It's 2 am
and I'm
lying here
crying about
nothing.

I am happy and sad
outgoing and shy,
boisterous and quiet
but mostly,
I am empty.

One day, you're going to miss the sweets
message I give you every morning.

you're going to miss how
I use to worry about you.

you're going to miss the
smile and surprises I gave for you.

you're going to miss any annoyingness.
One day I walked away from a happy story,

and you're going to miss how actually
had someone that actually wanted you.

And one day you're going to miss me.

Head swirling
salt water burning my eyes
sinking to the bottom
arms and legs like lead

I am silently screaming
mute, all to no avail
I feel out of control...
Breathless
Frantically gulping for air

My brain tells me to fight
but my body immobilized
Sending out flares
any hope of rescue.

I panic for a moment,
As I float away in his gentle waters,
we were separate,
I guess I forgot how to survive.

So it has begun.
The earth is covered in vast darkness.
The sky rumbles and lightning flashes.
The wind blows and freezes the land.
And so it has begun.

So it has begun.
Water pierces one by one.
Like a swarm of arrows rushing down.
Delivering havoc all around,
and so it has begun

So it has begun.
Ending the era of the sun.
The nostalgic smell of the ocean,
summoned by the rainy season.
And so it has begun.

I tried to be ok, but I can't.
I might do something stupid
and I'm really tired
of getting close to
people and situation
that want to tell that
I'm nothing
Tonight I am sad,
Tonight I am lonely.
Each night I put my head to my pillow,
try to tell myself that I'm strong enough,
but not and decide.
I want to run away,
I want to go somewhere
A place that no one knows me,
where somewhere I can find peace and serenity.