I'm not sure how to describe it,
The feeling I get around you,
Everything is lifted off my shoulders,
I feel happy and relaxed,
I'm free to be me,
I feel safe,
You're like a drug,
Without you I feel lifeless,
There is no point to life,
Everything becomes gray,
And I fall to pieces,
So I guess I'll always be broken,
Because you love them,
But I'll always love you.

You took me away to a different place,
A place I had never been before,
I was beyond happy there,
I could've stayed there forever,
It was home,
You were home,
How could I know what was coming,
That it was all a trap,
I didn't understand what was happening,
Until you smiled and pulled the trigger,
And I was dead,
With the person I loved the most behind the trigger

I love you,
And it *****,
You are my home, my safe place,
I think of you everywhere I go,
In a world of billions I will always pick you,
The word love is a shout in the void,
And one day the world will end,
And one day nothing will ever matter,
But I love you,
And that makes me trapped,
I will never stop loving you and I will never love anyone more than you,
So who am I supposed to love when you fall for someone else,
When I know you will never love me the same,
When I can't move on because none of them are you,
How am I supposed to watch you pick someone else when this feels so right,
I'm so trapped,
Because I fell in love with you,
And it *****.

The dark alley fills all my senses and swallows me,
Cars and people stream along and slowly become a blur,
Shattered bottles and burned out cigarettes litter the ground either side of me,
I'm so alone

The dim light coming from the few street lights to my sides flicker,
A light evening fog covers the ground,
Sketchy light from the passing car's headlights slip in and out of the alley

Screaming and yelling from the city echoes around me,
There are a few police sirens,
Voices congest my head,
My stomach makes a low rumble, reminding me I haven't eaten in days

I feel so alone,
I'm scared of everything happening in my head and around me,
I don't know what to do anymore and I have given up

I am lost.

I miss your hugs and the way they held all my broken pieces together,
Or your laugh that could brighten anyone's day,
And how beautiful you looked no matter what,
But most of all I miss the memories we shared,
The promises we made,
The countless hours we spent together,
I miss the old you,
The one who didn't care if we broke the rules,
Or the you that always seemed to know what was on my mind,
I'll miss you forever and always,
You left scars on me that can't ever be removed,
You broke me from the inside out,
And the worst part is,
You don't even care.

I need you,
I can't survive without you,
You're my only source of happiness,
But you don't need me,
Maybe it would hurt a little if I was gone,
But that would pass,
Overall I'm just another friend,
You didn't love me the same,
And I cared too much,
But I can't stop now,
It's too late,
You have consumed me.