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My mind is a tinderbox.

Only awaiting a reminder of
the taste of your breath and your many loves
to spark up and light a deadly fire.

It is vulnerable to hate, jealousy and other
fiery emotions,
and more than once have you deliberately
caressed the ends of this box
with an emery touch.

It feeds on past sensations of the skin,
forgotten beatings of the heart,
and promises only skin deep--
they are still just the sensations
from crosses you made on your chest.

It is a bubble, waiting to burst.

But make no mistake,
it is very powerful.
Do not, and I repeat, do not
let yourself be swept away with fuzzy emptiness
and homely tempts.

It is awaiting only a weak moment.
Like a swish of warm breath
on a stack of old dry grass,
to start a fire so bright
you have to squint.
I'm already treading on the ashes of an unknown flame.
how you're able                                                                                    
to effect my vital internal organs                                                                      
you control my heart                                                        
you've made it speed      
you've made it slow        
you've made it fly            
you've made it sink        
you've made it stop        
you've made it start        

you've got control of my heart                                                                    
hijacked or stolen                                                                                                  
you have it now                                                                                    
i just hope                  
that you don't              
**** it                      

X                                                                                                                                  

marks the spot                                                                                                                      
i think you found it
it's so terribly sad
           that unless you're located
  in a place with no or little food
            people are criticized for their weight
            put in boxes
                                                   [overweight]
                                                   [underweight]
and there's no
                                                   [perfect weight]
instead there are people
                               on diets
             to gain
        or to loose
                                                 to attempt to get the
                                                   [perfect weight]
there are adults
                teenagers
                children
                                          who only want food
                                          they're in their own box
                                                                                                      they're [starving]
i have this overwhelming need              
it's hurting and ugh i just
                                i just need to hold your hand
i need to feel you skin                          
               i need your warmth
it's an ache and i know
                                       it wont go away
until i feel your warmth                                                
and thats not going to happen                        
because you live to ******* far away   (excuse the language)
i just need you                    
the ache has settled like sand          
to the sturdy bones of my back
and i can't shake it off                                  

                                                                                            i need you
i just RAWR                            
it's overwhelming me
yes
                    yes i'm young
                    yes i don't know much
                    yes i haven't seen much
                    yes i don't know many people
                    yes i love him
                    yes i do
no i don't care about what you think, it's love, go away if you don't think it is
                    yes i'm his
                    yes he loves me too
no i don't care about you
sometimes i think the only reason
       that i'm able to sleep at all
  is because i know
           that right then

                  you're wishing
                           you
                     were here
                       with me
i find it funny how
    most people
             who don't know me
assume that
  i live in a town, city
                 somewhere plush
     or maybe the back streets
where i do what i want

but no, i live
         twenty minutes drive
out of a small town
                    on a dairy farm
      two hundred cows

                   where i work
just as hard as my brothers
               we get paid for our work
  smaller amounts than others
          but still
                            we're made to work
  parents of course

then when i'm not working
       out on the farm
               either milking cows
    or fixing random problems
                collecting wood
  moving cattle
                              the list goes on

         i'm cooking
                    cleaning
   getting the jobs done
                      or our parents, again
become frustrated
      and take something away
                      from us
so i work
       as to not loose you

because i know
     one day i'll be out of here
and you're where i'll
                        be going
and i can't wait
i just love it how                      
             when i'm having
a random rant                                  
about something completely ridicules                                                        ­
                                                              li­ke stockings [psh]
                                                         ­       or having a tiny hole
                                                            ­                 in your favorite socks [gasp]
you laugh                          
agree                                      
then say, while you're smiling                    
completely out of no where                              
"this is                                                      
one of the reasons                
why i love you"
                                    

                      ­                 and that is one of the reasons
why i love you
this might be strange to say, but this is my favorite poem that i've ever written, wrote it just then, but yes it's my favorite, because it makes me smile
O, to live in the absence of time
when days are not days, but moments
always begun, never at end
unplanned, uncharted
and remembered

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