Buzz strut with the edgy biology

high on fumes and nonsense anatomy

Watch it gloat inside a wooden smoke shack

A snake slides splendidly
silently sowing seduction
Gun strapped and glamorous

Laughter fills the spaces
still a soul needs comfort
Cry for the mother

But she is preoccupied

Thumbs aching from the scroll

Plastic and jaded from tweets and tinder

Wine and dine floozies
half starved from vanity
Still they snap before they eat

Pay the tab and leave them to their exhaustion

Cookie cutter units with the virtual reality escape pods

Trampolines for two pennies a leap
But a ceiling denies full potential

I came here with two specific purposes

I only wanted to buy some pants and eat Orange chicken

Unfortunately I've been cursed with a need for perceptions dissected

So I wander the rows dumbfounded

not by the excess or store fronts

But by the behavior and faces of so many singular souls mingling together

I would order from the Amazon

But I find my reclusive nature needs shaking now and again

Maybe the excess empire was too fast for diving

Next time I will just fashion my own fashion

Sitting on this couch

I witnessed my best lamp turn into a goat

in these moments

With no troll for physical intervention

I truly fear me own chemistry

I had to go

It's a strange turn of events when ones mind can no longer be trusted

Even stranger when it comes so abrupt and uninvited

like an old friend with sandbox obligations

Fear in that I have no idea when I actually came unhinged

Relax

Retrace your steps

Find a time when these images actually made sense

When the sky had a less sinister muse

when life echoed humble

When stomach pain was a dull ache

now I sit here without a proper clue as to what comes next

Waiting for this shaken stutter to articulate properly

however with no soul for communication

I must finally face my own reflection

the last time I was here

I saw myself turn into an old man and decay properly

So fear resonates when I step onto cold tiles

I look into the mirror

my eyes say

"where have you gone?"

Don't do drugs

I rarely do

This was a reminder why I usually say no

An amateur **** star with a masters in psychology

She was pleasantly astute
also predictably cold
How could she not be?

A high functioning fiction with shattered jaw logic

He picked flowers for a living
blow and citrus extended
Eyes saying the show must go on

She was maybe the safest creature alive

Traversed all cracks with grace
saying she hated pain in all forms
An alien in a cruel world

He was a pusher of high caliber

He navigated traffic like a stop light
savage in his circles
But nobody on his block went hungry

Some people I met in Reno

Some much needed madness after a plane ride stiff with sanity

A trail of gasoline with no apparent purpose

Light it up and watch its course

Irresponsible in every sense of the word I know

I am only human

Sometimes this morbid curiosity can overwhelm

Now praying too no particular god

That my haste end with no serious damage

In the distance a sun rises early

stirred awake by a man made ignition

How could I have know?

What is a mirror without vanity?

Youth chemically plastered

smitten by Hollywood delusions

Eager limbs with a fine insect coating

What is time without thievery?

The years go and we are left with these empty spaces

Sometimes filled with television glow and robot trances

The kindle and cookies

Let the crumbs gather for the microscopic

What is life without a tilt?

Pour the paranoid another drink and nod at the bankrupt morality

Pat the cornered fiend and comfort his hate filled hindsight

observe a wasted generation

Hysterically hydrated and slumped

What is God without interpretation?

Mine is not yours

but I admire the tenacious taste of a salvageable salvation

I appreciate kindness in all forms

Whatever way it may manifest itself

A smile is a smile

What is a beginning without an end?

Find peace or guilt the path may be up too you

Sometimes the path may be chosen for us

It takes a strong mind
to reject their idea of happiness
For the sake of your own

I found a bird inside a ravaged landscape

Contorted faces with the chemical reactions

The product of my own mind

I get trapped here now and again

But this creature breathes stability in a world otherwise abandoned to its own devices

Anybody that truly knows me can attest to my tenacious mental mess

I suppose it is noble that you wish to rationalize the irrational

But this is not a game

Nor is it a movie portrayed with a Hollywood tint

Some things are best left for nature's unfolding

Still

She said she found my insanity offensive and delightful

If I had the constitution for marriage I would have proposed right there

That may be the nicest thing anyone has ever said too me

Unfortunately I can barely handle myself

With the exception of a now and again nomadic turtle

So I let her go knowing I will only complicate

I am only a danger to myself
why make you watch?

Please don't misconstrued

I know my madness is nothing special

But it is mine not yours

You have yet to see true unnerving

I would do my best to guide you to a safe oasis

Still it would fade and shrivel with our collective consciousness

Let someone else do the unraveling
Let someone else make you whole

I try to be a good person

Even if that means the occasional hatred from you