Morgan: Poems

Bent

Morgan Apr 2014

Bent

I feel like this more than you'd know.
But how would you know?
How much do you care?
Enough to make me feel like this.

Alone.
Ostracized.

On the outside,
it's called The Time Of My Life.

On the inside,
I hear your laughter without me.
And I know the secrets you keep.
The jokes I'm on the outside of.

How do I prioritized the Great Unknown?
To not be so alone?

Unknown.

Fear of heartbreak

Morgan Apr 2014

Fear of heartbreak

I think of you all the time
Which scares the **** out of me.
It's because I'm opening up;
Repeating past mistakes.

But part of me is falling in love
With the fear of heartbreak.
Part of me is falling in love
With the sound your heart makes.

I believe

Morgan Mar 2015

I believe

I believe the things I wish I could
Tell my younger self are things that
Can still be applied to my life today

Don’t believe everything people say,
Beware of people who only talk to you when they need you,
Don’t expect a happy ending,
Beware of promises; they’re often broken.

Remember the good times, forgive the pain,
Believe in your worth,
Shine, Original Masterpiece,
Shine!

Why do we stray from these messages
Of our Wise and Experienced selves.
I am my our own mentor
Of the lessons we should know by now.

Learn them.

Like

Morgan Apr 2014

Like

It's was new love.
Started as a crush.
As a Like.

Blossomed into a butterfly
deep within the stomach pit.

"I like you," he whispered sweetly.
"I like you back," she returned.

And on they went.

Until he found a new Like to like.
He snatched the beautiful, wanted feeling from her
as if it wasn't her's to keep.

It was her first real Heartbreak.
Torn up inside,
The hate began stirring.

And now when she sees him,
she has to act like it's all okay.

Like her Like had faded faster than his.
Like her heart was full and solid.

She'd never take him back.
She just wishes he'd never left.

Loved

Morgan Apr 2014

Loved

“I have nothing profound to say,”
Said the timid boy under his breath.
I will not change the world,
For it will be better off without me.

I have not loved,
I have not mattered,
I am no one.

But on the inside, he is screaming
Louder and louder
To be heard and understood,
To finally be known and loved.

For to be known is to be loved,
And to be loved is to be known.

This boy is inside all of us, at some point.
Dying to understand our worth and beauty.
Dying to know that we matter to someone.
And we do.

I promise.

Mistake

Morgan Jul 2014

Mistake

Seeing you tonight was one of my biggest mistakes.
Second to letting you into my life.

I think of what we could have been and done
In a whole year's time.

I should be over you.
I think I was until I saw you again.
I should be over you.
But you are brilliant and you have a dazzling smile
That brings light to the darkest places.

I can't tell anyone about it because they think I am strong.
They've helped me get over you.
I can't let them down.

I hope I never see you again.
And I never again have to make this mistake.

Repeat

Morgan Apr 2014

Repeat

I hate when people say we'd be good together
I love when people say we'd be good together

It gives me hope that people see what I see
Makes me hope you will see me the way they see us.

But the world doesn't work like that
Experience is the judge

So I shake my head and say no to their proposals
To keep the wall up around my heart
To not be vulnerable to those who don't deserve it

I will never be good enough for you
Or what you want

It's happened before
Time and time again

You don't like me like I like you.
So I pretend not to care.

The story that's always on repeat.

SubPoem

Morgan May 2014

SubPoem

No one determines my self worth or defines me except
Me.

I am in control of who I am and who I become.

If you don't appreciate my contributions, I will take them to where they are.

Ball's in your court, *****.

A poem about a ***** who thought she knew who I really am and accused me of **** I didn't do.

The end.

Morgan Mar 2015

The end.

We've drifted
drifted a part from what we
once were.

We used to be able to tell each other everything.
Now I don't know who you are.
We haven't spoken in months.

It breaks my heart more than I can say.
We betrayed each other.
We changed.

One hurt after another led us to where we are now.
Neither of us recognize the other as we stand before each other for the last time.
This isn't how I wanted to it end but there's no moving forward now.

And slowly, with a final twinge of pain--and a squeeze of our held hands-- we walk away for the last time.

I'm sorry.

The Words I'd Say

Morgan Aug 2015

The Words I'd Say

When those dark, troubling thoughts make their way to the surface once again,

Just remember how much I love you and your value to everyone you meet.

You are stronger than this temporary moment of pain and regret that doesn't seem like it will cease.

Your infinite worth shines brightly, even through the darkness that you see, that refuses to give you peace.

You will overcome this challenge, time and time again.
I am with you.
I am always by your side.
Brave girl, don't you ever give up.

Words to another when I can't even say this to myself.

Uninvited

Morgan Jul 2014

Uninvited

Unknown. Forgotten. Unimportant.
You made me feel all these things when you chose her over me-
When you forgot to mention your big surprise.
You left me alone with my deep thoughts of trouble
While you were off having fun with her.

I hope she makes you smile like I do-
Used to.
I hope she makes you feel overwhelmed with laughter.

I thought we said forever,
Until you left me all alone.
Now I see where your intentions lie.

Bring me back a t-shirt from paradise.

one a those FU moods.

— The End —