feel so numb, when both of our hearts beat as one. The feeling we receive when we connect lips; the mystery we find behind every kiss. The touch of my soft skin as we cover every base, not wanting to miss the simplistic basics. You don’t have to search much further because I am in your sight babe. I promise not to hurt you; you have my trust I won’t deceive. Break your fall then just leave. When I speak the words forever, I mean eternity. You are my perfect harmony. Will you lose control with me and play all night? Making our greatest fantasies come alive. We create erosion as we mark our territory; explosion of deep compassion, as we send out different vibes. I gaze in your eyes. They change icy blue on colder days, and then back to a bluish grey. I wrap my hand around your neck and I pull you closer to my chest. Your eyes start to role in the back of your head. Just forget about everything that was once said. Allow your mind to draw blank. No more thinking, only discovering. Let’s stop all clocks and time. I long for every touch, every moment spent in your arms. I want to freeze every sound that surrounds. Accept your heart that steadily lies against mine. The drum finally beats as one. You are everything that I want to embrace, cling to for eternity because you are my perfect harmony.

    The love I have for you is indescribable, at times hard to grasp a hold of. The force pulls me in captivating my heart and soul. My world spins, rotating as we play and switch our different roles. My breath is oblivious; as you whisper in my ear “I will never let you go.” Then we lie in a pile of roses and watch the petals fly high as we land. I fall in your arms, my security and my everything.  My heart starts to pound even harder, with each glide of your hand up and down my side. Unbreakable companionship as we ponder through each wall. Circulation of our blood flow finally correlates as one. The blood rushes in the same direction, even when the moon is not full. You fit the missing piece. You are the other side that makes me whole. This emotion lingers with sensation, a high quality of depth. It is intriguing with each step. My love for you is unconditional. Every promise I will keep and more memories I will fulfill. A vow I will retain. “I will love you till death do us part, in sickness and in health, for better or for worse.”  I will give you my heart, my soul my love and through each storm we will stand, united as one. I could not ask for better, for you give me much more than anyone ever could. And when the distance separates us that is when I feel your love even more.



I love you Jeff, forever and for always.



Love always,

Nash Wolfe

"Which world do you prefer?"



An illusion created by one's mind

May destroy a life


For it is a disease of an irrational illness

Just another hide-a-way

To keep secretes



Separating the real world from fantasy

But, what happens if the delusions

Revealed what is underneath the lies that it be stoles?

And fantasies start to become the real world?



Are our dreams gaining so much power, that is takes full control?

Can it be true?

Humans are afraid to face the truth

So they prefer to live in a world that barely exists



The days light reveals reality

But when darkness falls

The night deeply sleeps away

As more dreams gets created

Adding more power to something that is fake

Then revealing the truth when we awake



Though our foolish minds don't dare to believe,

We would rather live in a world that we establish

When we fall asleep



So I keep running and running

Hoping to reach a stop

Wondering if I should leave behind

All I got

Here I stand,

Ready to take on everything, day by day



I once told myself never to be like my mother

And fear what life gives

Never be like my father

And drink my life away

I failed to do both

I'm not as strong as I thought I was

But I struggle to change



To find the strength and face reality

It is not as simple as most people tend to say

Now I see why others prefer

To hide-a-way

To this day I remain in confusion

Questioning how life can be so brutal



That it pushes us over the edge

To the point where we can't bare

Over time I came to realize

Life is a lesson that's needed to be learned

So be prepared to face the real world

The silence between us leaves me so helpless,

As I reminisce of every memory

Everything intertwines, loops around a dream.

Every touch I receive gives me happiness;


The greatest gift of all that is timeless,

Your eyes run so deep, it closes in on me.

The taste of your kiss erupt my feelings;

You’re my protection, with you I am fearless.



All of my life I could ask for nothing more;

For I have the beauty that’s in my heart with you,

Nothing compares not even the Earth’s core.

The greatest mountains seem so small next to you;

The ocean wave’s collision may start even though,

I know the love I have for you is true.

Everlasting: Romantic



If only my simple words could captivate every emotion that I am trying to convey. To summarize an illustrious story which I hold close to my dearest heart; then I would give you the entire world and then even more. From the deepest skies I would soar, just to bestow a higher power that you deserve; I would revive our love and mark every ocean shore for all to glance upon. My heart sets on fire and burns in blazing flames every time I hear you say “I Love You”. I lose control, my nerves kick in and I am frozen within time; with you everything seems endless. The taste of your sensational kiss halts my heart; for when we depart, I hold on to that very last kiss and cleanse to it compassionately; the thought of you ponders everlasting.

                              

                             Reminisce of Her Memory: Mystery



Blood shatter the wall, glass covered the floor. The smell of death lingered franticly throughout the whole house, like a graveyard that seizes corpses in their casket. The scenery made me reminisce about my wife’s death; I found her dead and inert, frozen like an ice burg. For some reason I upheld the same emotion that I portrayed at her death; she left me too soon, at times I still feel her presents. The gloves blanketed my solid hands, as I reach to retrieve the victim; they fell solemnly into my arms. I gazed into burning Hell; then Heaven appeared, she had return to me; I sat there holding my wife as she lied dead, then I woke from my dream.

What is in a dream?

What are they telling me?

I close my eyes just to see: darkness, hatred, lust, pain

That is all that surrounds me


I can't catch a break;

For even when i wake I still can't escape.

