I've never thought of myself as particularly beautiful
I know I only feel this way because I am unsure of myself today,
but I am often unsure

The sweet smell,
almost putrid,
reminded me of you.

Of all the love
you tried to give me
that simply left me suffocated.

It makes me so happy
to know you've gotten what you've always wanted-
someone who truly loves you,
a person who will always be by your side.
Not so much because it warms my heart
but because I never stooped so low.

The bags under my eyes
are as heavy as my heart,
as dark as my thoughts,
the evidence of a shameful and lonesome life.

Love me as much as you can
and you will never regret it.
I will write volumes of you
and you will always be known.

I soon felt that I had not been defeated,
I no longer darted my eyes to the ground.

I walked with confidence and stared straight ahead,
to my once living shame.

Now it was quite opposite.
As I looked at her and gave her a sly smile,
She looked away.

Not in disgust, not like before,
But instead in some kind of remorse,
Knowing I was not at fault.

Only now, I didn't need her sympathy.
One day she'll feel it, and she'll know.