As your fingers fell flat
on the key board,
your head turned upward
eyes closed, mouth curled in one edge
your hair in sheer uncertainty,

and one at a time
the notes suspend themselves
in the atmosphere
lingering as if
they know no tomorrow.

Watching you from the half-opened door
I want to tell you how beautiful you are to me.
So beautiful that every word in English language
is inadequate to describe you.

I know that you'd be scared,
If you saw what I have prepared

Razor, sharp and ready
Pills, and there are plenty

I don't want anyone to see,
An extremely gruesome scene

So I wont cut out my heart
Like I want to
and leave it with a note
Addressed to you

Just know my heart is yours
It has been all this time
know that my death wasn't so planned
But rather thought of, and divine

I love everything about you
Please believe me, cause it's true
I miss every word you said,
I replay it in my head

And this was all a lie
Goodbye, my love
Goodbye.