I left, again
I had to
So I could no longer crush you
You were so sure
And I was trapped with my what if’s
Maybe we are never really meant to be
Maybe this is how it works for you & me
I wanted to stay
But timing doesn’t want me to
God sure has better plan for us
But not today, not tomorrow
In another life? Maybe
I’m not brave
I’m scared
I’m not allie
I’m afraid of making decisions
I’m afraid of making choices
I’m sorry
That’s all I can say
I love you
I’ll miss you;
But, goodbye, my almost.

why am I writing sad poems about you?
when all I know is I am nothing to you

why do you make me feel bad?
all I want is for you to not feel sad

i dreamed about you last night
holding my hand so **** tight

you were driving so fast
and we were singing under the pale moonlight

i was crying and so were you
not wanting to let each other go

but how unfortunate are we?
that the thought of you and me, even destiny doesn’t agree.

please,
don’t tell me u love me when it’s too late
don’t tell me u need me when i’m no longer here
don’t tell me u care for me when i can no longer hear
&
don’t tell me all of these when i can no longer feel

at 13, your innocent heart
wished for a perfect boy
someone who is tall, dark and oh, so handsome
someone who doesn't smoke, doesn't have a tattoo or even drink liquior
at 19, you fell for someone who is the complete opposite
of your "perfect dream boy'
at 20, you realized that those things you don't like are normal
and as you grow older, it sunk, that you really don't need a perfect boy,
instead, a faithful & a consistent man.

Look at her smile
We don’t even know what she feels inside
Look at her laugh
She seems happy but it’s a bluff
Look at her eyes
It’s sparking like she doesn’t cut
Look at her wrist
You’ll see what u don’t know yet
Look at her body, so skinny
Because if she eats a lot, it affects the illnes in her kidney (stop body shaming!!)

Have you seen her cry?
Blaming herself for being a nobody

She is a failure, but tries her best to make you proud
She isn’t the most intelligent, but she tries her best even if she bleeds.

I am her & She is me.

It's 12 am & i can't sleep
You are beside me & i can hear ur heart beat
Your hand, it fits perfectly with mine
Can u see what's on my mind?

I found real happiness in you,
& your heartbeat is telling me you feel the same way too
God is so amazing,
Cos he gave me you, a blessing

Life with you is never boring
Although you are so **** ANNOYING
You’re so clingy and sweet
I no longer need chocolates

It’s been 2 years & you still never fail to show your love
God, how much I love this life
Thank you for this angel you sent from above