Knees brought up to chin,
Legs folded in,
Hunched shoulders,
Arms wrapped around me.
The soft brush of luminous wings
Against the wetness of my cheek;
Millions of cold clammy fingers
Raise goose bumps everywhere.
Lightness and oppressing weight,
Bright light and murky night.
Butterflies and shadows,
Both within me and all around.

It only takes a favorite song
Come up on the jukebox
To fish her out of her despair
They call her Lola, Lola Fawkes.

She laughs at nonsensical jokes,
Likes clouds and sunny glades.
She licks the ice cream tub clean
And paints her toes in two shades.

She speaks of butterflies and shadows;
Says she sees them all the time.
The butterflies tinge her dreams,
The shadows add a smell of grime.

She lives and dies with every moment -
Does it all over again each day.
In her heart she truly believes
That salvation is always a blink away.

Walk with me
Until we can walk no more.
We can take the stairway to heaven
Or stroll down the highway to hell.

I don’t care where we go,
Or even if we don’t go anywhere
As long as I feel you next to me
So close yet barely touching.

We’ll find our way
Get blissfully lost.
Just you and me
For eternity.

What does it mean to be free?
Does it mean that you live in a place
where you can choose who you want to be?
Take on the world and mold it
in a shape you want to see.

Say what you want to say,
laugh or cry, smile or weep;
take a step forward each day,
or just be still and contemplate
the workings of the Milky Way.

Does it all boil down to having options?
Is this total freedom? Or just one kind?
And what happens after you make decisions?
Does it bring peace to your turbulent mind?
Or guarantee happiness delivered to you
in an envelope all sealed and signed.

Then again, am I asking the right questions?
Or missing the point entirely
What is more important?
To know what freedom is really
or if you can truly ever be free?
Boundlessly. Completely. Essentially.

I love you;
I love you deeply, madly.
I love you violently,
I love you respectfully.
I love your nose, your hair,
I love every square inch of air
That touches you.
I love you in every way possible
And I love you in impossible ways.
I love you darkly,
Calmly, cruelly, selfishly;
I love the stormy passion you inspire;
Sweet stark desire,
I love you unbearably, heartbreakingly,
I love you tenderly,
In sadness and in joy
I love you now and forever.
I love you
Even if I’ll never have you.
And if truth be told
Because I love you so,
Now I love my black heart too.

Blow out bubbles of hilarity,
Sing me sad somber songs,
Distract me enough to fool
My wayward heart that longs.

My coward heart that longs
To escape all my wrongs…

Take my hand and lead me
Astray. Away. Far away,
From this edge of self-destruction
Or the darkness will take me one day.

The darkness will get to me one day,
If not like this, then some other way…

I've been stuck here so long,
Beginning to like this sinister night;
You are the only one I’ll follow
Anywhere, even into the light.

Anywhere we go, that’s okay.
Just hold my hand and take me away.