Better that every fiber crack
and fury make head,
blood drenching vivid
couch, carpet, floor
and the snake-figured almanac
vouching you are
a million green counties from here,

than to sit mute, twitching so
under prickling stars,
with stare, with curse
blackening the time
goodbyes were said, trains let go,
and I, great magnanimous fool, thus wrenched from
my one kingdom.

I watched the sun jealous of how its light kissed your skin
I would think of you in my deepest depression
I would watch in glee as you would form the most breathtaking smile on earth
You changed the way I saw art
The way I saw the world
You moved as graceful as Russian acrobats, feet light like ballerinas pirouetting into dawn
I sculpted my idea of perfection into you and imagined it going to bed with me at night
I took the burden of your emotions, your fears, your hopes, your dreams, your secrets, and guarded them in my heart as light weight
I have drawn you so much on school papers that my professors count you as bonus points
I promised myself I would not write about you but I can't stop my pen from stroking the paper with your name
Although you have strayed from our bond I'm terribly reminiscent of you
I used to notice how you would gravitate towards me whenever we were in the same room
I have watched in silence you kiss others with the same disappointment you feel for your father
I imagine me where they are
Eyes closed, heart open
Anticipating your kiss and somewhat hoping you're doing the same
I imagine the light in your eyes in the aftermath
I imagine the light that once lit up my entire universe
How can someone get over a person like you?
I often cry at night, praying you would come back to me
I sit in silence at our special places touching everything we touched together
Feeling the cool breeze caress my skin the way you once had
I feel the emptiness twice as much those days