As I sat and stare
the events unfold
with a glare so cold
as it's meaningless
to give reasons as to why
this suffering is so sudden
with the way you look at my eyes
and with a glimpse
you turned your back
away from me
I start to count
each point is obvious
every minute worth seeing
every moments I recall
all the details I remember
Brave,the way you hold his hands
Cunning, the way he kissed your cheeks
Afraid, the way when our eyes met
and I assumed that it was too late
to smile back because I know
that you'd be gone
in a moment I turn
and it felt so wrong to feel this way
coz' I'm so right that I will lose
in this game in which
we never played all along
and the guilt it brought
just to think that it would be best
not to try and cross that line
just because it feel so cool
in a way we can't explain
and regret the days I spent
just to see the scene
I'am witnessing now
So, goodbye
a line that I will say
in a manner that I won't need
to say a word
as I close my eyes
as you go away, go away
leaving a lingering thought
in my head, so painful yet so calm
calm, like your heartbeat
as you kissed him goodnight
because you meant it..
I'm sure that you meant it..

another you will be me..
while I try to be you.
they say it'll be us
so don't think that I'll pass
this life with you or without
just shout it to me
so that I could hear you
see it clearly from here
a heartbeat so near
so take it from me
it's not taken from you
just be like me
and I'll try my best
to be just like you..

Lying in your lap
I feel you gently stroke my hair
I slowly open up my eyes
I can see your smiling face
Forever seems a day away
so close that I can feel
the warmth of your soft embrace
eternity is here
Now everywhere I look
It's your face I always see
I think it's true,
there's no doubt
I'm falling seriously
in your arms, where morning dews
and orchids come together
Listen up, I've got to tell you this
for me this could mean everything
I know it won't be long enough
So I want you to know..
You can wait and crave
or just go and take it
leave me here,
still I'll be waiting..
I'll be waiting...

Imagine these four walls
so small and so simple,
Try to look at the mirror
aged in time and the past
Sit here you're at peace
calmly breathe it all out
Now your safe..
Now your safe..
Reserved and hidden...
Now your safe..
Now your safe..
farewell my dear ...
Still there's a link
between you and the world
Still you can see the light of day
but away from them
away and apart
Think, don't sleep
your time is near..

Calling winds turns to breeze
embracing the sky and clouds weeping
gentle and silent falling tears
touched the grounds singing..
each drop's a frail beat
subtle echoes through your ears
close your eyes and fall asleep
find the sunshine in your dreams..

I live in a town of many hills
an everyday scene of people
like a familiar gesture
of hands of the ticking clock
I walk uphill in the morning
and downhill as the days end
As I sat for hours and think
of dreams I've had before
countless tales at some point
to where failure is a design
and reality is an instant
The day will end in an endless chat
like skies colored gray
that turns to black
Don't close the door
please wait for me
Down the hill,
I'm coming home
I live in a town of many hills
an everyday scene of people..

pressed my fingers close
keep in time with those you like most
found a clue that is hidden
among the curtains and the ceiling
a glimpse of life I once saw
through the looking glass
through the looking glass
faded photos I kept
postcards and lettters that you sent
now the season is changing
it's autumn once again
Falling leaves and soft breeze
whispering winds slowly
careful and calm
what's there to see?
what's there to see?

The sky turned silver this year
A lone proof of existence
A life worth remembering
A day that changes everything
It's like a paper thin balance
of dreams and of past
how long will it last?
A long journey to the peak
but what's there that we seek?
Mornings are great, they say,
All that's left is to pray
pray that this day will be good
pray that this life will be better
As the events unfold
I'll sit quietly and look up,
hold an imaginary candle and blow it up
and hum my self an awfully familiar tune..

The lighter side of the dark
is mostly reassuring
Though I haven't figured out
the things I should be doing
Calm and collected..
Calm and collected..

I was sitting on a bench
while looking up above the clouds
the park is busy
but it's not crowded.
An archer suddenly appeared
out of nowhere, he walked
while talking to himself
saying words no one could understand.
I was confused more than I was shocked
then a boy came rushing towards him
and apparently he asked
"mister, why did you block your own shot?"
the archer looked at him
and for a minute he grinned
he answered; "you're just a boy"
for a while I thought and gave up with a sigh
my summer is fun..
my summer is gone..

I lost something on the way,
a collection of memories...
Swallowed by the sea,
stolen by the waves
drifting aimlessly
from the river to the sea
no turning back, flowing
seeds started growing
I'm just living for now...

A painful truth
with a faithful look..
the lost of warmth
of her loving arms..
She lost her will
She'll not see
the beauty of the scenery..
She'll never talk
not anymore
staring at the empty door..
and if she smiles
just once a year
I'll wait for it..
I'll wait for you..

