Your touch flows across the smoothness of my skin... ---a cool breeze over a vast desert. Fingertips Searching aimlessly... ---for curves...valleys...nooks to explore. Your tongue, a jealous vouyer... ---imparts streams of wetness...glistening in candlelights glow. Tongue tease the rising circles... ---hard with pleasure...protruding from soft mounds of flesh. ***** the places in between... ---pulling...tugging...*******...rubbing. Then linger a while...insuing wetness...seeking shelter for fingertips ---...slip and slide...rest inside...a hiding place within me. Return again to ******* edge... ---while the hardness of you sweeps softly against the wetness of me. Longs to enter... ---slip inside...tight around you...I have found you... Irresistable...

You seem to be an echo... Of what my heart has cried out for A longing fulfilled... A lust satisfied... You seem to be a whisper of love... Invading me gently... caressing my thoughts with your unique revelations... You seem to be a cognizance that greets my humanity... Have I not loved you for all of my days? Is your touch not as kindred as my own? Does the beauty of you not permeate my being? Cradle...embrace...entwine...enevelop...seize who I am... You seem to be...beauty unfolding...

I have learned…that people are not always what they seem…or what I want them to be.

I have learned…that I am stronger than I thought…or others may think.

I have learned…that I trust few for a reason…or maybe many.

I have learned…that my heart is too much to give…and my love not enough.

I have learned…that I respect others feelings…often at my own expense.

I have learned…who my real friends are…including myself.

I have learned…that I do not have the time for heartache…or the effort to mend.

I have learned…that while I want you…truly…

I have learned…that I do not need you…and

You will learn…that you can NEVER again have me.

When I was a child… I was fascinated by the sensation of sitting at the bottom of the swimming pool …the drains tug on the liquid landscape that surrounded me…the world dancing around me in slow motion…an eerie glow cast upon everything that was habitually familiar…the clouds distortion barely visible through the swaying waters above…it was …somehow…comfort …in the sweetest sense…perhaps it was some primal, original dance as if in the womb…as if housed once more within the shelter of maternal delight …such a soothing salve of pacification has seemed elusive as life has stirred  me from my waterhole of non-want, non-need…non-fear…into the astounding, deafening, calamity that existence can become…I have found myself searching frantically for the drain…for the hush…for the waters edge and quickly the murky bottoms comforting escape…cradled, calmed, wooed by the silent caress of peace upon my skin…   silence, stillness …immobile tranquility…for all of it's loveliness, allure, charm…it has indeed unfolded in my more developed endeavors as …escapism…diversion…dodging…so very simplistic when compared to the mishaps and misfortunes that must be faced at times…I find myself  rising  from the depths of security  and ascending… gasping for breath at the surface of my life…

able to…

ready to….

scared to death to…..

move forward……

the difference?...Willing to…