i go outside so i can look at the snow

i want to watch the little white flakes come down

land on my eyelashes

put some color in my cheeks

but it doesn’t snow where i live

i go outside and the sky is clear

the moon shines bright

like it is mocking me

so i go back inside

and turn up the music

because there are worse things to be than

snowless

How ridiculous is it that even sugar substitutes scream your name?
Understandable with the veins of a diabetic, though.
You're one bad habit too sweet to shake, and you put me in shock with that rare, flashing smile.
I ripped open a packet and studied those white crystals as I'd once studied you.
I failed to consider your authenticity before pouring.
Freely you fell, and loosely, you dissolved.
I stirred you in, and wanted more.
Suddenly sour, my drink was unbearable.
You ripped my heart in two in the same way I tore that paper.
This divided heart of mine is now a pool swimming with your artificial ingredients.
But honestly, how concious is anyone measuring your flavor?
My god, life's so bland without you.

i'm stuck again
i find myself emotionally involved in every inch of you
your collarbones, jaw line
arms, hands
chest
i heave myself into them all
i want to be as close to you as possible
my kisses brush on all of them
i find no end to my madness for you
i'm losing myself
blurring the boundaries between you and i
what have i done?
everything has become slow
but i can't seem to brush my cheeks over you
as quickly as i'd like to
hiding my face in your chest,
i pray i do not have leave your grasp
the warmth of your presences seeps into my chest
trickles into my stomach
reaches my ankles
i do not want to escape

An explosion of a star created you
Perfectly, so beautiful and pristine
Your face and body,
It’s hard to look away.

Dangling
Floating above the abyss of earth
Reflecting the sun like dazzling diamonds masking the bitterness
Of mere humans,
Their toes curling in envious delight

Your voice is cream silk cascading over a deep red velvet tapestry
Draped on a woman’s sensuous form
Hugging every curve
A delicacy of sorts
It’s dangerous to float so close to the edge of the universe with you
But resistance is futile, as our friends call out.

Your love binds me, makes me writhe with such
Wonder and cosmic craving.
I lick up your being
I can’t get enough

In this vast expanse of emptiness
Your love fills our cosmos
Teasing and tantalizing.
Making me scream!

It’s a dazzling light show when the star explodes,
Sprinkling the black with multicolored
Pleasure.
An explosion of a star created you, darling.

Whenever you should cry
I will be your window to the sky
to remind you each time
that every rain pour is followed by the sun's shine.

I know you'll never do the same for me
because you know I already see
but it doesn't hurt any less
when you pretend not to notice my distress.

You tell me a joke and you make me smile
but this tactic of yours can only last for a while
it may help in the moment but does not make it better
and I realise that I am forever alone in this stormy weather.

I shouldn't be sad
Upper class, white, money
No job needed, no admirable back story
No dead parents or learning difficulties
Everything is good
But I don't know what to do
What
To
Do
An entire future
Decided at 18?
You have got to be kidding me
Please be kidding me
Please