dont say you'll be here
dont say you loved me
dont say everything will get better
because it wont
dont say i'll be fine
because im not
dont say you understand
because you dont

and you never will.

drunken people are the best people
they laugh
talk to whoever
they let free
they say the truth

****** people just think
there always focused
starving for something
they dont speak the truth

lovers is a whole other story that nobody could explain
unless you've gone threw it

i dont hate you because you left
but i hate you for what you did

you left me alone
you said "ill be there for you for anything"

which was all a lie
you lied

2 weeks it took
it took you 2 weeks to move on to something that ****** you over

ill still be here, alone, waiting for you to be here.

the fact that it is so easily for me to put a cigarette in between my fingers
and inhale that nicotine so easily.

the fact that i can take a sip of ***** without throwing up

and its so easy for you to tell me lies about anything and everything
is what hurts the worst.

my thoughts run threw my brain each night like a crazy train.
each night i lay in bed,
thinking about how the stars are so noticeable but so far away,

and how the moon looks so little but is huge in its own way,

and how people can hurt such a delicate thing,
but nobody cares what people think anymore

because this world has become such a ****** up place.

the *** the drugs and the happiness.
am i right?

thats all it ever was

except you hated the drugs but loved the rest
thats all you loved

you hated when i talked about drinking or smoking
and it hurt you more than it hurt me

but you never cared
because if you did, you'd realized how bad of depression i have.

the tears, the cries, the fights
it was all just a game

game for you
but a mission for me

and you never understood that

until you finally realized that its not a game anymore
its a commitment

and im still on that mission to find out why you left.