my iron eyelids are closing fast,
medicine didn't even try to visit
i just couldn't bear to be awake much longer
and i needed that "new day" feeling where I just wake up and today is over.
everything is over.
today was a day that I decided to let my hope take hold
and see where it would take me.
it is true, you only do live once
so why waste your time and get lost in the hedge?
go for your destination
seek what you want and don't wait.
there's not enough time.

the problem is not everyone agrees with that.
not everyone realizes that time is limited
our whole globe is limited.

the scariest feeling I've ever had was hope.
it gives me confidence and security
as well as anxiety and despair.

i just want your arm around me so i don't have to worry anymore.
some ice cream would be nice as well.

there is something about your voice that seems familiar
i am not quite certain if its your tone or pattern.
it feels like whole milk brewed in my coffee,
pouring down my throat
warming my lungs from the cooler than yesterday weather.
i'm not sure how i feel about the hair gel
you look a bit like a backstreet boy on crack
but who knows, maybe i am secretly into that.
the shape of your mouth reminds me of that may whisper
the fact that february seemed so far away
and now it lingers over me like a much needed rainstorm that could possibly flood.
i think you will do until fate comes through and takes me to a tea party
you play the banjo? points up points up.

i gave what you let me.
you took it all.
all of it.
you took away
the one place I felt welcomed,
just because you didn't want to take responsibility .
you looked me in the eyes and made your decision.
you took the risk for me.
we were both caught
and i took the downfall.
i would say that i lost you,
but honestly, you ran away.
afraid of manning up
still, living in your board shorts and tanks
and texting underage girls last at night.
my maturity towers over you and i'm ten year younger.
i took responsibility
i took the blame
you took away the one place where i felt welcome

i should have forgotten about you by now.
the outlook on my day should not be affected by you.
i thought that once I was gone from the ground you stood on
That you would be gone too.
you linger in my most superficial thoughts
my basic desires and deepest dreams.
when you were the one who cut my seams.
please be gone; I know thoughts of me are far away from you
so why do you stay and torment me like you do?

above, it all looks so insignificant,
high above the black clouds.
I would like to stay there,
hear the rush of the engine and not worry about you.
about the insignificance that you play in my life.
about how my thoughts direct towards you and only you,
bubbling to the brim where they want to push out every positive or motivating thought that has any sense of individuality left.
I want to gag the thought of you out of my brain;
However;
The only way I know how to do that is:
to gag myself.
above, it all looks so insignificant,
too bad you mean everything.

Muzzle my lips
Do not speak the truth
Do not speak lies;
Do not speak at all

I guess you could call it feeling lost.
It's like.
I guess it's like::
I'm in my bed, and I'm sinking.
I can't fall asleep until I magically imagine that your arm is wrapped around me.
I can't listen to a song without thinking,
Wow this must be written about me and you.
I guess it's like::
I got my hopes up.
And you brought them down.
I invested my energy and put it inside of yours.
It glowed and glimmered and I grabbed it but you let it float away::watching it struggle to hold on.
I guess that's what it's like.
I guess you could call it feeling lost.