Only if she knew how much I cared
If she knew how much I wanted her to be happy
If she knew how much I love her
If she knew how much my actual body aches for her
If she knew that despite everything I'll still be by her side
If she knew that she means much more than a lover to me
If she knew that every waking hour I wonder how she is
If she knew that even though I don't write I'm still here writing
If she knew that even if I hate it I will still support you with the stuff you love
If she knew how much I wanted to stop being a complete **** to her
If she knew that every minute of everyday is another new day to me
If she knew that I've done more with her in 2 months then I have in my whole life
If she knew that when the time comes I won't end it
If she knew she's not alone with her struggles she has me to lay them on
If she knew I genuinely wanted to hear her problems
If she knew how much I wanted to be with her and see her every hour of every day
If she knew she means the universe to me
If she knew she was my first everything
If she knew she makes me happier than I've ever been
If only she knew.