As I fall back to sleep, the dream continues.

I want it to be fake, but it feels so real.

Reality kicking in; is this how I truly feel?

I'm blanketed by the dark side;

Where is the light?

There is no pathway to follow;

I am stuck in a circle.

Time is unraveling; it spins faster.

My mind concealed with horror.

Unwanted memories.

Why do these dreams seem so unclear?

More illusions created by my unconscious mind.

Just stop!!

And let me rest in peace.

Sleep with the un-waking dead;

Peacefully.

Let my mind draw blank as I dream of nothing.

There’s something that’s running through my mind,

It’s tearing me up.

It’s an emotion that I can no longer hold;

A fear that keeps me up.


It’s a feeling that’s so strong;

Something that I had desire,

Confusion that mends all I’ve known.

Hunger that frees the heart,

A light to guide my way,

A journey to discover that leaves behind everything.

Even the burden that peels away my pain;

Even the feeling that makes you feel shame.

An inner meaning that’s so hard to say;

Only if it comes from the heart,

It will set forth a new day.

To be forgiven means to start new;

So I’ll leave what’s not meant for the future,

And forgive you.

Life

Creation, gift

Peace, comfort.




Struggles

Pain, hardships

Darkness, hopeless,

All apart of life

Taming the fire, sometimes it is so hard to see;

Hurt, pain, misery,

Rambling on day by day; he only wishes he can find a way.

Over time he still searches through this decaying Earth;

Universe is still within his reach,

Gravity will soon stop existing.

Hope is there through all he deprives.



His mystical eyes tell the greatest illustrious stories.

I can see pass all in which he hides, there is so much more than what meets the eye.

Spaces between a dream and reality,

Echoes franticly, which road will become more apparent?

"You shouldn't judge others position and assume that you know what is best for them. You truly never know how is feels to be where they are; until God puts you in their place"



"The observant of the eye may be cruel and hurtful, but the experience of the heart makes it even harder to let go."




-A dedication to my mom



I take a step back and I look at what I have

Then a flash from the past steps forward

Makes me realize that my greatest fear also remains in the future

All of my life I've judged her past

Never thinking twice that her life was just as bad

Always assuming that she deserved better

But every time I changed her life, it only became worse

As God comes in, testing me if I would stick to my words

That I once spoke before

I found myself weak, unable to close the same door

I look around and I realize I am reliving her life

God just put me in her position, to make me see what it would feel like

Then I look at the others, finally understanding that God is testing them too

To put us in her position, Just to see what we would do

To see if we would realize that we are falling into her mistakes

God judges us everyday, just to see how much we can really take

I look at my man, I see the resemblance of someone that I use to hate at the end

How much suffrage and pain they put her through

My hatred for them just grew

Now it hurts to see the same in his eyes

But his greatest fear still holds him back

Though I'm scared that he would just snap

Then another flash back ran across my mind

Of an image of my mother being the victim of their crime

Now I face reality, standing in line

But instead of being in a child's place

God switched me to view another one's eyes

And stuck me in my mother's past time

Break away, pull and split apart

Fly to a place to find my heart.

Streaming of rain closes the sky;

Lightening strikes, trying to get by


The dark blankets the starry night.

Fighting harder to see the light,

Unleashing passion, hold on tight.

I’m ready to take on this fight;

No more tears, no reason to cry.

Letting go, starting a new life.

And even when I fall apart,

I will know where to find my heart.

"Take a look in the mirror, what do you see? All that is staring back is your reflection. A reflection of what, of who you are, or whom you use to be? Only one person can change your life and only one person can make you who you are. That person is yourself."



"Every mistake, every lie will catch up to you. So be prepared to face it at the end. Don't try to run away from your past because it will follow you. You can't cover up the trail of your mistakes and expect all of your problems to go away. It only takes one time for the wind to blow on it and reveal it once more."




Every breath of air we take in,  is another secret we hold deep within

Every sacrifice that we make, is just another chance to see the change

Fewer days that are left, which leaves us with nothing but more of our regrets

Face to face with our lies, still trying to deny

Starting to believe what was created in our minds, now we desire to know the truth

Setting off on a journey to our past, hoping to find something new

All of our lives we decided to hide underneath these lies

Then one day a past event reminded us what we use to be like

Finding hope and strength, trying to reveal what we had erase

Now we spend everyday, rectifying our mistakes

How far does one go? Just to figure out what they didn't know

Was it worth the change? Was it worth the lies?

That I guess, I'll let you decide

God hear my cry,

As I bow my head tonight;

I pray that you lift me up and take the pain from inside.

How can I carry on, when I feel I don’t belong?


Only you know the truth, behind it all.

I’ve tried all I could, yet nothing had change;

Where do I go from here?

If I fall to my knees would you bring me to a stand?

God give me the strength that I never had

Hidden smiles,

Hidden lies,

How do we find the answers?

When there is no one to believe


How do we make a choice?

When we are trying to break free

People hide behind a mask

Trying to hide their tears,

But at the end all they are doing is trying to hide their fears.

They don’t want people to see,

See who they truly are.

So they think the lies will cover up who they once were.

But sooner or later they will realize

They are only fooling and deceiving themselves.

The lies that you claim to hold will only bring you so far;

Then you will fall,

In the lies you tell this world.

So open your eyes and look around.

Then maybe one day you will see.

A better life, than the lies from beneath