I hate you...
Three little words...
Three little words, holding enough power to destroy a human being...
Three little words I've heard many times in my life...
The sad thing is, the reasons why people don't like me all seem to be true...

Is it really too much to ask for three  little words that can mend a already devastated heart?

Where are you?
I need you...
I need you to embrace me...
I need you to wipe away my tears...
I need you to accept me...
I need you to just be there for me...
Forget those other things, just be there for me, I beg you, cause no matter how hard I've tried, this a war that cannot be fought on my own.

Home, a place of your own.
A place where you don't have to worry about others.
A place where you're in charge of what happens.

Home, a safe haven.
A place to run to if you're scared or upset or anything.
A place that offers shelter from the evil that lurks outside.

Home, the base of your life.
A place where you take care of things.
A place where you go to sleep every night and wake up every morning.

Home, it can be big, it can be small, but what really matters is that you can say "Home, sweet home".

Jealousy, a bad feeling to have.
I've been taught that jealousy is bad and useless.
Jealousy isn't gonna give you what the other has.
I've stayed true to that my whole life...
But as I stare out the window, into the street, and I see all those happy people, those happy couples, people hanging with their friend groups, I feel this sensation inside me slowly growing and growing.
Jealousy, best to avoid it, cause it can break ya.

True love, one of the most valuable things in life, maybe the most valuable, yet so hard to find.

True love, a gift from God, only handed out to a certain group of people.

True love, such a beautiful thing to have, yet a killer if you don't have it.

Regular love isn't something I deserve, so I'm sure true love is definitely way out of my league.

All I want is for someone to say to me "I like you", and actually mean it, cause then I have something to fall back to if I have a depressed moment

It's not enough to say "I'm perfect", it's perfect to say "I'm enough"

I'm lonely, yet not alone.
I'm cold on a hot day.
I'm dark in the brightest of lights.
I'm bad to everyone's good.
I'm a waste of everyone's space and air.
I'm hideous in this superficial world.
I have no purpose in this society where everyone has purpose.
I have absolutely no talent in this talented community...

I guess the only 'positive' thing I can say about me is "I am"

"Snap out of it"
That's the advice I get. Nothing more, nothing less, just that.

How, in the god forsaken world this is, can that be helpful advice?

Having negative thoughts has a serious effect on your life, and if it really was that easy to just "snap out of it", then why the **** are there still so many people with negative thoughts?

"Snap out of it"...people want me dead, but hearing that sentence hurts more...

Here I am, laying in my bed at 3am in the morning.
My mind went to sleep hours ago, but my eyes are wide open.
My mind went to sleep hours ago, yet thoughts race through my mind like formula 1 cars. Thoughts race through my mind, and they keep me wide awake.
All I want is you here in my arms and I need you to make the thoughts go away, so we can fall asleep together, holding eachother.