Life is sinking
submerged in teardrops it cried..
Hope is drowning
carved in fate it survived..
Day is fading
as it melts the candlelit nights..
Hands are waving
hoping to be noticed and be saved..
Smiles slowly giving warmth
even to those with the coldest of heart..
Dawn slowly breaking
as it keeps on reminding
that life is worth living..
Now, mornings calm and forgiving
one reason why heart keeps on beating
as we breathe and live for all it's worth
what comes next is up to you..

When you see a silver light
and when you feel it's glow
I'll be there,
I'll be with you
you'll never be alone
When you feel the deepest warmth
a touch of hand could do
I'll give you a soft embrace
you'll never have to be away
It's not over..
I know that everything's not lost..
When you're lost among the crowd
and when you couldn't see
Just look above
beneath those skies
your heartbeat feels so near
so near, you're with me
It's not over..
I know that everything's not lost..

A towering compound I live in
where frames glittered every morning..
they shine like bright sparkle,
under the bright sunshine
and song like chatter fills the air
day by day, again and again,
different rooms with different tunes
different stories in voice-like melodies
I'm awake, I can hear them now
on the count of three,
will you sing with me?

Heartbreak starts!
she screamed, one of the few things I hate
a heartbeat stops
split in two, cracked
but what else is new?
how low.. I know, how low..
you can go.. I know you can go..
For a lifetime, I've been walking.
In the mean time she's been wondering.
can we go back? it's too late now.
we've been wandering, all for nothing..
just be calm now..
I'll be calm now..

A day means a lot,
A smile means so much,
The look in your eyes
that warms my heart
sunshine deep inside..

Rain flooded this town
soaked and submerged in tears.
Drops of hope falling from the sky
are we aware of the things we might try?
Rain flooded this town
disturbed and awaken from its sleep
Rays of hope hidden from the clouds
are we safe from its thunderous sounds?
Should we blame it on the irony?
or from the leaves that keeps falling from the trees?
If they say tomorrow might be brighter than today
could we just sleep and let this day pass away?
Rain flooded this town
deep regrets and woeful sighs
clench your fist and close your eyes
wait for the sun to shine again...

When all the lights fade away
and all your hopes die in vain
I know that you can make it through
I will still be here with you..
When all your friends have turn you down
and your dreams seems far away
I know that you can make it through
I will still be here with you..
I know that after every rain there's a rainbow
after all the tears, there's smile for you and me
and after all the years that will come and pass between us
There will still be love I know..
There will still be love I know..
When the curtain falls on you
and the cheering crowds are gone..
Even if the sun will never shine again
I know that we can make it through
I will still be here with you..
I know that after every rain there's a rainbow
after all the tears, there's smile for you and me
and after all the years that will come and pass between us
There will still be love I know..
There will still be love I know..

Ash like snow covered the town
a black and white feeling..
with a chrome look
and gray colored gesture
she sat and stare..
A dozen hourglass in sight
and a pocketwatch she held tight
along with her blank look
and pallid face,
she murmured; 'you're late'
with the most absent-minded tone
she could make..
Am I late? I asked myself quietly
Yes you are, yes you are, she replied,
A voice as smooth as it's dreamy
defies her silly looking eyes towards me
Where am I?, I asked her
She answered, You're stuck on reverse as you can see..
She asked for the hourglass that I hold so tight
I gave it to her, confused, not thinking if it's right..
I shouted wait, can I take it back?
She looked at me, well then, would you like to redo your life?
A quiet nod that means yes,
You're one odd fellow I guess..
As she turned it over once again,
sands of time free flowing
Embrace life, open your eyes
this is one great morning..

This is me saying, bow and be humble
This is me saying, you only live once
This is me saying, be honest with yourself
This is me saying, there is no greater gift than to choose
This is me saying, like what you like
This is me saying, protect what you believe
This is me saying, man up
This is me saying, remember to breathe
This is me saying, learn to accept defeat
This is me saying, don't forget to remember
This is me saying, wear your best smile
This is me saying, learn to let go sometimes
This is me saying, be calm and forgive
This is me saying, don't just believe in what you hear
This is me saying, cry when the moment permits you to
This is me saying, say what you want to say
This is me saying, take your pills
This is me saying, be thankful first before you complain
This is me saying, feed your cats everyday
This is me saying, make your feelings reach
This is me saying, don't forget to sing
This is me saying, make things happen
This is me saying, observe not just look
This is me saying, you don't need many friends
This is me saying, take your chances while you can
This is me saying, read first then begin
This is me saying, routine *****
This is me saying, find a purpose for your freedom
This is me saying, humans are greedy
This is me saying, apologize even if it's impossible to be forgiven
This is me saying, don't be bothered with small details
This is me saying, there's nothing wrong just be you
This is me saying all these things to you
This is from me to you, I guess it's for me too..

