i. Emptiness,
   Feeling the mess inside,
   Causes me to hide.
   Curling up, becoming smaller,
   Unnoticeable and unseen,
   Protecting some childish dream.
   Ice cold and burning hot,
   No existing name for this twisting pain…


ii. The barley still sways in the wind,
    The rain still falls down.
    The tide still turns,
    But I keep falling all around.

Heavy Weight
Won't Dissipate
CAN'T concentrate
I     H e s i t a t e
To move or wait
Stuck in between
Crushed underneath
Always unseen
Lying Beneath.

HyPeR hYpEr Energy
Leaking Seeping
OUT of me.
Coffee Coffee
In my veins
Caffeine Running
Through my Brains.

Insidious catalyst
Deadly poison
Cruel Desire
Crimson Fire
A poised ambush
Pulsing in the dark
A cancerous wound
Eating at my heart.

Taking steps is so hard
Without you by my side
Feeling half of what I was
My vulnerable heart still loves
Despite what happened
Despite what you did
How we caught fire
And I burnt down
Your flame consumed me
Dying all around
Suffocating, put out
But living kept you from the drought

Hello beautiful day
New shining light
One beating heart
Help me find a way
To overcome my night
To keep me from my darker part

The spindly, stretching, barren branches
Lifting their fingers to the sky
Reaching for the clouds, dreaming to fly
Slowly up and up, growing inch by inch
You poor shrub, you grandiose sequoia
Fate dealt you your hand
This is where you stand