i lie awake thinking of you.
Numb with the emptiness of my soul.
i no longer cry, for that is weak.
no need to scream, no one cares
gotta stay strong.
no one can see my pain.
all i can think is....
why can't you love me?
why.....?

The burning of the smoke in my throat excites me.
i know here soon ill have no care in the world.
i can feel the base of the music in my chest.
Puff puff pass.
i sway to the music and giggle at the lyrics.
crush it up nice and good.
inhale the powder through my nose to get the high i really want
take a shot to wash down the taste
sit back and drift out of reality.