Today, I opened up my drawer.
Inside the box, I slowly remembered
a part of me forgotten, all over
days we count by number..
Past we left behind
became souvenirs kept inside
Memories of days long gone
and those time that we've had fun..
Year flew by really fast
good times we thought would last
We know bitter-sweet ending's really hard
so I say it's about time we move forward...

They took their arms
and faced the ground
who will rise and who will fall?
the flare is up and now it starts
until the end, until were done.
A fire began
and the night is longer than it used to be
pitch black but it's clear
the smokes and fog are terrible
yet the world is fast asleep
before the dawn breaks
before the sun shines
one goal will be certain
one feud will be settled
I'm alive, I know I am
with one more gasp
I faced the ground
Goodnight..
*Goodnight..

Can you still recall
the days that passed when you were young..
playing pirates with wooden swords,
the adventure of a six years old
Hide and seek and climbing trees
those days when we're free..
Be smart inside the class,
or just a shy nobody
where you find friends
whom you thought that will last..
Life in slow motion
vivid color of days..
world on high speed,
every moments we chase
they're long gone..
Running on the streets all day
on summer days and month of May,
or sitting by the window
watching the rainfall
paperboat, coffe cups and matchstick flags
walking  on tiptoe
feeling the earth's warmth..
cheap marbles on sight
watch the kite takes its flight..
as it flew away, so high
it will be ok if we try..

How does it feel to know
that your not alone, eyes are here
How does it feel to hear
that footsteps behind you
and echoes are clear
I can feel it now
so I'm asking you
if you were me
What would you do?
You've been through this you say?
and we are both afraid in the same way
I never thought, and I can't say
but I will tell you one more thing
my head would cost a lot
I'll keep it safe.

Like a full colored page of a book
in a blooming romance we got hooked.
On the other side of every thing
we held each others arms as we sing
about this wonderful feeling.
and beautiful sights we are seeing
Whistling a lovely tune
hoping this won't end so soon.
In a crowded place or an empty room
there's always you and me..
Like the sun,stars or even the moon
there's always you and me..
Even at the end of every fantasy
there's always you and me..
And waking up in a dry reality
there's always you and me..
From flying high to falling down
always, it will be You and Me..

Given are the chances
and by chance they are given
lesser nights of sleep
made me think too deep
just a beat away
before the coming day,
a sleep for a day or two
can't think of any clue
that this morning will be
a life less ordinary..
So take each step
and don't look back
mornings are great they say
you don't need to runaway
for it's a brand new day..

Recommend a book about giving up
or just giving in without giving love.
Recommend those things that you love most
Do it now before everything is lost.
You greeted me good morning and goodbye
never even had the chance to cry,
But you say we could try again
not today, but I'll say
If you're coming back, if you're coming back
don't keep me waiting..
I know that this is goodbye
yes this is goodbye
Though I'm sad today
I know tomorrow I will be okay..

A faint white light
and still frames in sight
whispers from walls
blur decor of sorts
impairment of my senses
leads to my loss of innocence
a dark red-gray thought
the impurity and youth..
He, with a lack of understanding
said life is just the beginning,
while She the other friend
says it all starts where it ends,
the indecisive Me always in between..

She's in to long walks
yet she hates wearing shoes
she digs my poetry
but thinks my kind of music
is just like a catastrophe
then we would argue
where it ends, who knows
she's a like a rival of sort..
can't forget the time
she got mad at me
when I thought its just an injury
and she said don't go,
or you'll be injured once more..
If I would call it quits,
I'll be into deep..
If I stay, she'd go,
I've had enough of it..
With a short temper
she gets mad easily,
but she's not indifferent
and knows when to say sorry
and when she looks at me
I know that things will be fine..
If it starts to end,
we'd rather be good friends..
She's fond of sudden dates
whether it's in a fast food or in a grocery
wonder why until now she's thin,
eventough she eats a lot often..
If she calls in sick
need to be with her quick..
and if she'll say she'll die
I might really cry..
and if I'll be a king
I'll vote for her as queen
But if it starts to end,
we'd rather be good friends
for I might fall to deep..
for I might fall to deep..

So clear yet so clever
this never ending street,
overflowing with sigh..
Arrivals doesn't mean forever
yet departures won't be goodbye..

Bitter beers and empty talk..
swaying moods with happy thoughts..
few of the good things
that never last..
I guess I'll pass..
for now I'll pass..

