Help.
The fears I fear
got me bare
Words got tangled up inside.

Oh guilty pleasure.
is that so.
The pain, the chills, the scars.
There is no one to blame.

Hurts real bad.
To be both happy and sad.
Happy again and then sad.
Happy sad happy sad happy sad sad sad sad

It is a never ending cycle,
I am not the kind of person who ask flat out
but help.
I think I just did it again.

My fingers dance as little notes came running by.
A strong emotional level hit me right into my heart
then into my eyes.

I was at that zone.
The zone.. My former teacher talks about.
Pull me back in and out..

A dream.
Everything is going to be okay.
Everything is going be alright.

I am breaking.
From good to worst.

I am begging,
for sweet joy happiness.

Words left unsaid, inside me.
Feelings bottling up.

Help me, please.
Do not push me away.

I am running out of ways,
every passing day.

It gets harder,
with many broken promises.

No pretense,
No more search for hidings.

I never felt this alone,
never before.

I need help,
I need cure.

A hug.
A listening ear.
A shoulder.
A friend.

There are things not meant said and done,
I'm sorry if I can't pull myself away from it.
Smiles that doesn't reach to your eyes,
little things come down hard, let it go by.

I feel incapable for your troubles and worry.
If I could I would give you every bit of my happiness left within me.
Come, close the curtains and hide under the blanket all day.
There's not an option to give it away.

We've seen the finish line, and we're seeing it again but bigger and better,
Scarier and the future never gets ******* hazier.
I may be strolling and pacing down, but I know you could run and get the crown.
It's full speed ahead this Oct but lets be ready for the best shot.

Do care to jump on board with me?
Let's run.
It seems to be as i always see,
theres indeed a beauty in every breakdown.

Round, strong.. beautiful pair of eyes.
One of their brilliant confrontation,
Their deepest stare leaves you in confusion,
at times thinking, wondering and oh the mixed feeling
But what matters above all, they're just there by your side..
always by your side.

All the sleepless and dreamless night,
what will I do?  How could i turn off the lights?
watch your cat to sleep and bring them to their space.
their purrs are your lullaby..
and very soon everything would be fine.

Play them a song, tickle the ivories.
They'll hop along and lay on the keys.
their presence will not stop you from playing
you'll improvise the notes,
my dearest cat, you're all what I'm saying:

With a simple touch of love,
Cuddle them every now and then,
every hour, minutes and seconds..
Stay with me and don't leave me
they're the sincerest companion among all.  

*Much love to my dearest cat : whitina & tutut