Going back to the same place
I can't even look myself in the face
I was running away from it like in a race
After all those years of massive endurance
I knew that it comes with no insurance
But now I'm back to square one
I would rather be on the run
I can't be here, this is not for me
Please open my eyes so I could once agin see
Like in a room that is so cold and dark
And all I need is a little spark
It's not worth it, I'm leaving my mark
Forever to remember that it's not up to us
It's now my time to go
I cant decide if you are a *****
Or is it just me that's crazy
And you that is lazy
And all I do is not up to me
Because I can not see
My head is not working straight
So how cud I blame you, to live like this, all the **** you ate
I want to know how to make it better
But looks like god has a different weather
Sorry for living like this all the years
When I think straight, it brings me to tears
I could only imagine what you went through, all those fears
I'm happy for you that you moved on to a good place
And don't be sad for me, because we are done with the race
It's not ur fault, it's me now
Sometimes I feel like god gave me the brain of a cow
Problem is, I don't feel it long enough
So then I feel like I'm tough
And I start being all rough
Forget it, I'm crazy
Truthfully, I'm the one that's lazy
I wish it was up to me, so I could've made you feel right
And make your life all nice and bright
But now I see what a failure I was
And there's no hope for me forget the buzz
It's better for the kids if I wasn't there
Because if I was, it will just cause despair
And they would grow up all messed up just like me
Not something that they need to see
So please I just have some small favors
If you could sing to them every night their songs with flavor
And make sure they know how much I was with them in love
Every day even from above
They should growing up, do things right
Even if sometimes it means a fight
That's it for me time to go
Don't think of it as a show
I love you and the kids forever
One day we will again all be together

When I was just a little kid in school
My teacher treated me like a fool
He had this crazy rule
To follow the study with our finger we must
Or all hell will bust

Didn't work for me, for I was in a dream
Wasn't one of roses and a garden
Nor the sunlight and it's beam
Was more of a long scary night
Where the young are filled with fright

I can't, but I must awake
For I know what will be my fate
There it is like a bullet to my head
my heart stopped for just a tad
As I hear that monster call my name
This will not be a moment of fame

Like to the slaughter house, I take my steps forward
My ears are ringing because of that lion that just roared
At this point my eyes can't see
For all eyes are now on me
My heart is in pain my throat's in a knot
Feels like my body is bleeding and my face is getting hot

Now on his lap with my face down
As he's playing with my **** as if I'm a girl in a gown
How clearly I remember the smell of his smoke
Rubbing back and forth with a gentle stroke;
Oh lord now the beating has begun
Please please just let me be a kid and have fun
Because I prefer if he used a gun

While dreams are meant for nights, it happened every day
I wanted to, but couldn't get away
As he was having fun using his stick
It just built my skin bullet thick
I came to school so I could grow right
But for me it remained a very long night....

On a morning so bright and cold 
They didn't know because they weren't told
If they did, they could've grown old
It suddenly came to a screeching stop
As if life is a complete flop
With sound so loud and frightening 
So innocent, they thought it was just thunder and lightning
But no, they realize it's all over now
A feeling like someone doesn't allow
Running and screaming because they were trying
Just to realize that it's a world that is lying 
While some of the souls are already floating around
With another sound, they are bound
No no no no no no no
Its still not my time to go
Makes you wonder what he was thinking 
While deep inside my heart is sinking