I hate you. I need you. You make me sick. but Im addicted all it took was one hit now I I can't let you go. Your breath is the sweetest. Your eyes stab into my soul. You have became my Beautiful nightmare. </3
Oh mommy and daddy. what can i say. thanks for the scars Thanks for the pain. Emptey stomachs Your no where to be found. Mommys at the bar. daddy passed out. Oh mommy and daddy Why can't you understand you made me this way i bet your oh so proud.
Heart racing. Your screams thunder through the room. Is it going to happen now? How about now? Bracing myself for the blow. All i can do is wait. cornered and helpless i thought you loved me. here it come. one. two. three. Three times. This isn't love
The first cut is the sweetest. second one hurts. the third is numb. carve my message in my leg no one will see but me. lay in the tub as it fills with water and blood. tonight is the night. notes to the one i loved on the counter Im sorry Drop the dryer in the tub. fly away. fly away and be free....
The burning of the smoke in my throat excites me. i know here soon ill not have a care in the world. i can feel the base of the music in my chest. Puff puff pass. puff puff pass. i sway to the music and giggle at the lyrics. crush it up nice and good. inhale the powder through my nose to get the high i really want take a shot to wash down the awful taste sit back and drift in and out of reality.
i lie awake thinking of you. Numb with the emptiness of my soul. i no longer cry, for that is weak. no need to scream, no one to listin. gotta stay strong. no one can see my pain. all i can think is.... why can't you love me? why.....?