I am different
but do not try to change me

for it is firmly
        you will become a stranger
             goodbye

and ten years from now  
          you will see me flying
with my difference

I was suicidal
They said I was selfish
Wanting to die
I was not selfish
I was
Broken
Anything would've been better
Even oblivion
I couldn't help it
Wanting to die
It's not selfish
It's pain
Pain is not selfish
It's not selfish
It's no light
No hope
No way out
It's not selfish
It's dead

I’m not a good girl
I swear
I’m not as innocent as I’d like everyone to believe
I have way too many secrets
I lie

But
But maybe that’s not such a bad thing
I’m stretching my wings
I’m not the good little girl you used to know

Sometimes I wish
I wish I was still that same little good girl

But if I were
Where would I be now

I am not sorry
For being happier
Alone

You think I should be
Sorry
Why?

I will not apologize
For being happy
I did not ask
What you think

I
look up
and I find
the world has changed.
But
has the wold changed.
Or have I?

I had an angel and devil on my shoulder
They'd whisper to me things to follow
The devil sounded pretty hollow
Knowing the path that I would follow
The angel, however, smiled with delight
And told me I was choosing right
That angel and devil on my shoulder


The angel and devil now are one
And as for me, I'm having fun
Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm sad
But every day I'm glad
That my angel and devil now are one
What happened to them, you may ask
They don't really have a task
Well not one that you can see
For they are both me