I left
You fought for me for as long as your heart could bare it
I let you go
But all I wanted was space
Now I realize that it was the biggest mistake I’ve made
I miss you
And I don’t know how to rewind time
to have the feelings I have now
The passion
The desire
To love you
The way I should have loved you from the beginning

I am a healer.
I was raised to be one
I was a parent to two.
Because I was the eldest
Because the real one wasn't there to be one.
And I still get blamed
For everything useless and everything not having to do with the actual problem.
So I mend
My relationships because I am the healer.
It might not start out that way but it ends up that way 
It's my destiny
I can fight it, and I will
But who's to say it won't follow me?
Who's to say that it's just meant to be this way?
I am a healer.
I mend.
I put the pieces back together.
I fall a little deeper
Into an abyss 
Into the unknown
Into my fears.