This is me, a door without a key
a life lived collectively
longing to be free..
This is you, the exact opposite
full of triumphs and degree
a life in reality
Bitter beers and empty talk
each time we crossed path,
you say tomorrow will be new
yet nothing really changes..
Armed with wit and courage
we pushed through our lives.
Decades come and go
yet nothing's really changing..
One step forward skillfuly
flip the pages of your book,
This will be your everything
A drop of tear, an endless rain..
A new day started torn roses everywhere,
A news from oversesas, abitter tragedy
40 years of giving in, they opened up their eyes
You walked and lived your life
As if nothing's really changing..
Again I woke from a shaking fantasy,
Like Kaijus from the movies
Big waves that stormed the seas
Armed with love and peace
We'll fight and lend a hand
You say the world goes on
and it's like nothing's really changing..
Flip the pages of your book
like in the mirror you overlooked
A silent weep so desperate
a dying wish, someone save me..
One by one I take each step
careful and heavy,
you always say that it's not a good idea
Part by part I think aloud
and share you my story,
But then you'll say just shout it out
just shout it out..
Passing days,  they stitch our lives
surreal scenes of waiting in line,
uncertainty for you are me
I bet you're longing to be free..

The silver sky faded
but it left a bright sparkle
and added a new leaf
amidst the calmness
of the tragic winds
that left my heart withered and dry
out of loneliness
the world cried
a flood of teardrops
left me in the dark seaside scene
with warm candle flames
that kept me up all night
whistling, wondering, and believing
that there's an awful new meaning
to the tune we're so used to singing
as the candle melts
a day ends, with no regrets
with each graceful steps
I'll take along these twisted stairs
I'll remember how I cried every year
seeing my balloon fly
this year, for a change
I'll let go and smile
as I watch it fly
on a clear October sky..

Sunday, Monday
full of thunder..
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday,
a flood of tears..
Friday, Saturday,
I will love you everyday..
and at the end of days,
I will do it once again..

A life began from a speeding van
weightless, the day has started
across the street in an intersection
a clear view from above
as you float in a feather-like way
with an umbrella to make your way
you glide, and soar
to where the winds take you.Faraway..
But the higher you soar
the deeper you fall
fall like a drop of rain
from a raincloud of a storm
and sink like a stone
a descent into the maelstrom
at the end of days you'll ask yourself
who will save you?

It all happens when you close your eyes
things which aren't meant to be
Silent lies and lullabies
until now it's haunting me..
Soft words underneath
whispers that echoes through my ears
keep it that way,
keep it away..
keep it away..

Across the street,
a busy scene
of the daily things
people are doing..
I took a sit,
on a pavement curb
and observe the sight
of the sun so bright
Morning as they call it,
came in once again..

No good for no one now
that is what I feel..
You had me worried sick,
wondering while you're asleep
I never want this
No more, please
You had my heart dangling
thin line tightrope walking
and I cant help, but blame myself
for everything..

Pale as the day
my life has passed..
As slow as a teardrop
I greeted the past..
Though moments come, obviously they go
one more look and they'll be gone I know.
All is lost, a life's defeat
All is lost, the end complete..

Otherworldly, the way you look at me.
A taciturn nature, the way others see
This time I'll be docile,
and give you an honest answer..
With each question I surrender
With every turn please remember
I am me and you are you..
I am me, I'm true..

A race to reach the solid ground
but it seems that we are going in
round and round..
A chase to reach our wildest dreams
will be our goal
let's make it clear..
follow me, I'll lead you there
you need not look any where
It is my choice as you can see
I'm coming home
just wait for me..

My feelings that won't reach
no matter how hard I try
Embraced by the moonlit sky
It's hard to say goodbye.
Your feelings that won't show
but it's always there you know
Fell like the rain from the sky
In the end we'll say goodbye.
Sunday conversations
A faint, like sort of revelations
feelings and anxieties
might lead us to confessions
careful steps we take each day
may take us to the ground someday
careful words we say each time
might make us fall deep this time
Just trust me for I will be true
hope this feelings reach you...

I can't be so sure
but I've got my reasons too
so it's rather this way
that a day will come..
run away, run away
keep your sharp eye
and don't look back
run away, run away
as fast as you can
green lights on
I've waited a lifetime
to press forward
and hurry up..
run away, run away
and don't look back
run away, run away
lost time life..

Two decades has it been?
or a year short to make it three
Relieving thoughts for a better being
Lets rewind  again and start to sing..
Though we say that we keep on searching
but end up not gaining anything
shouldn't we go back and ask ourselves
if are we really looking for something
for we may see, or we may find
those things we've left behind
we may skip for a decade and regret
but we will never ever forget
the lines to the song and its yearly meaning
the familiar tune that has been awfully playing
today, again and again at the back of our heads
so embrace the day for it is yours
and blow the candle to complete its course..

Why are we here? What is our worth?
Few of the questions we will never solve
We walk this way and live our lives
Still we die so there's no need to try.
In the end all we want is to be remembered..
We spend our lives trying to ponder,
discovering things from beyond and over.
But fame and glory will be left behind
the moment we reach the final stop
I guess..
In the end all we ever wanted is to be remembered..