we all need a man
who's gonna tell us
we're beautiful
that he will spent his days loving you
that he will spent forevers with you
that he will never doubt loving me
that  he will be the sweetest
he all love your flaws
all your mistakes
we all need a man

im in this state fearing oblivion
but i also want to be alone
i never know why my life is full of irony
maybe this is my kind of escape
or im proving something
proving that i could do it
i could win this fight
by cutting my wrist
by crying myself to sleep

i don't know
What to do anymore
i wish this is the end

i was gone for a long time
and my battle scars got many
time by time
and it's depressing
but some people don't feel depression
and just make fun of your scars
can't hide my feelings anymore
i just burst my tears on the cubicle
i don't care if it's loud
i can't hide it
society is mean
and so are the people
if i could just die and **** myself
i do it
not doubting

I saw you
I feel inlove with you
You look back
your eyes dazzled

When you say my name
My stomach erupts
Like it has little butteflies on it
They say it's a metaphor
having butterflies means you found the love of your life

I wish that was true
We become friends
And more than friends
You ask me one day
do you want to have kids
I came to think of it

Maybe im not yet ready
no, i don't like to
His eyes look at me
Still dazzled, like the first time we met
But his eyes has it's understanding

I think i met the love of my life

Nobody's give a ****
I mean nobody cares
Nobody cares if i mentally breakdown in front of them
Nobody cares if i enjoy being alone
Nobody, nobody

It hurts
Im not lying
Sometimes I'm getting tired to comfort myself
Well who the hell care
nobody

The voice in my head keep telling me
shut up, get the rope and hang yourself already
I trusted the voice
I didn't even think about it twice

After that
Flying on the ceiling
And Hanging myself
I see it
My true happiness

Being dead