because i had demons following me.
and for good reason i presume.
these sharks of dynamite continuously reminding me
that i am no longer a piece of you.

washing out the solitude of grace
there's nothing left but the value of your face
a wandering subject of mere confusion
forget all these holds, become an illusion

hot hot fears
i am riddled with your tears
a manipulation of the finest sort
you have ****** me in, cut my breath short

i must agree
you have handled me tenderly
when ****'s been rough
you stood tall, stayed tough

but hunny you are harmful
and i've been carrying an armful
step off my merry-go-round
and find yourself some solid ground

drip drops
on my tongue
burning down my throat

sweet poison
you are mine
you have destroyed
the entirety
of me

drops
drip drops
of soulless hours
and forgotten moments

you are engulfing me
with reckless thoughts
and sick mornings

drops of
nothing
but
darkness

the younger me
lies beneath my battered skin

frightened.

as if at any moment

i will tear her out
claw at her edges
and spit on her fragile figure

as if i will forget
toss her away
so she becomes a memory

of a nightmare
that can only be reached
by fingertips

and former friends

I let you sink your teeth in
release venom in my Veins
make me Cry out in shame

Please give me mercy
make up that mind
i let you Force me

still Searching for clues i cannot find

Recall this ****
forced to bleed
strapped down by duct tape

let me be your soul. your fearless night of conquering divinity. your everything true and faithful. your worthy lover. because you taste so sweet my dear, like luscious raspberry sauce and crisp summer sheets wrapped around us. under the stars. your words are fire on my tongue, laughing and rolling down your endless arms, gripping torso. let me bury my face into your neck again and lick the creamy scent of your earlobe. let me fight for you, because the snow has melted my love! our summer is here! but i cry those endless nights when i remember you’re still not here… (sigh) like swimming open water you are a depth beneath me, within my grasp i flow through you. you are my ocean, my incredible buoyancy. you are salty and chilly, stinging my eyes fulfilling my muscles. so let me be your soul… because never have i known one so beautiful, never have i written something like this entitled “For You”